I do
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If you thought losing your boyfriend is hurt, then been betrayed by your own bestfriend is worse than that.
My life as a high school student was fun like others normal student does. I loved to come to school, most part of it because he was there ; my crush. I been followed him almost three years since I noticed him because he was one of my school basketball best player. But then, my last year of my high school doesn’t went very well. My bestfriend told me that him confessed her to become his girlfriend and she said he told her that he actually like her like-a-lot. It’s hard.
She was always be companion like a bestfriend always do, followed him, took a photos of him, send him a letters and present. But then… It’s hard. That was until a day before my graduation day, I found something truth that hurt me the most. Big lied! I decided to not hold any of feeling to him since he’s your bestfriend’s boyfriend now and he was one of your friend since then. I confessed to him the truth on my graduation day and the last day I step out from high school gate was the last day I thought about him and continue my life as a college’s student like others normal person.
Foreword
“ Hey..”
“ Hey.. congratulation by the way.” He said with a sweet smile on his face. I will miss that..
“ Yeah, you too. Where’s yura? I see her nowhere.” I asked referring my bestfriend which is his girlfriend.
He glances around him and scratch his neck. “ Well, she’s busy with family. You know, family pictures and those relate stuff.” I chuckle. Yeah, Yura loves those stuff the most.
“ Well, uhm I see you around then. Congratulation back dude.” I waves him a goodbye before I walk off to find my mom. Well she probably wait to take a family pictures to.
“ Are you just going to walk off from me just like that?” he asked. I turned around to face him with a shock written all over my face. What does he means?
“ No hug? Sweet words? I don’t even know when I will have the chances to meet you again soon. “ He said, answer my question that written on my face. “ I bet you gonna miss me so bad.” He laughed and open both of his hands to welcome me with a hug. A last hug.
I reply him with a sweet smile and run toward him to give him a hug. His warm body is so comfortable and I envy Yura because she can always has this comfort hug from him because he’s her boyfriend. And to think about that make me feel sick. I don’t want him to be with her but I don’t want to be a who destroy her bestfriend happiness. Regardless what she has done and the truth that I found out yesterday. I have to let go my feeling to start a new life again. So I decide to tell him.
“ can I tell you something?” I asked him and pull away our hug. His raise his brows signal me to go on.
I look into his face, try to find courages for my next words
“ I –uhm, I actually like you a lot since 2010 till now.” I manage to said those in one breath. I gain my strength to confess the truth. I can see he was shocked to heard that.
“ Haneul, but I’m-
“ I know, I know. You’re my bestfriend boyfriend. Not that I want to beg you to be with me and dump her. No, I wasn’t mean to be like that. I just want to confess you the truth about my feelings since today is going to our last day here. Don’t worries, you’re just my crush.” I chuckle upon my own words, yeah just my crush.
His face become plain and stoic. “ I means that. So, I won’t bother your day with my stupid confessed. Have a good day now and a head. Don’t hurt her okay? Have a good life Kai.” With that, I walk off from him. I don’t bother to spare him a glances because I can’t. He maybe thought that I was bluntness to said those thing out of sudden and just like that. But I was fighting very hard to hold my tears .
Don’t cry. At least I manage to confessed him the truth even though you’re confessed him for gain nothing but I feels better. I have to feels better. Goodbye my stupid feeling for stupid crush for almost three years. I’m sorry Yura.
Goodbye.
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My first writing about my first bias cc;KAI. I'll for your comments hope you enjoy my story. Yeay:)
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