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Jinyoung

JinMark. That's how they call us and we are officially one of the most popular pairings in the group. Hah. Of course, they love us, we are obviously very cute together. I grin. Oh yeah, I am very confident but come on. Even a blind one could see, how perfect we are together. Me, the kid who needs someone to pay attention to me and Mark, the adult, who is the happiest when he can take care of me. Actually... he is the quiet type and others are way too energetic to have a good balance with him but I am also the serious type. Someone who likes to be taken care of but I also like to care about the others. That's why they call me mother of the group. And that's also why, the two us are great together.

However... Lately I noticed something, that evokes strange feelings inside of me. MarkSon. I know, Jackson is just joking around and Mark is not all that serious either, but still... It's only a show, something that our fans want to see but the two of them have such a strange chemistry together... they could do things that I... Ah. What am I thinking? Why is it bothering me so much? Between me and Mark... there is nothing. JinMark is also just a form of promotion. Bromance, the running engine of k-pop. Only a product of this industry and the decission made by the company. But I... I feel more. And I hoped, that Mark does too. But what if I am wrong? What if Mark sees it only as a fanservice?

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Mark

It went too far. Our relationship was now in the spotlight, the mean how to attract the audience, how to sell our music. Maybe, that's exagerrating a bit... it's not only us... there are other pairings but what we are showing.... That started to be too real. It was no longer just deep gazes or accidental touches. Kisses, hugs, jumping into the arms of the other....

I had to stop it. before we both fall in that hole of danger. I know, he is confused, that he doesn't understand... But it's better for him to get burned now than as if he would get consumed by flames later on. I don't know how else to protect him. I just hope, it's not too late. That he doesn't know what our relationship meant... that he doesn't realize why I am doing this... that he didn't fall yet. Because I... I am already lost in the flames.

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to be continued