Chapter 6

Of The Arts and Education (HIATUS)
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 He walks me back to the bench and has me sit down. He takes his place next to me and hesitantly puts his arm around my shoulders. I take the action as an offer of comfort and wrap my arms around his waist again and press my cheek firmly against his shoulder letting the tears free fall. I’m embarrassed to be this weak, but I could honestly care less.
     “It’s going to be okay,” is his mantra.
     Is it though? My fiancé just ended what I thought was going to be my future.
     I must seem pathetic. I don’t think Chandler has treated me special since he put the ring on my finger and yet somehow I dedicate myself to him and refuse to let go.
     This stupid ring. I grab it with my right hand and begin twisting it violently trying to take it off but Seunghyun stops me by placing his hand on mine. “Don’t,” he says quietly, being careful not to startle me. “Don’t do something you might regret,”
     “Regret?” I ask incredulously. “I’ll regret it if I don’t get this thing off of me and throw it in the nearest garbage as soon as I can,”
     “If you act on this now, there is no turning back,” he says gently with the wisdom of a hundred year old man. I almost belive him.
     “I just…I just…” I can’t finish my sentence and the tears come back. He replaces his words again with gentle caresses of my hair. He runs his hand down from the top of my head to the bottom of my neck over and over again in soothing repetition. I turn my wet face into his shoulder and take in a deep breath. He doesn’t say anything more as I have stopped my insistent urge to remove my ring. 
     It’s nice to know that someone is willing to fight for this relationship.
     Too bad it’s no longer the people in it.
   .               .               .
     I don’t know how long I spent like that but eventually I took my arms back and sat up straight. Looking across the road, I sigh. “I’m sorry,” I say.
     “You really have nothing to be sorry about,”
     “I don’t know how you can manage to say that. I’ve been nothing but an inconvenience to you since you met me,”
     “You’re right. From the very first moment I met you, you were a total inconvenience,” I turn my head to look at him, shocked that he was agreeing with me though it was true. “And I still wanted to get to know you.” He finishes.
     “I…”
     “You know…I knew about your problem before the incident at your house,” he says.
     “W-what-“
     “You were so drunk the other night. Do you even remember what you were saying?” he asks me. He almost seems as if he is having a jolly good time remembering the scenario. I don’t say anything. “Let’s just say you were angry at him before this problem,”
“Oh God. I’m so embarrassed,” I say, putting my face into my hands and leaning forward.
     “What I am trying to say is that I walked into your life knowing you would be an inconvenience,” he says and I don’t know if it’s because English is his second language or what but he sounds horribly insulting and yet so innocently sweet at the same time. “Okay, I don’t think that came out exactly how I wanted it too,” he says quickly, looking down at his lap.
     “I think I understand,” I say, though I really don’t at all. Who in their right mind would do that? I look up at him. “You’re not looking for a rebound are you?” 
     His eyes widen as he stares at me. “R-rebound? W-what-“
     “You know, like…a girl breaks up and turns to another man immediately for comfort."
     “T-thats not what I…r-rebound? N-no,” 
     “Okay,” I accept his staggered answer and lean back into the bench letting out a big sigh. My eyes are throbbing from all of the previous crying. “You’re a good guy Seunghyun. I don’t know why you would walk into a horrible situation willingly but thank you. I don’t know where I would be right now if you didn’t decide to make such a stupid decision,” I say, deciding that whatever reason he had, I don’t even care anymore because the fact of the matter is that he saved me. 
     “You said a lot of things that night,” he says, going back to his previous story. “One of which struck me especially. ‘I’m a strong and independent woman’ you said,” he imitates me and pounds on his chest. “You said that a million times. You yelled at me even. But then you fell asleep. You mumbled so many things. I could have swore you said ‘Don’t let me do this alone’ and although you were probably talking about your fiancé I just felt as if you were speaking to me. That’s why I decided to leave you my number. You seemed so afraid of being alone that I…I don’t know. I felt like you pushed me in that car for a reason. Like I was meant to be here for you,” I stare at him with my mouth open. "I hope I’m not offending you. I just felt you should know. I’m not telling you to let me replace your financé-I’m just telling you that you don’t have to be alone and it’s obvious to me at least that…that I was meant to help you get through this. I get it, you’re independent, that’s great, but independent doesn’t mean you have to be alone." He turns his head to me now and looks me in the eyes. “Believe me, I have enough in my life I have to worry about. I graduate this semester-so the fact that I am here is just…I guess I’ll just say I’m going where my feet take me and following them unconsciously from now on,”
     “You have a way with words,” I say, because I don’t know what else someone could say to that.
     “Are you angry at me? I realize this all sounds awful now that it’s coming out of my mouth,” he asks me. Am I angry with him? I can’t be when he asks it like that. Such a tall, deep voiced man with the conscious of an overly sensitive child. Am I angry with him? Impossible.
     “It’s probably the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me actually,”
     “Well, that went better than expected…” he says, releasing the air he had been holding in his lungs. “I know I probably seem like a wierdo right now but-"
     “Ya. Ya!” a voice calls from behind us. I turn to see the same dirty blonde haired boy wearing a powder pink button down dress shirt, light blue cardigan, skin tight denim jeans, a sylish black fedora and a pair of red and white converses. 
     Seunghyun turns around as well and they exchange some words in Korean. The overly stylish guy asks if everything is alright, if he should leave or actually order a coffee, and who this stunning lady sitting next to him was. I can't help but blush and I'm not sure if it's at the compliment or the fact that I understand what he is actually saying since he is speaking in Korean.
     “This is my friend Lynnette,” Seunghyun says, gesturing towards me. “Lynnette, this is Daesung. He actually lives in our apartment building,” he then explains to Daesung that I am a new tenet in the house. I think. Daesung’s eyes then light up and he bows in front of me with one of the biggest smiles I have ever seen. His front teeth are so big and yet somehow they work for his face and only serve to make his smile look even more endearing.
     “Oh! So nice to meet you!” he says with enthusiasm and a very harsh accent “We will be very good friends!”
     “Thank you! It’s nice to meet you too!” I say, genuinely interested in the boy in front of me. His smile has lit something inside of me that has managed to chase away my feelings from earlier at least a little bit. I feel like hanging around him may actuall

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Xiossi #1
Chapter 12: Awwwww, fluffy fluffy. I love it! The chemistry between them is amazing. And this is coming from an American dating a Korean! I can retalte in so many ways. Good job! Thank you authornim, keep them coming!
loyal4ygfamily5ever #2
Chapter 10: OOOOOHHHHHHH MYYY HAPPY DAYSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! I READ THE LAST TWO CHAPTERS AND THEN YOU UPDATED AGAIN AND I WAS LIKE, I DON'T REMEMBER READING THIS OH I HAVEN'T, OH I SAY!!! AND THEN i DIED AND SEUNGHYUN AND HE AND THEN.... OH WOOOOOOWWWWWW MY HAPPY DAYS NOT BREATHING WELL AT ALL OVER HERE. ahem.. thanks for updating. very much appreciated. Good Frozen quote too by the way :P
Xiossi #3
Chapter 10: Ahhhhh a kiss! He finally kiss her. This is getting soo good!!!! Can't wait for more.
loyal4ygfamily5ever #4
*Appropriately somber organ music* Here lies the story of Jillian "toptotesrulez5eva" Nadiak which, being most graciously shared with her thirsting readers did then trail sadly off after seven chapters and is now lying in the deeply regrettable state as you all see it now. This story did provide many hours of wonderful feeling and breathtaking enjoyment as well as several almost lethal heart attacks before its untimely slip into apparent lifelessness. perhaps even yet, we may see such a revival as would gladden the hearts of many a poor fangirl, not only at this present gathering but also in other places far flung around the globe.

R.I.P much beloved little story, not soon forgotten by those whose lives were brightened by your brilliance.
loyal4ygfamily5ever #5
Chapter 7: this is probably more than half not related to this story but the other night I had a really weird dream about my head scripture teacher, whatever you want to call her, and she was taking care of all these stray children and I was helping her and all this other stuff happened (it was way better than it sounds) ANYWAY. Before this story I've never thought of Seunghyun the way you're portraying him and it must be getting into my subconscious thinking or something cause I've started dreaming about bits of it for crying out loud! I've thought about Seunghyun liking kids and being a father and all that other stuff but not, like... that. and it's really annoying me cause It's so new and so beautiful but I can't imagine it properly but I really like it and I don't even know. dude, your story is giving me an existential crisis >_< anywayyyyyy, THANK YOOOOUUUUU FOR UPDATING! :D :D I don't have anything brilliant to comment, my whole life has just suddenly got about five more directions I could go and I feel lightly like hitting my head on a brick wall. so it was wonderful just to sit down and read a nice, happy, peaceful chapter about a Seunghyun that made me smile and an OC that I like. and I just noticed.... "Death grip around his bicep" my happy days do you have too????? that little kid that likes Seunghyun is scary though lol. she's the type that'd turn up at school with a machine gun to protect her property. aka Seunghyun >_<
MyDarlingLove #6
Chapter 7: Awwww cute!!!!!!
loyal4ygfamily5ever #7
Chapter 6: MY HAPPY DAYS SEUNGHYUN IN NIGHT SHIRT AND SHORTS?????? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME???????? *wrenching sobs and dying whale noises* I just walked out the kitchen still under the effects of Seunghyun in shorts and Jared says "Why are you acting bananas?" WHYYYY JILLIAN WHYYYYY???

anyway... there was something else I really liked, one of those bits I'd print out and frame. " It’s nice to know that someone is willing to fight for this relationship.
Too bad it’s no longer the people in it." I LOVED that! So profound and deep!

and I love his English how he just blurts out that she's an inconvenience but he still wanted to get to know her *loud AAAAAAAWWWWING* and then he comes out with this earth shattering "independent doesn’t mean you have to be alone" my happy days so deep!!! and it really is so true and wow how do you think of such philosophical stuff?

AND DAESUNGGGG!!!!!! aahhhhhh Daesung..... :') :') and imagine TOP just rapping not on stage just for fun... NO! and Seunghun with a tambourine.. stupid idiot what the flipping stuff do you think you're doing with a tambourine come here so I Can hit you with it! lol, I can see it so well >_< is there picture inspiration for his profile picture? and Daesung's clothing?

such a nice chapter :') Seunghyun is so nice and Daesung's existence gives me such happiness and Seunghyun in shorts is still killing me *happy sigh* looks like it's going to be a good day >_<
loyal4ygfamily5ever #8
Sooo, I've been thinking about the speech and description surrounding it and I just remembered something my Uni lecturer told us. She was talking about writing speech and she said that because we use it so frequently phrases like "she said" are almost subconscious, like our brains don't even notice it anymore when we read it. But at the same time it's an awkward phrase to incorporate into writing so we're better to try and avoid saying it whenever possible by using other terms such as she replied/shouted etc. and sometimes we don't need to even clarify that someone is speaking because the quotation marks do that, and we can give the idea of their emotion/feelings/way of talking/whatever like:

Reading The Pink Tie always made B more impatient with her little brother.
"Go away Jared! can't you see I'm trying to fangirl!" quickly she clapped one hand over and apologised. She hadn't meant to shout in his ear so loudly.

it takes up extra words but depending on how good you are (I'm pretty terrible) it reads less awkwardly and gives the sense of showing not telling the reader what's happening.

anyhoooooo.... yeah, I'll step out of your personal writing space now. I'm already missing updates :'(
loyal4ygfamily5ever #9
Chapter 5: aaand then Seunghyun's there to pick her up and hug her and it's such a nice way to end it :') lol, wow I feel like I need to write a conclusion to this essay >_< ohh and I loved reading about him and the kids. I'm preparing for when you aren't updating frequently and I'm having withdrawels, I can go back and have a couple of chapters to comment on without repeating myself >_<

crap I didn't realise I wrote so much... sorry for taking over your comment section >_<
loyal4ygfamily5ever #10
Chapter 5: I REEEEEAAALLY LOVE THE CONVERSATION BETWEEN CHANDLER AND LYNETTE! it has all this tension and shows how she wants to "be friends" still and how he gets angry again... AND dude you need a MEDAL! when I read it, I was so caught up in the actual story that Come Back Home didn't even register. every time I hear it now I start singing the song but reading the conversation it just didn't even enter my mind I was so.. focused or whatever lol. although, personally if I had been lynette, I Dont think I Would have been that nice to him cause I'm an intolerant brat lol. and then he just.... drops her and hangs up and my mouth kind of dropped and seriously I could have disabled him for life. ooooooooh!!! are you going to do a confrontation or something between him and Seunghyun and you could describe Seunghyun going all martial-arty and beating him up my happy days I'd die. anyway.

about the description of the charecter, usually it wouldn't bother me it's just cause I'm used to Jillian now I see you so... it doesn't really matter. If I read a story that has a character description I don't like I just ignore it anyway and imagine what they look like myself.

OH! I also really like how you wrote the conversation with chandler! it hasn't got any of the undercurrant humour from the narrative/main character's point of view. stuff like, when she left "Sprinting down the stairs wouldn’t be much of an understatement." I Can't find any others off the top of my head but when I Read it, it sounds... lighter? but this conversation doesn't have any of that so we get the full significance of what's happening and how serious it is and she feels it to be.
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