[sekai] stay with me
drabble collectionPAIRING: SEKAI (Sehun x Kai)
Genre: (mild?) angst(?) with a happy ending?
Length: 1,190
Description: Sehun just wants Jongin to stay the night.
Inspired by Sam Smith's beautiful song, "Stay With Me". I would recommend listening to the song as you're reading (it was on repeat as I was writing).
"Hey..."
"Hey?"
"It's Sehun..."
"Yeah?"
"You know... From last night?"
(Why did you leave before I woke up?)
"Oh right, yeah..."
"I had fun?"
"Yeah..."
"So-"
"-Hey..."
"Yeah?"
"Can we talk another time? I'm a little busy at the moment."
"Oh... Yeah... Sure..."
"Cool."
"So should I call you or will you-"
(-call me?)
--
"Hello?"
"Hey."
"Jongin?"
"Yeah, it's me."
"Hey! How are you?"
"I'm good. I actually left my headphones at yours last night."
"Oh. You did?"
(Because you left in a hurry, yet again.)
"Yeah."
"Well... Do you want to maybe go out for dinner tonight and I can return it to you?"
"Er... I'm kinda busy tonight..."
"I see..."
"Another time?"
"Yeah... Another time."
"Ok... Well... Bye."
"Wait, didn't you want your-"
(-headphones back?)
--
"Hey, I'm outside."
"What? Jongin? What time is it?"
"It's pretty late."
"What are you doing here?"
"I thought that maybe I could you know... Pick up my headphones?"
"Okay, hang on a moment. I'll bring it out for you."
"And maybe we could you know... Have some fun while we're at it?"
"Yeah, okay. One sec... Lemme open the front door."
(And try to close the door to my heart.)
--
"Hey."
"Hey, Jongin."
"We haven't talked for a while."
"I've been busy."
(Trying to forget you.)
"Are you busy right now?"
"Not really."
"So, can I... Come round?"
"I guess so."
"I... I won't be able to stay for long, though."
"Yeah, I know."
(When have you ever?)
"Cool. I'll be there in a bit."
(But won't you stay with me?)
--
"Do you want to go for dinner this weekend?"
(Please?)
"Yeah... I should be free."
"So, Saturday? At like 7pm?"
"Sounds like a plan."
"I'll see you then."
"Yeah."
"I've missed you..."
"Cool."
(I think I might be falling in love with you.)
--
"I don't think I'll be able to make it tonight."
"Oh."
"Something came up."
"I see."
"Sorry."
"It's okay."
"You sure?"
"Yeah."
(I'm already used to you breaking my heart.)
--
"Why have you been avoiding me?"
"I haven't."
"You have. Don't deny it."
"What do you want, Jongin?"
"You know what I want."
"Well, I can't give you that anymore."
"Why not?"
"Because..."
(... I'm not a good at a one night stand.)
"Because?"
"... I don't know."
"So how about I come over?"
"...Okay."
"Do you want anything?"
"No."
(You're all I need.)
--
"You left your headphones again."
"Crap."
"In a rush to leave again?"
(To leave me again.)
"Yeah... Had things to do in the morning..."
"I see..."
(Why am I so emotional? Of course things didn't change? This ain't love, it's clear to see.)
"It actually isn't a good time for me to talk right now. Can you keep my headphones safe for me?"
"... Sure? When will-"
(-I see you again?)
--
"Jongin.
(I can't do this anymore.)
"Yeah?"
"I still have your headphones."
(You still have my heart.)
"Oh right, yeah."
"Text me your address and I'll send it to you."
(I don't think I'll be able to see you again).
--
"Where are you?"
"At home."
"Then why aren't you opening the door?"
"Go home, Jongin."
"I'm here now. Let's have some fun."
"It's not a good time."
(It hurts too much.)
"Oh... Is there someone else there?"
"... Yeah."
(No.)
"Oh..."
"So yeah... I have to go now..."
"... Okay then... I'll be leaving now. Bye."
(I don't want you to leave.)
--
"Funny bumping into you yesterday."
"Yeah."
"It's been ages, hasn't it? How long as it been?"
"A while."
(Ten months and eleven days.)
"How have you been?"
"I've been alright."
(No, I haven't.)
"That's good to hear... Are you still seeing... That guy?"
"Guy? What guy?"
"When I... Came round that night? You were... With somebody else?"
"Oh... Him..."
(There was nobody else.)
"...Sehun?"
"Jongin..."
"Yes?"
"... You..."
(... Said my name.)
"Is everything okay?"
"No."
(No.)
"What's the matter?"
"There's been something I've always wanted to ask you."
(Why did you never stay the night?)
"Oh, really?"
"Why did you never stay the night?"
"Oh..."
"It's okay. You can be honest with me, I can take it."
(I think.)
"... I don't know what to say, Sehun."
"Then don't say anything. Don't say anything to me ever again."
"Sehun?"
"No. I don't want to hear it."
(I can't.)
--
"Sehun. Please just hear me out. When we first starting... Hooking up... That was all it was. We were just having fun... No strings attached. Perhaps I should've realised that you wanted more but I was stupid... After a while... Things started to change... And I found myself wanting more than just one night with you... But by the time I realised how I felt... It was too late... You had found someone else... And then we just... Stopped talking... I don't know if you knew this... But... It's been ten months and twelve days since we last saw each other... And during that time... There's not been one day that's gone by that I didn't think about you... And seeing as how I'm like pouring my heart out to you right now... I'll tell you something else as well... It wasn't by chance that we bumped into each other yesterday... I planned the whole thing... Because I wanted to see you again.. To talk to you... No... Actually... I needed to... Because I've missed you... So freaking much... More than I thought was even possible... I know that I'm too late and you're probably really happy with that guy... I just hope he knows how lucky he is and that he treats you the way you deserved to be... Sehun... I'm glad that you're happy... And I'm sorry that I didn't tell you any of this sooner but I was scared and... I'm just sorry... If you want me to never contact you again... I'll respect that... But I couldn't not tell you all of this... Not again..."
"Again?"
"... Yeah... I was going to tell you all of this the day I came round... But...
"... I was with someone..."
(... That didn't exist.)
"... And I got scared of being rejected and I've regretted it ever since... But not this time... Even if you reject me and break my heart... I'll have no regrets..."
"You're stupid."
(But not as stupid as I am.)
"I know..."
"And you are late..."
(But better late than never.)
"I know..."
"Things have changed since then..."
(Because I've learned how to be more courageous.)
"I know..."
"Let's talk about this in person..."
(I need to see you.)
"Yeah?"
"Yes."
(I need to feel you.)
"Okay, I'll be right there."
"Okay."
(I need to taste you.)
"Sehun?"
"Jongin?"
(I love you.)
"Can I stay the night?"
(Can you stay forever?)
--
"Hey Sehunnie."
"Hey Jonginnie. Where are you?"
"I'm really sorry, I'm running a little late, I'll be there soon."
"Okay then"
"Do you want anything?"
(I already have everything that I could possible want.)
"Stay with me?"
"Always."
"Then... No... I don't need anything else."
"I love you, Sehun."
"I love you, Jongin."
a/n: my sekai feels. oh how i am so keurai rn.
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