Mark and I had been together for 2 years now, he and Jackson already debuted along with 5 more boys, they group name is GOT7, along this two years together, Nic and I would travel back and forth after finishing our college years, it’s been a year since we finished our studies and decided to move here to Korea, in my case, because I wanted to be with Mark, and Nic wanted to take care of me and be with Jackson LOL.

Nic and I bought an apartment at about 30 minutes from the boys dorm, Mark used to come almost every day to spend some time with me, even if it was at midnight, but lately with all of his schedules he hasn’t come in months. I’m working at a clinic near our house and Nic has her own photography center and works in the clinic part time. Nic and Jackson are together now, they probably got together before Mark and I did but we never knew, Jackson stays here sometimes; he turned out to become one of my closest friends since we got here.

Mark and I decided to meet up today, after mi shift at the clinic. Right now I’m waiting for him in the park in front of our apartment. I look at my cellphone and there are no missed calls or a text from him… Nic and Jackson are at the apartment already, probably watching a movie or something…

… I’ve been waiting for 2 hours now, and still no signal from him not even a freaking text, aish this boy… it, I’m not waiting anymore, I’m freaking cold out here… how can he do this to me…
I got up and walked to our apartment… when I opened the door y saw Nic and Jackson cuddled up on the couch… why Mark can’t be like this with me?? Why did he have to break his promise?? And like that while looking at the guys I didn’t notice the tears falling from my eyes till I felt Jackson hugging me.

J: Satang-ah, what’s wrong?? Did you guys fight? He asked while taking me to the couch
Nic sat beside us and brought me a cup of coffee…
S: How can we fight if he didn’t even show up Jacks? I said sniffing and holding the cup on my hands
J: Say what!? He yelled standing up
N: Jackson relax, don’t yell at her now… She said pulling him down… Come here baby ..She said hugging me now
N: Do you want to watch a movie with us??
S: I don’t want to ruin your night Nic . I said getting ready to stand up
J: Nonsense! You would never ruin our night, day or whatever; now stay here, I’m bringing more food and soda. He said walking to our kitchen
N: Don’t worry, we are here for you Satang, let’s just relax now ok?? She said giving me a little tight hug.
S: Ok… thank you… I said hugging her back.
Jackson came back with a bunch of food and soda cans on his arms… he sat between Nic and me, putting his arms around both of us…

J: Now, this is life… Me a hot guy, having a night with two lovely girls, what more can a guy asks for?? He said hugging us both to his body
S: I’m so lucky to have you guys… I mumbled holding Nic hand and hugging Jackson.

And like that I spend my night along with Nic and Jackson, not getting a freaking call or text from Mark apologizing or anything… It’s already midnight when I notice that the guys fell asleep on the couch; I got up and put a blanket over them to keep them warm.

Once in my room I decided to write down my feeling and turn them into a song for Mark. (Let Me Know by Travis Garland- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24uP2qfyGuE )


"Let Me Know"
 

I can't read your mind
I need you to say it

Plain and simple
I would give my life to you
Everything you needed
Baby I would be it
You're the only one I talk to
Who really knows me
Tells me shows me
That it's enough sometimes just to be myself

I don't want nobody else
They don't understand
That I gave away my heart
The moment that I shook your hand

Take my breath away
Buy me anything I ask
Go anywhere I wanna go
I traded everything just to know

[Chorus:]
Let me know you love me
Let me know you care
Let me know you're thinking of me
When I can't be there
Let me know you miss me
Call me up sometimes
I don't wanna go but boy you gotta let me know

Stop and listen
It's my thoughts calling your name
Screaming out the way I feel
I wish you would do the same
I think you might be on the same border
Same line same page
I'm tired
Listening to your silence brings the water to my eyes

I don't want nobody else
They don't understand
That I gave away my heart
The moment that I shook your hand

Don't let me in the dark
Let this blind over my eyes
If you don't feel the same
Is everything we have a lie?

[Chorus]

Please give me a reason to stay
Gotta get us back on track
Cause the worst thing is
Loving someone who doesn't love you back
I think you do but I need you to say it

I can't read your mind
Tell me from time to time
I need you to say it
Need you to tell me [x2]

[Chorus]

I can't read your mind
I need you to say it [x2]

Let me know you love me
Let me know you care

When I finished writing it I took a picture of it and send it to Mark, I hope he reads it. I soon fell on my bed and fell asleep hugging my pillow.