I'm not sure since when exactly we stopped being the people we once were. The first time we met, it was all formal and awkward. But then, we got to know each others day by day — and slowly, the awkwardness and the formalities were slowly disappearing until it was non-existent. Without us even realizing it, we were no longer strangers, acquaintances, nor friends. We became a family. 

  Circumstances didn't allow Taehyun to be a part of WINNER — and we were all very upset because of it. Seunghoon-hyung snapped, Mino-hyung snapped and so did I. Jinwoo-hyung didn't snap like we all did, but no matter how much he tried to hide his feelings, we all knew. I knew. He was just trying to be strong for all of us, to cheer all of us up. He wanted us to stick together, to get through thw good and the bad together as a family.

  "It's okay," he once told me. I was trying to hold back my tears, trying to be strong too like him, but I lost it when he had me in his embrace. He let me be the Seungyoon that I am, not the singer Seungyoon nor WINNER's leader Seungyoon. Just the weak Seungyoon who couldn't stand up on his own.

  He kissed my eyes, my nose and my lips. He kissed all my pain away, all my nightmares away, all my fears away and all my anxiety away. He kissed me a goodnight and I fell asleep to him whispering to my ear and the sound of his heartbeat. 

I woke up to his starry eyes and a dimpled smile. I woke up to his scent and his warmth and a small 'good morning' from him. 

And true to his words, everything got okay afterwards. 

  Circumstances may separated us from a bandmate Taehyun. But it didn't separate us from our brother Taehyun — our family. Even though Taehyun