okay.. hallo..

nonsense title as always, no grammar and spelling check like before. bear with me. 

When I arrive my heart pumping excitedly. I can’t wait to see my three child and my lovely wife. I gave a message to my new spy and partner to give my wife a surprise. Well.. you know him.. it choi taewon of course.

From taewonson

It clears appa. Umma is completely clueless and completely missing you like crazy. Hehe..

p/s: please make it right. I won’t accept and lame romance okay? Or I will be ashamed to be your partner. ^-^

I laugh to his message. He must be getting frustrated to all my lame romance to taeyeon all this time. Well, I am not that romantic man. I am totally hopeless about romantic. Huhu.. what should I do now.

I am in one piece shirt walk to the lobby. I only bring my guitar since as long as I know is taeng love when I play guitar for her. She found it sweet and I am today try to be sweet with her.

>>> 

I sit across the space of child playground. I nervously waiting for my son, informing me about their coming.

“umma.. will we go around today?” I smile upon the familiar voice. I saw dazzling taeyeon with her casual baggy feminine cloths with two of our princess beside her. While my son with his headphone following them. taeyeon gave siyeon apology smile.

“aren’t we had deal to wait for appa?” she softly asking siyeon.

“appa.. late” my little daughter answer. Make taeyeon giggled to her cuteness.

“appa late cause his work. Will you two be patience for umma?” she cutely act like begging to siyeon and jiyeon. Oh please, If she act like that to me, I volunteer to be her slave forever.

“I am being good just for umma” jiyeon fold her hand to her chest and make the remark. “so umma no cry” I frown hearing it. She cry?

“arasso.. hehe.. taewon..”

“yae?”

“so.. where you said you want to play? I don’t see anything you like here?” taeyeon look around and I lift up my magazine just enough to hide my face.

“I saw it on the pamphlet about the playground outside. Let bring woori yeon outside umma. I think you too need some air.” Taeyeon ruffles his hair.

“you start to be like a man. Gentleman like your father.” I smile and slowly following my family to the park outside the lobby.

“wow.. aren’t here is too….” She look around. I quickly look at other side as I am calling. Damn it.. hehe.. I just can’t help but follow her as close as I can. I really want to hug her. “no one? And the pool also empty.” She look at her watch. “it not too early nor late. Where is everybody?” she is the curious most.

“umma.. aishh.. why you always think too hard?”

“yahh… you must aware of something like this. It’s too quiet and it not a normal thing should happen at one of famous hotel don’t you think?”

“yeah.. right.. yah.. you two.. let play with oppa there?” taewon asking his two little sisters. Immediately agreed by siyeon and jiyeon. Taeyeon let them wondering around while she sit on the lazy chair beside that. She is very worry that she try to search the most clear spot for her to watch for our child. After a while I found my phone is vibrating.

From my wife

Hubby.. still busy? Should we go back there? Is everything okay? Don’t worry about us here, your son is doing well. I love you. Missing you too

I look at her from a far. She is tearing even a smile on her face looking at her phone. I feel wrong making her like that. I miss you too taeng.. and I am sorry..

To mywife

Aigoo.. I miss you so much.. can I send my kisses to you? Or how about I tell you a magic word to make me there any second? Mish you so damn much wife aa.. mwaa

From mywife

Magic word? aigoo.. I didn’t know my husband is having mental age same with my 4 years old daughter. You know oppa, she keep asking me to scream your name so you will come. Keke.. so ridiculous.. like you

To my wife

Did I read wrong. Some weird ahjumma said I am ridiculous. Hehe.. aren’t it you who keep poisoning our child mind. Hehe.. what are you doing now? ooppss.. I know.. you must wearing you supper y satine blue baggy shirt and sit beside pool..

From my wife.

Heol!! Hehe.. why I had feeling you are here around me. Must be I am going crazy soon. Missing you too much. TT,TT

To mywife

I am always with you wife a.. always.. and forever.. remember that!!! Or I will mad  -,-

From mywife

Me too.. don’t be mad. You ugly when you mad. Keke ^-^

To mywife

I am ugly but you still love me so much aren’t you? Hehe..

From my wife

I am.. oppa.. it weird.. the pools and lobby is too silent. No people at all.

I laugh to her worry. I come to here this morning and booked all the space of waterpark and playground here for three day. I booked the restaurant tonight. I booked everything for her and my child. o.. I also booking all of suite on our level so we had nothing to worry where to put my child when we are having some moment together. Brilliant am i?

To mywife

Good then. No one will flirting with you.

From mywife

You and your super jealousy. Never change.

To my wife

Cause I love you. I am greed and selfish if it you the matter.

From mywife

Or you didn’t trust me? Or.. I am too hot to handle?  ^o^

I chuckled to her so full of herself. But I cant denied the truth. She is too hot for me to handle.

To my wife

I am sorry I cant join you L

From my wife

No sorry okay. I am understand. Just don’t over work with yourself. Sorry not being there for and with you. Be strong. My hubby is more strong than iron man.

To mywife

Okay.. I had work to do. Love you. *kiss*

From wife

*kiss* love you too

I walk to the counter. Explained my plan to the hotel crew. I set my seat not far form my wife palying with our child at the pool.

And the event begin!!!

Plan 1

I ask my son and he tell me act like a secret admire.

Why!? Cause I am always admire my wife. Hehe

“miss… this flower is for you.” One of the staff gave her a red rose. I put a mini fold tissue beside the tray.

Taeyeon show a bit discomfort face. She look surround her, “who?”

“yes miss?”

“it madam… who ask you to give it. Please ask him back” she softly reject.

“I am sorry madam. I don’t know where is him now. please take it and you can do everything you want with it.” She reluctantly take it.

“thanks” she open the love folded mini blue paper

I saw a frown. Why? Aren’t sweet enough?

* Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet but nothing compared to you.* csLty

She left the rose and paper at the side of pool and continues play water. Yahh.. so.. Cold. Did my plan is not good enough?

I go and change my cloth. I wear like a life saver at the pool. It more interest if taeyeon use her bikini.. gahh!! Taewon should ask her to do that. Huhu.. 

I send a sign to the number two man. Serve my woman with her favorite chocolate latte.. also with another paper.

“o.. is this free serve?” I can’t hold my chuckled with her ahjumma mind. How can they give a free drink at the pool. All of sudden.

“the serve is free for you only madam.” Taeyeon brows crook with the answer. But she takes the drink. She must be thirsty and she took another blue paper on the tray.

“did the same people give you this? By the way.. do you know who am i?” she ask the man. She smile awkwardly to him. She must feel weird about people recognizing her since she didn’t active like before all these years.

“it is the same. You are kim taeyeon indeed. How come I didn’t know beauty like you” my blood boiled. Yahh.. back off man!!!

*There must be something wrong with my eyes, I can't take them off you*csLty

“can you send my words to this sender?” the waiter nod. “tell him to stop it. I am kim taeyeon snsd but now I am more to mrs choi siwon. But thanks him for this delicious drink. I owe him this.” Wow.. my wife is so loyal. Hehe.. good girl good girl.

I send a message to my son to bring his two sister away. I will make surprise for them later, but for now.. it my taengoo day..

Taewon look at phone and smile. I guess my son I very reliable hehe. Ehem.. just like me?

“umma… I want to go buying ice cream”

“where? Can you get for umma too?”

“vanilla aren’t it? Set umma.. can I bring that noisy two? You are not really well since morning” he beams his charming smile that he gets from me. Being cocky here.. hehe..

“thanks.. but don’t going too far. Call me if there is anything-“

“umma….” He whine.. taewon hate when taeyeon nag at her. He keep saying he is grown enough to take care of himself now. Taeyeon and him always fighting about it, and it will ended by taeyeon sulking by saying taewon didn’t love her like before. Make my son feel very  guilt and apologize afterward. Cute right?

“hehehe… sorry sorry.. just be careful okay? Siyeon.. jiyeon.. follow oppa okay?” she kiss siyeon and jiyeon cheek.

“we just going that close.. umma act like we gone forever” siyeon turn to whine.

“so.. everyone is hating me now?” she sulking. I don’t know why. Taeyeon been changed since we had choi taewon. The inexpressible kim taeyeon is become so affective toward her children. When I speak to her about it, she will answer she had to say it now before she is too late to say it.

My youngest girl start to trembling. “jiyeon love umma~~~~~” she scream and start to cry.

“look umma.. what you had done??” I laugh when taeyeon is pouting while taewon and siyeon trying to persuade their little sister. If I were there, she will definitely come to me asking me to persuade her since the three is not doing that to her. That spoil girl.

“arasso.. don’t cry jiyeon aa.. oppa won’t bring you around if you keep crying.” Taewon warn her. So she calm down a bit.

“but umma.. umma…”

“umma.. don’t sulking here. Appa is not here to spoil you. Say sorry to jiyeon. Explain to her you only playing. Aigoo..” she said. Taeyeon look at taewon and siyeon. Both of them nodding their head.

“oppa…” she whined. “jiyeon aahh…. Umma just joking.. umma know.. jiyeon, siyeon and taewon love me like I love you all too. Now stop crying or you oppa not letting you go with him.” She wiped the tear on the small face.

Three of them leaving taeyeon after a while. Such a drama for making taeyeon alone. Go go go go little me and taeyeon.

I use a mustache and wear a shades and a cap. Walking to her with my life saver appearance.

I walk closer to her. She still didn’t aware of me. She so concentrated with her leg dangling in the water. Splashing almost everywhere. I take place behind her quietly and before I able to act like I plan..

“you know.. two sweet words and a chocolate latte is not enough to woo me” her word come with giggled. She look back at me with playful face. A smirk that plastering on her face prove that she already know all this all along. “ I miss you oppa..” she cupped my face.

“how..”

“you wasting almost three hour having time with me by doing all this you know?” she still chuckled.

“why it always turn this way.. you keep noticing everything whenever I want to surprise you.” I whine. She kiss my lips. I miss her too. Miss her very much..

“knowing you want to already make me happy and fall in love with you over and over again mr choi.” She said.

“but still..”

“and I love when you being busted by me. It epic!!” she laugh heartfully. How I wish to hear it every second.

“you so bad.”

“your bad”

“yup my bad. I miss you jumma taeng..”

“I miss you too jushi won”

“can you act like you don’t know it me. I still had some plan to do jagi..”

“okay.. start with your silent work” she tease me, and I ignore her.

“just act along can you? Ready.. and action!” I speak out loud act like a director.

Taeyeon play with her leg in the water and I walk closer. Pulling a box from my pocket. Sit behind her and before she able to move from that position, I wrap her from behind.

“babe…” I whisper. Tug  away her strain of hair to another part of neck. I kiss her white nape. “I am not romantic as a hero in any movie you been watched. I can’t make another sweet words of gave you cheesy confession like them. Catching star for you? No I can’t, build a castle for you? I need a lot of work to achieve that. I just an ordinary man who fall in love with such a beauty like you. i am the ordinary husband that married a super wife like you,  I am an ordinary appa that lucky for having my child with amazing omma like you, I am the want who able to had everything because I had you kim taeyeon shi..” I stop a little when I feel her body tremble and some drip of tear fall on my hand that wrapped her. “my wife a.. when we are stranger, i afraid to know you. You just too good to be true.. When we know each other, I afraid to being close to you. Eventually you attract me like a magnet. When we are close, I afraid I will fall for you.  You are too high for me to grab. When I fall for you, I afraid to lose you. I nearly lose you in the past. It kill me to know you are not mine. When I lose you, I learn that.. only you can make me smile like an idiot, only that can make me cry, only you can make me the happiest man, also can’t be the most pathetic, you can make me feel want to kill every man who keep approaching my princess. You make me feel everything. So even when the moment I afraid to be hurt when you reject my love, I bravely asking you to be mine. You make my live complete than ever. We are friend, we are fiancé, we are married, we are parent, so.. let me propose you to make me be a ordinary grandfather who had a best grandmother for my grandchild.” She now cry even harder. I continue sway our body and put my chin on her shoulder. Back hugging her lovely to sooth the break woman infront me. I pull thenecklace and put it nicely at her slim neck.

“o.. o-o-op-oppa” she try to answered me with her cute crying. She kiss my cheek. “i—“

“mrs choi taeyeon.. would you be my woman for another phase in my life? We still had long way to go together, more phase, and I promise you, I will propose you every phase in our life. This proposal is will you be my wife and mother for our fourth child?” she nodded furiously. Now she is facing me. Hugging me tight. As if if she let me go, she will die. But.. if she not letting go of me any soon.. then I am the one who die. Out of breath.

Believed it or not, it was my 7^th proposal for her. 1^st is to be my girlfriend, 2^nd is to be my fiancé, 3^rd is to my wife, 4^th is to be the mother of taewon, 5^th is to be the mother of taewon and siyeon, 6^th is to be mother of taewon, siyeon and jiyeon. And the 7^th is being of our soon child in her womb. I will propose her again and again so she will always know I always need and love her.

“stop crying.. or your three warrior will blame me for making you cry. And.. it not good for our soon to be child. You know the rule right? Healthy and happy mommy for healthy and happy baby.” I wipe her tear. Patting her so I can reduce her trembling and tear. “I am sorry benn too busy until I didn’t realize I neglect all of my lovely person” I kiss her forehead.

“gwenchana.. I know you didn’t mean it.. you been busy for making our live good. I won’t accept you sorry.” She pouting. Taeyeon become more calmer now. She lean her head to my chest. Both of us having a good silent for few minute.

“but oppa… how do you know?” she look up to me.

“young choi is nagging to me about it.”

“he did.. aigoo.. I am so sorry oppa.. I am going to tell you but, either I forgot and when I remember about it.. you have work so I keep dragging about it” she look guilt. She always think about me first. That is one of infinite reason I fall for her.

“nope.. he did a good job this time. Even I am too busy, I should had my time to you and them. It a must. Work is not a reason.” My hand caress her beautiful face. She smile a little. “i love you. You still remember that fact right?”

She put her hand at and yell a bit, acting she shock to my question. “you love me? Chincha?” I pinched her cheek due to her naughty replies.

“way to kill the romantic moment. Mood killer” she laugh to my outburst.

“how can I forget when my dear hubby is keep remind me about it every night and morning” she pull my face closely. “thank you for you morning and night kiss even I am already sleep or still sleep. Thank for you little note you keep giving me almost every day for me to start my day. And.. you want to know how I knew you are here? You the only man who never get tired giving me cute notes like this hubby aa… so no need to asking me about your love okay. I trust you. And I love you too” she sealed it with kiss. Passionate kiss. We each other face until sudden voice behind our back.

“omma.. appa… no PDA please” our oldest son hissed. We look at each other and laugh.

“aish… omma appa” siyeon shook her head.

“appa.. eat.. mom..” our cute jiyeon make everyone laugh. “appa.. want.. to eat?” she shove ice cream to my face. “eat ice.. no.. more.. bite.. umma..” she scold me. Make we parent blush. Our child sure is very sharp with words.

“ottoke jiyeon aa.. umma is very delicious” I wink at speechless taeyeon beside me. She pinch me hard at my stomach. “wae.. wae.. I meant it.. can’t wait to eat you deliciously tonight” I whispered to her while pull her into my hug. “but now… WHO WANT TO EAT DELICIOUS LUNCH!?” all of my child shouting yes as answer. “I can’t hear you?” I asked one more time.

“yes!!!”

And we had very yummy lunch after that.

That night.

Choi family is having little campfire on the balcony of our room. Hehe… funny right.. campfire with no fire. Just a torchlight *thanks to my smart wife* in the middle and use blanket to cover our body. There are many snack there for them to munching. Taeyeon owned by my two daughters while me and my only son is chattering about anything we can. Sometime he try my guitar with his internet note. Choi taewon is taking taeyeon vocal ability. He had amazing voice that sometime I can hear taeyeon worrying this young man gonna make singer as his future career.

“umma.. auntie fany call” siyeon gave taeyeon her phone. I saw taeyeon shine in sudden.

“jagi.. may i?” she asking for my permission. Our family time is mean, no outperson. But look at taeyeon who bleaming like a diamond in  her eyes make me melting right away. I nodded and taewon look at me in disbelieve.

“last time my friend call you cut the call” he speak loud. Siyeon nodded.

“when natasya come to house you sulking as I need only three minute reasoning her to back home” siyeon continue complained. While jiyeon look at her bro and sis and imitate both them whining and complaining.

“let appa play something for both of you?” I wringgle my brows. “I am sorry.. your omma is too cute for me to say no?”

“you always being unfair when it come to omma”

“yes..”

“appa apologize okay? You two should know.. umma did so many for us. When everyone is upset umma is delighted everything for us didn’t her. So.. it okay if we make her smile some time?” I received silent as answer. “you my child need to know.. your umma make a  very big step and choice for us.. just for us.. so love her as long as you live okay?” I patted my children and start playing the guitar. I always asking them to love taeyeon unconditionally. I don’t care if the will puke as I keep telling about it. I just want them to know I meant it.

At the midst I can hear taeyeon ahjumma laugh from inside. She sure in a good mood. I glad she is happy, sincerely happy. Cause a happy go lucky and such cool as taeyeon it hard to determined whether she really happy or just happy.

“appa.. how can you and umma love each other until now?” taewon look at me. With a sight that full of curiosity..

“oo.. oo.. don’t tell me.. you.. baby.. baby!!” I call taeyeon. “taeng.. woori son now in love!” taewon in agape look at me, his face blush very red while his two sister start to . Well jiyeon just imitate her sister action. While taeyeon come with phone in her hand and shock face toward me. Her other hand hold the phone to cover our conversation from fany who is on the line.

“CHINCHA??” she ask at me and look at red taewon afterward. “who? When? How?” she ask almost excited as kid got a present.

“appa… look what you did.. anniya.. I ju..”

“fany ahh.. I am going to have daughter inlaw soon…” me and taewon look at each other and I laugh hard as I can. Taeyeon left all of we to show off to tiffany about it.

“your motheris too much.. hehe.. I don’t have any reason for it taewon. It just I love her very much.. one day when you meet the right one you will know..” I answer the question he asked earlier. “and you aare too young, my boy to be in that state. Study hard first.” I said. Earned nodded from him.

“I didn’t say anything about it. I just purely asking to know about you two. You and umma who act so dramatically about it. Don’t put the blame on me.” He give me it-all-your-fault face and I proudly shrug it. It not wrong to have that feeling after all.

We had family chat until it almost 1 am and my youngest girl is snoring and murmuring all the word that only expert sleep talker like taeyeon the only one understand it. Hehe.

“good night appa” taewon go and kiss his mom cheek for a while then wish taeyeon too “sweet dream omma.. love you” he bring sleeping jiyeon in his arm. Siyeon turn to kiss we both cheek and wishing god night.

“want umma to be with you until you sleep?” taeyeon asking siyeon and of course I shook my head really hard to my daughter to declined it.

“no need umma.. appa need you more” and with that I got a very sting pinch from taeyeon. We waving our children from our room door.

 I pull taeyeon as soon as the door clicked. “at last.. me and my wife time..” I kiss her lips for a while and look at her when she didn’t reply my kiss.”don’t want?” she chuckled to my question. I begin to confuse. Taeyeon walk and left me there. Hang at the wall standing with so much things in my head. Taeyeon plus preggy mean hell for me. She is bipolar enough in normal term.. when preggie? No need to tell me anything right? Taewon time? I can’t even say no to her anything she said or she will cry like baby, during siyeon.. I make many restaurant rich in 6 month pregnant. She eat like 100 time every day.. and jiyeon? Yeah.. she became very sensitive of smell. I can’t use any perfume I want. She choose it for me each day if I want to sleep beside her at night. And what will I will get through for this 9 month?

“oppa.. why still stand there?” she already sit at the dress table wombing her black long hair. “oppa..”

“yes babe.. is anything wrong? Did I make any mistake? Or.. you want me to get something to eat may be? Or should I take bath? Or..” my words cut by her lips on mine tenderly.

“o.. I just want you to make love with me romanticly you know. But if you prefer we had some late din..” she smile on my lips while teasing me about it and I kiss her hard.

“such a teaser..” she need to punish for her bad bad bad naughty teasing..

End of flash back

I woke up when I fell some one touch my hand. So I was asleep.

“harabuji? How are you today?” I look at young woman who look at me with worry face. “can you move to live with me for a while? No one here to taking care of you. Umma and appa is quite busy this week. Please grandpa.. I can’t gave you full attention at my place.”

“I am okay.. I can take care of myself.. aigoo.. you all are being too dramatic” I laugh her intention out.

“harabuji aa..” I sit and held her hand as I get up to sit straight.

“yepeutaa.. grandpa will feel okay in this house” she roughly sigh. It the third day she come to persuade me. Since all other of my relative is already give up to ask me to move with them.  “you the one who most understand me right?” I kindly asking her. I just can’t leave this home. It taeyeon and me home. For many years we live here, and how can’t I breath easily when I am at other place. This is the only place I can breathe enough.

“harabuji aa.. you wont go to treatment, you reject help from us.. it really not healthy..” she tell me softly.. I knew everyone concern about me but.. during my left over of life.. I just only want to spend with y beautiful memory with taeyeon in our place.

“I will come when I finish here”

“you will never finish.” She hug me tight. “grandma always said to me.. you heard to me the most” I feel her trembling.. “please harabuji.. let me help you. Can you at least get the therapy session?”

“you can come to this house anytime you want” and she cry in my embrace. Should I cry to or not.

I am scared. Scared to leave the world in the same time I scared to continue my life without taeyeon.

A/N

Hallo guys.. I am very sorry for not updating..

My lappy was broken.  He jump from my hand to the sohardfloor and I had to gave him a vacation. Keke. I always online using phone but, I hard to type by it. So I wait for my lappy instead.

Tq..

I will try updating soon..