Summer break was over. It is time to face school again. 

I lived alone. Parents went to heaven when I was 10. Getting help by my Aunt through all the hard times, I didn't want to burden him because she had enough troubles so I move out and live alone. 

Friends?

None.

How did I went through school time?

I sit alone at this one corner. Either reading or sleeping. Not really into social life. I stay in library during recess time. Or at school's rooftop whenever I feel like smashing things. I am like that for the past 7 years, since I lost my parents. 

Okay. I was a really bright person when I was a kid. Those who jokes and play around happily. But since parents are gone, I have this sort of bad temper, anger, depression, deep sorrow, bad emotional inside of me. It was a completely a different me. My surroundings are dark, I hardly smile until I met this guy when I was late 15. 

 

I sat alone in the class when suddenly this new transfered student offer to sit beside me. I was just okay, he seemed okay. We get along very quickly, he talked to me, share his stories and he also make me talk, smile like I used to. He is Byun Baek Hyun. My Baekkie. Which I never thought would be mine.

A lot of people starting to approach me when they see me talking like normal people. Which they used to think I'm abnormal. Baekkie have a lot of fangirls in that school. But somehow he did not throw me aside instead he insists me as his bestfriend. A true one, he said.

"Why did you choose to sit with me?" I asked on a fine evening.

"Because soon as I entered the class, I saw you glowing."

"Its not funny."

"I'm not even joking. Really, its like a ray of light suddenly entered my heart." 

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Baekkie took care of me really well. He is like a big brother to me. We would go school together, he brings me to hospital when I am sick. We studies together. Play together. Baekhyun knows about my life. How my past were wasted in a dark surroundings. So he always put effort in bringing me to theme park. And this one day he brings me to Namsan Tower. We ride the cable car together. 

"Hey you know. I'm glad I met you. Its like a dream come true" 

"Me too. You brought joyous to me. Thanks Baek ah" I smiled a little.

"What's up with a tiny smile? Smile more, you look pretty smiling!"

I looked at him. He is really beautiful. God sent this angel into my life. I lock my stare at him when he suddenly kiss me. On my lips. I'm quite sure I was shocked but I let him be. Because it felt lasting, like there's no more next time. Everything he did that night feel like there's no next time. 

"I love you so much" 

I hesitate so instead of saying I love him too, I replied with a smile, knowing that we are now together, forever.

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But things did not goes well like what I expected. Baekhyun did not come to school the next day after the incidents last night. I called him up to check whether he is sick or what, but he did not pick up his phone. I was feeling down and being quiet again without him.My friend, Chele asked me to go to his house. So after school was over, I went to his house, but no one is there. 

From a day to days..

A week to weeks..

A month to months..

A year to years.. 

Baekhyun did not show up. I don't know what happened to him. I heard no news about him. I did try asking his fangirls about him, but they don't know it too. From longing him, to anger and again I'm back to my old self. A sorrow lady. I never tell anyone I miss him, because I dont want to look weak infront of Chele or anyone. But I miss him alot. Especially when it gets chilly at night, I miss his embrace that used to warm me up. I sleep crying. My pillows were all soaked with tears. I couldn't help but cry. And I keep on assuming he transfered to other place and forgot me. There are nights when I saw his figure infront of me, patting me and ask me not to cry. There were nights when I suddenly shouts from my sleep. All I need is him.

Summer break was over. It is time to face school again. 

Now, this time. It felt so diifferent. My deskmate is a different person, I walk to school alone. I went to places I've been wih him, but it just felt different. But somehow, I can feel Baekhyun near to me. I could feel him watching me. Which sometimes make me tear up while walking. Its hurtful to not to cry. 

One day, Chele took me to a park where Baekhyun always took me. I refused at first, cause I'm afraid I'll break into tears again. But Chele insits that I must go.

We went. We sat at this familiar bench but this time I'm with Chele. Chele took her courage and asked me.

"Hey. Don't you miss Baekhyun? You are so close to him. But since he did not show up, you did not mention about him at all. I know you miss him. I see it in your eyes. Right?" 

I breathe in. And out with a deep sigh. I hold back my tears and finally started to talk. 

"Yes. I do. I miss him a lot. Even until now" Chele patted my shoulder becayse my voice were shaking. Then Chele give me a letter.

"He said to give you when you finally said you miss him. The whole school know what happened to him. But he already asked them to keep this secret away from you. He don't want you to feel hurt until you are ready. I'm sorry I really want to tell you earlier due to your condition but I couldn't break his promise" Chele told me. 

 

" TO MY MOST BEAUTIFUL ANGEL" 

The title of the letter already make me feel like crying. So I brace myself and read it.

 

" To my beautiful angel ever,

        Hey, you must be missing me already! I dont know if it takes a long time or not but you miss me and that's a good thing. By now when you read this I must be long gone away by your side. Do you wonder what happened to me? Have you asked those fangirls what happened to me? I bet they didnt tell you :P

I'm sorry I just dissapeared like that. I wanted to tell you, but seeing you have turned into a young happy lady, I decided to drop this letter when its all over. I had brain cancer. When I was 14, the doctor told me I was okay and fine. And the tumor will stop growing, so I attended school. And I met you. Which is the best thing that had happended on me. I was so happy to have an angel like you. I am happy happy that you could accept me. To be honest, I really wanted to date you out, but I know I couldnt. I went to medical check up onec. and doctor said I'm in stage 4 of brain cancer. I'm hurted, knowing that I must leave you alone. So I figure things out and brings you to everywhere I could. As long as you and I are happy at that time. I love you so much baby. I cried every night when I think about my death. How would you be out there? Will you find someone beter than me? Will I still see you smiling? That kiss last night I gave you, was a gift I long wait for. Its for you, only you. Oh and I leave a box at the park we used to hang out, try searching for it. Its a precious box of me. I want you to know I love you and I'm always missing you. And watching you from up there. I love you angel. See you.

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Without realising, I'm already crying my eyes out. I miss him too much. So I searched for the box, I found it nearby a tree where we planted it together. I opened it and saw a small box, it was a ring, written there 'baekhyun love ____'. There's a small note writing "This is my very last gift, i love you" I, somehow reading it like hearing his voice whispering to me.  

Why would you leave so fast before me?

I love you, too. I regret not saying it the other night.

Baek, I'll meet you there one day. See you soon. 

I miss you. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

**How about this random one shot? It right? I'm feeling sad so here's a sad one.(but i guess its not). Sorry I speak 3 major languages so English is my third so sorry for bad grammar mistakes. Leave some comments! I'll improve myself! Thank you for taking your time reading this.:)