Chapter 9

Hallo.. I’m back.. keke… how you all doing? I’m in bad days.. so many bad days.. huhu..

Plis enjoy the chap. ^^

 

I seat at the most hidden corner. Sipping my coffee latte while waiting for Donghae to come. It his birthday today and since we been not meeting each other for long time so I call for him.

It been 10 minute of waiting. He sure not change.. such a jerk. Hehe..

Flash back…

I pull vege Donghae to walk. He is drunk hard. He even cant open his eyes. Keep muttering something that I am very stupid to translate it.

“yahh… why are you acting like this?” this man..

“rtyueiwo hdbgfbclyd b. haha.adsji fhuyuskdbntreuwy” he suddenly stand up and punch me on the face. Thank that he is wasted so the punch sure didn’t leave a mark or bruise but.. of course its hurt.

“you…” I push him back and hold his both hand. Locking him on my shoulder afterthat. “what happen to you hae..” I manage to put him to my room. He come to my apartment last two hour and ask me to drink with him. We seriously engage in silent drink until he sprout some or should I say many bitter words. . . And many more..

It 3 am already. I am very sleepy but I had promise to taeyeon for driving date again tonight. Taeyeon is quite free from her schedule after almost two month promoting their The Boys. For the record we been far from each other for five month already. If we did is only on back stage just a small hi in sm, smile to each other when passing each other on any back stage. Too busy.. and me is always out from Korean for other country work.

I look for her number and call her.

TY:annyeong..

SW:jagi…..

TY:keke.. wae? I am on the way to your house.

SW:here.. here.. quick.. I miss you.. come please..

TY:such a whiner.. keke.. me too.. I will come kiddy….

SW: I know.. your future husband is waiting you infront of the apartment.. hehe..

TY: aye aye captain!!!!!!

SW: and you call me a kiddy. Huhu

TY: yes.. you are my kiddy. See you soon oppa. Don’t wait outside. Its cold. When I arrive I will tell you okay?

SW: shiro

TY: aish.. don’t stubborn..

SW: arasso.. come quick. Love you.

She chuckled just before she hang up the call. She must be with fany cause I can heard the speaker voice teasing her with our converse. Keke. Must be hard on her been teased by her member.

I go to donghae. Shake his body hoping he will at least know I am going out so he can taking care himself until I come back.

“donghae.. I am out for now. I will back this morning. Please take care okay. Don’t dirt my house.”

“umpphhh..”

“what?”

“wai..”

“just sleep”

“NO!!” I stop from walking.. look back as donghae is now seat straight and look at me. “don’t go with that !” I frown, oh.. okay is he now start to hallucinate?

“are you okay?” I try to walk close but he quick that me by smacking the glass with water that I prepare for him on the side table. His hand now bleeding, he took one of the pieces and now threatening me to sit at the single big chair at the corner of my room.

“don’t be fool by all that es!” he sound so angry.

“hae.. what are you talking about. I had date with taeyeon and she will come any minute.” I try to calm him. Also calm myself down.

“that whatever name is also a you know. They playing our heart. Act pure but a ” I just drop into silent. I don’t get anything about it. “I gave everything to her siwon ah.. I even be ready if she ask me to leave everything behind if she want me too. But.. she is not.. she is completely playing with my love.” He cry.. I never saw donghae cry that bad. His body is trembling, both hand palm to his face. “she cheated on me. That ing is totally a cheater. Cheap !!!!!” he look at me with red eyes. “can you believe it? It been 4 years.. four damn year I am being very loyal to the end.. what people said I keep ignore cause I trust her the most.. you knew it right? Everyone knew it right? But why didn’t her?”

“cool bro.. everything happen with reason. Did you had a talk to her?” donghae shake his head.

“I cant see her. It broke my heart even more.”

“you need rest okay?” I stand up when I see he is already calm. His breath back to normal.

“don’t believe at her too much choi siwon. I bet all the member is same as cheap ” he whispered it to me and I walk out from the door. Taeyeon is not like that. Instead it’s me who always make she hurt.. I am the one who too sociable to everyone that make her sometime being insecure.

“don’t talk about my girl like that hae.. don’t make me be your enemy.” I warn. Sound harsh but it for real. I wouldn’t like people to easily said about taeyeon like that. He chuckled during my way to the door. “whatever happen between you and sica is nothing to do with taeyeon. Stop blaming her or her other member.” So I take my coat and walk out from the house. Somehow I want to punch donghae saying something like that.

 

 

One message received.

From taengbaby

Oppa… will be there in a minute at least. Hurry up kiddy.. I know you still up there. Keke..^^

 

I smile to the message. She is very good to predict me.

 

To taengbaby

I am running to you my love <3

 

I am really running to the basement. Starting my engine and park in front of the building. Wait for a few minute. A petite figure with shades knocked my window.

“hallo baby!!” when she get in I hug her tightly. She laugh to my action. “do you know it’s hard to resist you every time I saw you but I can’t hug and kiss you?” she shook her head cutely. Act dumb.

“I don’t know..” she put away her shades. “but I am missing you too..” she lean and kiss me tenderly. “very much.” She stop and staring at me. “and I am a woman not a baby” she pout. Make me laugh for this time.

“wae?? You always be my baby. Where should I bring my grumpy lady for tonight?” she pinch my cheek.

“I am not that grumpy..” sulking..

“of course you  not.. keke.. I just kidding.. can we go to eat first?”

“erm.. ice cream?” I look at her. Assuring that I heard right. She nodded.

“like in this early in the morning?” she nodded again conforming the decision. “okay then.. as you wish….” So I drive and we chatting until I park the car at  a secret park. No one else here in this hour for sure. Taeyeon and me been spent many time at here. We seat at the stone next to each other. Munching a bag of snack she bring with. Some kimbab and a bottle of wine.

“oppa..”

“yes?”

“you know.. manager nim been bugging me for a while now”

“why?”

“you know.. about us.. and some member..”

“then?”

“If I ever do something may hurt you for all of us sake.. are you still believe in me?” I hate it. Really hate when she prefer her fan, her member over herself. Like this..

“…” I just munching and ignore the answer.

“oppa.. you mad at me?” she tugging my hand. Out her head on it.. “i am going to new york the day after tomorrow.” She still with her word.

“taenggoo.. you didn’t think of breaking up with me right?” she smacked my shoulder.

“yahh.. what are you saying?” she glare at me. “what with that in your mind. I just want us to make it clear to sangjangnim. It hard to hide about us from him you know.. we should just be like fany and khun.” I look back at the fumed taeyeon. Why am I think about break up. I don’t know. It just I know taeyeon too much. She turned down junsu for fan. She still agreed people to say her a leader for the fan. She blowing out at leeteuk when he talk about the earring in the star king again when the news start to disappeared just because of fan. What else? She rejected almost all boy who wooing her just to take care of her group image. Even other member been date but not her. She said she as a leader cant acted like that. Every time she did mistake the first thing she worried is her member and the fan.

“i..”

“no.. I did think like that first but…” she smirk cause she know how curious am I right now. “but..”

“yaaa… stop playing around.. why? You love me too much right?” I wriggle my brows so she laugh to my self-words..

“ keke.. no.. I just afraid you will kill yourself if I did that” she fight my statement back.. then kiss my cheek. “I just can’t find any reason to do that. You are too perfect for me..” she said softly with red cheek.. me too blushing to her saying..

“am i?” it so good when she said it like that.

“yes.. you are the best..”

“better than yong hwa?” she nodded.

“better that jang woo young?” she nodded again.

“better than g dragon?” she chuckled and nodded childishly. Can’t believe me saying that taboo name.

“and…. Better than kang dong won?” she laugh hard. I expect another nodded from her.

“that…. Never… hehehe.. he is too special… kyaaa…. Hearing his name can even make me so nervous..” she squealing like crazy. Make me hurt.. what so special with that man. Her phone had that man pic like ten of them. In her room at dorm, also in my house there is that lucky man pic. She watch everything about him in the internet. Huhh..

“date with him then” I release my hand from her. She still giggling to herself.

“he never look at me”

It make me burst even more. “why? If he look at you?”

“I look at him back.. keke..” she bite her lower lip and I know she is imagine that kang look at her. “aren’t he had superb lovely eye?” she is so excited every time it bout that kang.. I let a sighed. I never can beat that kang dongwon. The one she adore from before. Before she is mine.. “but just as a fan.. look only for second.. cause I had someone more important than him.” She continued. “they are better place but you are the best oppa.. don’t worry.. why asking me something not productive like that.” I hide my smile. Try hard so she will think I am sulking so she will persuade me.

“no.. I know.. I just..”

“lalalalalalalalalalalalala..” she quickly mumbling to cover whatever I want to say. Closed her both ears and shook her head.. snuggling her head to my body so I had to catch her in my embracing..

“taeng?”

“lalalalalalalalalalala”

“okay okay….”

“lalalalalalalala”

“are you going to be like this until we go home?” I chuckled to how dork is her right now.  I chuckled and try to stop her head with my both hand.. she nodded to it..

“am I dating a psycho?” she continue shook her head again.. “okay okay.. I am sorry..”

“chincha?” she hug me. “you know you are the only one right? Kang dongwon oppa is after you”

“wow… that’s hurt.. I thought no other after me since there is no one after you in my heart” I look at her guilt face. I want to smack my own head now. She must taken aback with that. “but it okay though” I smile to light her frown.

“I am hurting you again right?” she look down.. “I heard about stella meeting with you in new york” I feel nervous all of sudden. “hehe.. last week she come to us too.. she look even more beautiful from before.” I gulped. How can she knew about it.. I try very hard to bottled that up. “she still wait for you oppa..” she said almost whispered but I am not too deaf to not hear what she is saying.

“taeng… she is my friend.. nothing but friend” I firmly telling her. She smile a bit.

“I know.” She brushed the tense matter away. I can’t read her.. did she okay or what. I am wrong.. I never thought she will go to snsd during her visit last week. “hurry… hehe.. can I slept in your place for today.. I lied to manager oppa that I am staying out for tonight.”

“okay.. you can whenever you want taeng.. never be a problem for me.” I smile to her and help her pick all the rubbish to the dumpster. We walk hand in hand to the car. Teasing each other even I can feel she act so weird after stella talk.

 

During the driving my phone beeping.

“want me to answer it?” taeyeon asking. Waiting for my permission.

“please do” I said.

She clicked the answered button. “it donghae oppa number” she told me before greet the other on the phone,

TY: yes.. hallo..  its him.. he is here, driving,, may i know who is speaking?.... o.. really.. give me the full address please. We will be there in any minute. Thank you so much.. please take care of him for a while. We owe you sir.

 

I wait for taeyeon  patience telling me about it. “who?”

“donghae oppa at 000 club. Devastated. Let go and pick him.” I shock.. I forget donghae is in my house. And how did he manage to back to the club after I bring him back.

“is he okay? Who is talking?” I asked.. if someone release about drunken suju member then suju once more is the place just like when kangin get into bull crap he did before. SM rage make leeteuk hyung can even smile every time he back from the investigate room.

“man for sure.. but I think he is someone donghae oppa knew. He sound too familiar.” She assure me.

 

At the 000 club

Taeyeon do well by just waiting in the car while me.. once again becoming the picker for danghae. What the matter now. Sica and donghae is quite famous relationship in SM. Unlike us.. but.. the couple is very cool so it make the on and off almost every week. They fight then getting back together the next day. Donghae is very kind while sica is very cool person. This couple is most worried couple for leeteuk and taeyeon.

“donghae..” I try to make he wake up even I know it not that easy, his face beet root, his eyes red.. very red.. tear are keep falling over his face. Not to mention some lipstick all over his face and lips.. he must had some fun revenge in here while ago. 000 club is very famous with the hot waitress. “let me help you walk okay?” I am pitied of him. I glad taeyeon is not very sociable to everyone. I know it sound selfish but.. I am the man who is very possessive to be true.. I easily jealous that make me fear one day I’ll go overboard and taeyeon will sick of it.

“I just can’t siwon aa.. why I can’t do this to her while she is doing that to me?” he crying like a baby to me.. I just silent wait for him to calm a bit. “I am so angry inside” he clench his chess.

“I know..  I know.. but you cannot be like this. okay? Stay strong bro..” I said. We both walk to my car, to taeyeon who calmly help me open the door for drunken fish. Her eyes full with pity.. I doubt she knew what happen..

While donghae is not able to recognize taeyeon there. He just chuckled and gave flirting words to her, smacking taeyeon and laugh happily.

“yah.. siwon ahh.. you sure know how to get hotter woman than taeyeon” his statement like lightning to me. What is he talking about. Damn… I didn’t!!!

Me and taeyeon once more drop into dreadful silent..

“hallo.. hehe.. it me.. donghae oppa.. yes… hehe.. aigoo.. how can I didn’t notice hot girl like you…. Aahh.. should we had date tomorrow… hot .. I am ing hell to meet you.. aishh.. anni.. no.. she and me is not an item.. just my dongsaeng or should is said ing buddy??.. how bout you?....... I am not…. See you tomorrow at the club.. yes.. please wear the most iest so I will take you home with me.. hehehe.. naughty.. love you too.. mwahhhhhh” donghae call almost 5 difference girl that I don’t who is that.. the things that I know is the fumes taeyeon beside me. Nothing out of . Her face show disgust as donghae to everyone. She hold it very well as she is not bursting in the car.

 

Siwon home

 Donghae walk funnily to the room. The guest room. Since me a bit rich from them they like to had fun in my apartment. I own two house. One is apartment and one more is a villa… since me and taeyeon had schedule for tomorrow I prefer we to go to apartment, it nearer to the office and airport.

“baby..” she look at me.. a small smile come after that. “you want me to cook something?” I asked. It just slips from my mouth. She laugh to my impossible offer.

“are you trying to make me work up all night to clean your mess for cooking. Anni.. I am okay..” she knuckled my forehead. “I just need some rest.” She assured me. A little in my head is keep asking my mouth to explain what donghae said is nothing but I didn’t dare. I afraid we will start accused each other.

“hehe.. I am sorry. Yeeah.. you should go and rest early.. I mean you only had four hour to sleep babe..”

“yeah.. I know.. are you okay?” what with the question. Am I look not?  I just smile. Hold her hand and pull her into my embrace. “see you when I am coming back here again”

“yeahh.. you sound like you go without goodbye tomorrow”

Chuckled. “I don’t know but.. it just..” she kiss me.. quick one. “nyte.. love you..” she walk to her room.  Stop in front her room and look back at me. We both static in that position. She look like she had something to say or ask and me, look like had something to explain, get ready for every or any question that comes from her.. thinking hard even she just look at me. But.. we choose to ignore that feeling.

“sleep tight baby. See you tomorrow.. I love you” I said and she disappear behind the door. I relieve a very deep sigh. Huhu.. what is happening here.

Tomorrow morning.

“!!!!!!” I blinked my eyes as I heard scream from donghae room. Not just me cause taeyeon also rush from her room hearing the scream. The glass scatter on the floor. It make me worry about taeyeon if danghae out of his mind.

“hae oppa..” taeyeon try to help donghae up from the floor. The room is mess. Very mess. Paper everywhere, the glass is all over the floor.

“what are you doing !” he push taeyeon roughly. That petite body roughly went to the wall across the living room. Its boiled my blood immediately. I run to him and punch him on his face.

“what are you thinking are you doing you dimwit!!!” I yelled. Try to slowing down my breathing as I walk to taeyeon. Supporting her by holding her both shoulder. “are you okay jagi?” she nodded, smiling at me. Enough for me to calm in a second.

“you!!!!” This time I realize something.. there were someone else at the corner of my living room. Guess who.. it Jessica jung. The one who make my bro miserably in this week. I am in guilty position. Knowing donghae he will never telling the truth about it was sica who cheated behind his back. Knowing sica.. she must be feeling very guilty until she is ready for everything that donghae will do to her for forgiveness. Knowing taeyeon.. she is always defend her group mate. And me.. i trying hard to be fair to everyone.

“oppa.. let talk about it nicely” taeyeon look at sica.. look at donghae. Must be weird about all this.. as far as I know.. taeyeon was not inform about it. All snsd member knew but not kim taeyeon. She is the most closest to us suju. People may said it was yoona but to be true.. yoona is close with everybody than taeyeon. Taeyeon is our little dongsaeng. Her tomboyish personality make suju member a bit confortable around her. She might kill sica if she knew sica cheated to her bro.. she might sulk forever to every member didn’t said anything to her about sica wrong doing. She might hating me keeping such secret from her. She hate that most between us two.

Donghae come closer and PPANG.. he slap sica face. As reflex is taeyeon when there and slap back donghae face.

“don’t you dare to even touch my sister like that. off” she burst. Sica still silent as the slap must be shock her cause donghae never be rough to her. And that must hurt cause her face is changing into red and swell.

“hahaha… off?? I am.. going to off kim taeyeon ssi.. actually.. I am too.. sick with you woman.” Donghae change his face from taeyeon to crying sica. “to be truth.. I am with you just cause I pitied of you. Being in relationship but no one able to handled your superdemanding attitude of yours. It only me Jessica jung.. just me who want you.. haha.. talk about all this nicely.. I am sorry.. ing with some other hot girl and you try to make me jealous by coffee date with taecyeon? Hehe.. hey.. that not for make me to be jealous.. it just proving me you are S.L.U” sica push donghae and out from the house. Taeyeon glare in disbelieve to donghae. I knew.. sica not angry but hit by guilty by big help from donghae to cover her in front of taeyeon.

“what are you doing oppa.. you are hurting my sister.. and you put all the blame to her?” her face is very tense. Clenching her fist and trembling is in her voice. “I hate you oppa.. I thought you the best for her” she left me and donghae.. as taeyeon walk away, I believe she is running after sica.

“hae… what are you doing.. you never sleep or cheat sica.. what are you trying to do?” I sit beside him.

“cause I am too.. thought I am the best for her siwon. But nope.. at least for the last I hope I am doing the best for her. I am sorry.. you must had hard time to make up with taeyeon after this..” he stand and walk to room. Leaving me alone.. is that power of love.. If I am in donghae place, will I do like that too?

 

The week is silently happen.. taeyeon is still silent.. didn’t inform me anything. May be they are busy for their japan tour so I let her be.

“bro.. let go to the club” I heard heechul call donghae.. I went to the big dorm. Donghae is act cool as hard as he can. But.. we, heechul, eunhyuk and me is knowing it well. He is really broke.

“nahh.. I prefer stay at home”

“aisshh.. it been four days.. let had fun.. siwon is going too.. come.. eunhyuk aa… pick dress for our bro.” eunhyuk chuckled and run to the room.

“aishh… I don’t want…”

“come on.. chill up.. let had fun till we drunk..” heechul nudge me.

“let go hae.. it been long time we had been too had fun together.” Heechul smirk and donghae look at me. For few minute he think, and nodded at last.

“you.. are you okay with taeyeon. Is she push you out again?” I only smile with heechul’s question.

“that young girl really need to be discipline how to take care of her future husband.” I blush just to think we gonna be married in future. “and I heard you going out with stella?” he asking me seriously now. “don’t you ever make my dongsaengi hurt” he warn me with a smile. But sure make me shiver to his words.

“hyung..”

“it okay.. I believe in you,, it just.. taeyeon is not me. You understand what I am talking right.. just be careful with that girls silentness. She is quite depressed nowadays.” I nodded and agree. Yes..

 

 

The music boom hard.. somehow.. I am enjoying it,, since it just us.. I felt so free.. I checked on phone..

 

A message from taengbaby

Oppa.. just finish practice. How are you doing? Is hae oppa okay now? What are you doing? I miss you..

 

I smile to the message.. I miss her too, when I was typing the reply  message someone pull the phone from me.. I look back..

“hye handsome oppa.. someone is so free tonight?” I look at her.. yes.. her… my past.. “had you forget the rule in club? No phone allowed.” Stella smile at me and give me back the already switched off phone. “how are you oppa?” she take sit beside me. Smiling happily.

“hey.. hehe.. you still in seoul?” I still feel nervous to her. Not like I love you but, knowing in past how much a dore her make me become so much uncomfortable to be with her.

“why? I can’t? Don’t tell me you still hating me” she chuckled to her epic question but me.. I am questioning myself again about it.. did I still hating a girlfriend who leave me without telling me anything to new york for her carrier.. did i? yes I am.. until I fall for taeyeon. Until she knocked my head about it.. hating is wasting.

“no.. why would i.. it just the past. I think you did make a good choice for it. Don’t misunderstand. I just shock to see you here since, you tell me that you only a week here.”

“hehe.. oppa.. it not week yet.. I had two more day here. And I really hope you asking me to date when I told you about me free for week in seoul.” I join her laughed. She must clueless about the relationship behind stage of me and taeyeon. Or she will never dare to talk to me like this.

“I am sorry..”

“I only accept if you going to the dancing floor with me.” She wink. Walk before I can reject the offer. It take me to drink three cup of vodka before follow her to the floor. I am so confused.. follow or not.. I drank three more vodka and follow her to the dancing floor. Just for dancing. Just for fun anyway,.. taeyeon is not here and.. I believe she is not easily jealous with it. She will understand my friendship of course.. just like always.

The music is so damn good. The booom boom here.. boom boom there.. everywhere boom boom. Make me pumping up.. pumping it with her and start doing some couple dance due to the excitement I had. I sometime went to the bar and drank one or two more some alcoholic drink. Then continue to dancing on the busy space again.

“oppa…” stella call for me.. I  look at here blurry.. she still beautiful like before.. but I am sure my taeyeon beauty is thousand more catching my breath then her. Kim taeyeon a… the song been change to the slow one.. and so.. she take the role as my partner. Hanging her slander hand around my neck.. and as the gentleman I reply the action by putting my both hand around her waist. Swaying our body into one follow the music. I swear the moment doesn’t mean anything to me. No heart beating when I am with taeyeon. No electrocuted that shock my body like every time taeyeon touch me.. I smile.. I don’t know that is the most stupid things I ever dare to do. I only realize that after the song was stopped. When I open my eyes and  taeyeon is smiling bitterly at me from a far. It was too late when I push stella body from my embrace. She saw everything.. I think..

God what I’ve done?

The shock make me even awake from almost two bottle of vodka I had earlier.

“wae oppa?” she ask me.. she must be shock cause I push her so sudden. “you still like before. So warm..”

“humph.. sure..” my body feel so hot right now. I can see on the other side all of snsd member gather all at the other vip section beside us.. Yuri and  hyoyeon is keep dancing like crazy.. sooyoung and yoona also with seohyun is making another small group on the dancing floor. Fany is drinking with sunny. Sica is sit all alone and I know her eyes is on donghae who crazily kissing and rubbing all the hot girls around him. I am so sorry to tell that that boy is totally drunk to aware what is he even doing.

“yahh.. woori dongsaeng is here” heechul run to other VIP space beside us. “yahh.. you keep telling me you missing your girl. She in front you.. don’t waste your time.” Heechul patted me and stella look at me. Asking what the meaning trough her eye.

“I am so sorry stella.. I am with taeyeon right now.. I am so sorry not telling you soon.” She cry.. crying on the spot as I finish telling her about it. “i…”

When I am trying to sooth her I heard other commotion from aside. Donghae is stand infront of taeyeon, sica holding taeyeon left hand. Heechul is making wall between donghae and my girlfriend.

 

“you!!” taeyeon voice is making her member get back to her. It rare for taeyeon to being that mad, its scared everyone there.

“wae??”

“stop it oppa” sica begged. Make donghae laughed. Make taeyeon face darken.

“whatever I do is nothing to do with you . like you don’t had any right to stop me.” The words sounds so cruel. Luckily it just us who in that vip area. Sooyoung act clever cause she and snsd maknae hurried to empty the area.

“stop cursing! What are you thinking calling my sister like that. Apologize now!” taeyeon demanding with high tone voice. Able to jerk everyone there.

“taenggoo.. it okay”

“no sica.. it not okay.. what did you ever do so he can insulting you like this.. I didn’t like it.. hating it so much into my bone!” she yank sica hold.

“I am insulting!!?? No, I am not so called SNSD leader. Your member here is so good in playing with guys..”

“oppa!!” sica scream too. Enough when he said she is a . She accept it cause if a woman is changing love to other man is . She don’t care. But.. she is not sleeping around like a e if that donghae thought. “I am sorry. Please.. don’t fight for me” she crying like a baby. Fany hold her while taeyeon is only stand there with no emotion. She still with her fire glare to donghae.

 “fight for you.. yes.. here I am.. fighting for you Jessica jung. After many years…..” he chuckled a bit. Move closer to taeyeon “ kim taeyeon ssi.. wanna sleep with me?” it my turn to burning inside. Quickly go closer to taeyeon. Taeyeon is so burst.

“who do you think I am? You kiss almost all girl around the table, eating all you can on their face. And here you keep telling that sica is very cheap. How about you oppa? So expensive with all that? You such a head. for hurting my member!. Watch your mouth cause you know I will do anything to keep my member.”

“so.. you will sleep with me?” taeyeon answer with silent. “or should I try the maknae over there?” and taeyeon pull donghae from seohyun. “wae? Aren’t all of you is,,”

“I said STOP!!!!!” sica screamed. Stoping danghae words. “I am so sorry that my heart was changing. I cant control it hae oppa.. I loved you. Loved.. but time to time my heart grew to fall in love with taecyeon. I didn’t know how, since when but.. he got me oppa.. I begged you.. just punish me.. don’t take the blame.. I am who is the wrong, but you still acting like you are the in this relationship. Making taeyeon to hating you to save me? You just making me the worse person ever oppa. Please.. stop ating like this..” she crying hard.. trembling as she let out those words clearly for everyone there. “stop fighting.. I am the problem here.” She felt down… fany quick hug her.

Heeechul shook her head. “I’ve told you.. just move on.. it better than acting like this hae..” he pull donghae to sit. Everyone know the situation and just calmly on their own place. I try to get closer to my girl. She is stand there silent after the confession.

“taengbaby..” I try to called her. Nervously.. enough with sica matter, I more scare with the scene I’ve made earlier. She closed her eyes taking deep breath.

“I am going home first.” I saw 8 pairs of eyes is looked at me. Her member is scare of her now. They been keep this secret from taeyeon for more than a week already.. and the truth was out at last. The moment they don’t want is here.

“taetae..”

“I am very angry so don’t you ever call my name or I am blown right here and right now.” Her slow deep voice froze all of us. she walk away leaving us there without goodbye..  

 

We had very solemn clubbing afterward. The music still blasting but the two vip area is darken with only us know the reason.

“girls.. you had to go back now.” Manager hyung counting head of them. “and where is the leader?” he asked all of 12 of us there.. frown a little when he realize sica is sobbing hard on the couch. Flopping beside tiffany and yoona. “wait.. are you fighting again?” he asked and walk to sica. Forcing sica to look at him. Sooyoung quickly pull the forcefully hand of the manager. Didn’t like what she the action.

Manager hyung look at four of us. his eyes stick at donghae for sure. “are you two breaking up?” he look at me after that. “ and you.. what are you doing with your ex is hanging on your very muscular hand” I look aside me.. I forgot to tell you.. I am so much gentle man so.. leaving my ex standing alone crying is also not a manner for me.. I bring her with me standing here. I didn’t even realize she hug my hand all the time.

“i.. I am sorry” stella apologize since sunny throw her a dagger for it.

“no.. it okay..” I said.. It not her fault of course.

“who know where is taeyeon? I will talk to all of you tomorrow at office. You all sure like to see me struggle to keep my job aren’t it?” he shook his head. Taking out his smart phone calling for kim taeyeon. Mad kim taeyeon..

“fany… the van is waiting for all of you. Back to the dorm first. I will settle with taeyeon after this. inform me if taeyeon get back okay. Move girls..” the manager said as his phone on his cheek waiting the call answered by taeyeon.

I asked for stella to sit while me went to manager hyung. “did she answered?”

“I don’t know what happen but.. this all things.. gonna be big if it lack to fan or what.. this is why I keep telling you all to never date.. its will make everything be more complicated.” He fire out. “you.. what are you doing partying with your ex her? Don’t you think about her feeling? Did you ever know she keep hurting by your superhot ex.. she never said it but… she is hurt..” he scold my insensitivity.. seriously.. I feel guilty all over my body.. my heart.. my head pain in sudden.. what is happening to us..

“hyung..”

“you all should go back too” he cut eunhyuk who just come to us. he grinned to the warned.

“we are.. sorry hyung.. siwon ahh.. let go back.. can you send she go to the hotel?” eunhyuk signaling silent stella who sit beside donghae. She looking at me with her red eyes..

“I don’t care just go..” the manager leaves us with so tense face.. he must be worried to sulking taeyeon.. tomorrow is the day taeyeon and her member go to new york.. the great letterman interview they say..

 

“can you send her?” I whispered to eunhyuk. Heechul try to listen. He became so much silent.. it weird but.. I didn’t  dare to asked anything. He will be sensitive as taeyeon is involved someway in this matter.

“oppa.. I can get cab to hotel.. don’t worry..” stella is catching the fear I have.. of course.. I afraid its will make worse between me the liar with the rage taeyeon..

But I cant do like that.. I just cant.. it dangerous to let her alone.. it early in the morning actually.. a little bit pass of midnight. “no.. I will send you.. it okay.. I drive my own car.. don’t you dare to be alone at this late.” I scold her.. gave her a sweet smile so I can take back bad impression she read earlier..please believe and trust me more kim taeyeon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 9

Hallo.. I’m back.. keke… how you all doing? I’m in bad days.. so many bad days.. huhu..

Plis enjoy the chap. ^^

 

I seat at the most hidden corner. Sipping my coffee latte while waiting for Donghae to come. It his birthday today and since we been not meeting each other for long time so I call for him.

It been 10 minute of waiting. He sure not change.. such a jerk. Hehe..

Flash back…

I pull vege Donghae to walk. He is drunk hard. He even cant open his eyes. Keep muttering something that I am very stupid to translate it.

“yahh… why are you acting like this?” this man..

“rtyueiwo hdbgfbclyd b. haha.adsji fhuyuskdbntreuwy” he suddenly stand up and punch me on the face. Thank that he is wasted so the punch sure didn’t leave a mark or bruise but.. of course its hurt.

“you…” I push him back and hold his both hand. Locking him on my shoulder afterthat. “what happen to you hae..” I manage to put him to my room. He come to my apartment last two hour and ask me to drink with him. We seriously engage in silent drink until he sprout some or should I say many bitter words. . . And many more..

It 3 am already. I am very sleepy but I had promise to taeyeon for driving date again tonight. Taeyeon is quite free from her schedule after almost two month promoting their The Boys. For the record we been far from each other for five month already. If we did is only on back stage just a small hi in sm, smile to each other when passing each other on any back stage. Too busy.. and me is always out from Korean for other country work.

I look for her number and call her.

TY:annyeong..

SW:jagi…..

TY:keke.. wae? I am on the way to your house.

SW:here.. here.. quick.. I miss you.. come please..

TY:such a whiner.. keke.. me too.. I will come kiddy….

SW: I know.. your future husband is waiting you infront of the apartment.. hehe..

TY: aye aye captain!!!!!!

SW: and you call me a kiddy. Huhu

TY: yes.. you are my kiddy. See you soon oppa. Don’t wait outside. Its cold. When I arrive I will tell you okay?

SW: shiro

TY: aish.. don’t stubborn..

SW: arasso.. come quick. Love you.

She chuckled just before she hang up the call. She must be with fany cause I can heard the speaker voice teasing her with our converse. Keke. Must be hard on her been teased by her member.

I go to donghae. Shake his body hoping he will at least know I am going out so he can taking care himself until I come back.

“donghae.. I am out for now. I will back this morning. Please take care okay. Don’t dirt my house.”

“umpphhh..”

“what?”

“wai..”

“just sleep”

“NO!!” I stop from walking.. look back as donghae is now seat straight and look at me. “don’t go with that !” I frown, oh.. okay is he now start to hallucinate?

“are you okay?” I try to walk close but he quick that me by smacking the glass with water that I prepare for him on the side table. His hand now bleeding, he took one of the pieces and now threatening me to sit at the single big chair at the corner of my room.

“don’t be fool by all that es!” he sound so angry.

“hae.. what are you talking about. I had date with taeyeon and she will come any minute.” I try to calm him. Also calm myself down.

“that whatever name is also a you know. They playing our heart. Act pure but a ” I just drop into silent. I don’t get anything about it. “I gave everything to her siwon ah.. I even be ready if she ask me to leave everything behind if she want me too. But.. she is not.. she is completely playing with my love.” He cry.. I never saw donghae cry that bad. His body is trembling, both hand palm to his face. “she cheated on me. That ing is totally a cheater. Cheap !!!!!” he look at me with red eyes. “can you believe it? It been 4 years.. four damn year I am being very loyal to the end.. what people said I keep ignore cause I trust her the most.. you knew it right? Everyone knew it right? But why didn’t her?”

“cool bro.. everything happen with reason. Did you had a talk to her?” donghae shake his head.

“I cant see her. It broke my heart even more.”

“you need rest okay?” I stand up when I see he is already calm. His breath back to normal.

“don’t believe at her too much choi siwon. I bet all the member is same as cheap ” he whispered it to me and I walk out from the door. Taeyeon is not like that. Instead it’s me who always make she hurt.. I am the one who too sociable to everyone that make her sometime being insecure.

“don’t talk about my girl like that hae.. don’t make me be your enemy.” I warn. Sound harsh but it for real. I wouldn’t like people to easily said about taeyeon like that. He chuckled during my way to the door. “whatever happen between you and sica is nothing to do with taeyeon. Stop blaming her or her other member.” So I take my coat and walk out from the house. Somehow I want to punch donghae saying something like that.

 

 

One message received.

From taengbaby

Oppa… will be there in a minute at least. Hurry up kiddy.. I know you still up there. Keke..^^

 

I smile to the message. She is very good to predict me.

 

To taengbaby

I am running to you my love <3

 

I am really running to the basement. Starting my engine and park in front of the building. Wait for a few minute. A petite figure with shades knocked my window.

“hallo baby!!” when she get in I hug her tightly. She laugh to my action. “do you know it’s hard to resist you every time I saw you but I can’t hug and kiss you?” she shook her head cutely. Act dumb.

“I don’t know..” she put away her shades. “but I am missing you too..” she lean and kiss me tenderly. “very much.” She stop and staring at me. “and I am a woman not a baby” she pout. Make me laugh for this time.

“wae?? You always be my baby. Where should I bring my grumpy lady for tonight?” she pinch my cheek.

“I am not that grumpy..” sulking..

“of course you  not.. keke.. I just kidding.. can we go to eat first?”

“erm.. ice cream?” I look at her. Assuring that I heard right. She nodded.

“like in this early in the morning?” she nodded again conforming the decision. “okay then.. as you wish….” So I drive and we chatting until I park the car at  a secret park. No one else here in this hour for sure. Taeyeon and me been spent many time at here. We seat at the stone next to each other. Munching a bag of snack she bring with. Some kimbab and a bottle of wine.

“oppa..”

“yes?”

“you know.. manager nim been bugging me for a while now”

“why?”

“you know.. about us.. and some member..”

“then?”

“If I ever do something may hurt you for all of us sake.. are you still believe in me?” I hate it. Really hate when she prefer her fan, her member over herself. Like this..

“…” I just munching and ignore the answer.

“oppa.. you mad at me?” she tugging my hand. Out her head on it.. “i am going to new york the day after tomorrow.” She still with her word.

“taenggoo.. you didn’t think of breaking up with me right?” she smacked my shoulder.

“yahh.. what are you saying?” she glare at me. “what with that in your mind. I just want us to make it clear to sangjangnim. It hard to hide about us from him you know.. we should just be like fany and khun.” I look back at the fumed taeyeon. Why am I think about break up. I don’t know. It just I know taeyeon too much. She turned down junsu for fan. She still agreed people to say her a leader for the fan. She blowing out at leeteuk when he talk about the earring in the star king again when the news start to disappeared just because of fan. What else? She rejected almost all boy who wooing her just to take care of her group image. Even other member been date but not her. She said she as a leader cant acted like that. Every time she did mistake the first thing she worried is her member and the fan.

“i..”

“no.. I did think like that first but…” she smirk cause she know how curious am I right now. “but..”

“yaaa… stop playing around.. why? You love me too much right?” I wriggle my brows so she laugh to my self-words..

“ keke.. no.. I just afraid you will kill yourself if I did that” she fight my statement back.. then kiss my cheek. “I just can’t find any reason to do that. You are too perfect for me..” she said softly with red cheek.. me too blushing to her saying..

“am i?” it so good when she said it like that.

“yes.. you are the best..”

“better than yong hwa?” she nodded.

“better that jang woo young?” she nodded again.

“better than g dragon?” she chuckled and nodded childishly. Can’t believe me saying that taboo name.

“and…. Better than kang dong won?” she laugh hard. I expect another nodded from her.

“that…. Never… hehehe.. he is too special… kyaaa…. Hearing his name can even make me so nervous..” she squealing like crazy. Make me hurt.. what so special with that man. Her phone had that man pic like ten of them. In her room at dorm, also in my house there is that lucky man pic. She watch everything about him in the internet. Huhh..

“date with him then” I release my hand from her. She still giggling to herself.

“he never look at me”

It make me burst even more. “why? If he look at you?”

“I look at him back.. keke..” she bite her lower lip and I know she is imagine that kang look at her. “aren’t he had superb lovely eye?” she is so excited every time it bout that kang.. I let a sighed. I never can beat that kang dongwon. The one she adore from before. Before she is mine.. “but just as a fan.. look only for second.. cause I had someone more important than him.” She continued. “they are better place but you are the best oppa.. don’t worry.. why asking me something not productive like that.” I hide my smile. Try hard so she will think I am sulking so she will persuade me.

“no.. I know.. I just..”

“lalalalalalalalalalalalala..” she quickly mumbling to cover whatever I want to say. Closed her both ears and shook her head.. snuggling her head to my body so I had to catch her in my embracing..

“taeng?”

“lalalalalalalalalalala”

“okay okay….”

“lalalalalalalala”

“are you going to be like this until we go home?” I chuckled to how dork is her right now.  I chuckled and try to stop her head with my both hand.. she nodded to it..

“am I dating a psycho?” she continue shook her head again.. “okay okay.. I am sorry..”

“chincha?” she hug me. “you know you are the only one right? Kang dongwon oppa is after you”

“wow… that’s hurt.. I thought no other after me since there is no one after you in my heart” I look at her guilt face. I want to smack my own head now. She must taken aback with that. “but it okay though” I smile to light her frown.

“I am hurting you again right?” she look down.. “I heard about stella meeting with you in new york” I feel nervous all of sudden. “hehe.. last week she come to us too.. she look even more beautiful from before.” I gulped. How can she knew about it.. I try very hard to bottled that up. “she still wait for you oppa..” she said almost whispered but I am not too deaf to not hear what she is saying.

“taeng… she is my friend.. nothing but friend” I firmly telling her. She smile a bit.

“I know.” She brushed the tense matter away. I can’t read her.. did she okay or what. I am wrong.. I never thought she will go to snsd during her visit last week. “hurry… hehe.. can I slept in your place for today.. I lied to manager oppa that I am staying out for tonight.”

“okay.. you can whenever you want taeng.. never be a problem for me.” I smile to her and help her pick all the rubbish to the dumpster. We walk hand in hand to the car. Teasing each other even I can feel she act so weird after stella talk.

 

During the driving my phone beeping.

“want me to answer it?” taeyeon asking. Waiting for my permission.

“please do” I said.

She clicked the answered button. “it donghae oppa number” she told me before greet the other on the phone,

TY: yes.. hallo..  its him.. he is here, driving,, may i know who is speaking?.... o.. really.. give me the full address please. We will be there in any minute. Thank you so much.. please take care of him for a while. We owe you sir.

 

I wait for taeyeon  patience telling me about it. “who?”

“donghae oppa at 000 club. Devastated. Let go and pick him.” I shock.. I forget donghae is in my house. And how did he manage to back to the club after I bring him back.

“is he okay? Who is talking?” I asked.. if someone release about drunken suju member then suju once more is the place just like when kangin get into bull crap he did before. SM rage make leeteuk hyung can even smile every time he back from the investigate room.

“man for sure.. but I think he is someone donghae oppa knew. He sound too familiar.” She assure me.

 

At the 000 club

Taeyeon do well by just waiting in the car while me.. once again becoming the picker for danghae. What the matter now. Sica and donghae is quite famous relationship in SM. Unlike us.. but.. the couple is very cool so it make the on and off almost every week. They fight then getting back together the next day. Donghae is very kind while sica is very cool person. This couple is most worried couple for leeteuk and taeyeon.

“donghae..” I try to make he wake up even I know it not that easy, his face beet root, his eyes red.. very red.. tear are keep falling over his face. Not to mention some lipstick all over his face and lips.. he must had some fun revenge in here while ago. 000 club is very famous with the hot waitress. “let me help you walk okay?” I am pitied of him. I glad taeyeon is not very sociable to everyone. I know it sound selfish but.. I am the man who is very possessive to be true.. I easily jealous that make me fear one day I’ll go overboard and taeyeon will sick of it.

“I just can’t siwon aa.. why I can’t do this to her while she is doing that to me?” he crying like a baby to me.. I just silent wait for him to calm a bit. “I am so angry inside” he clench his chess.

“I know..  I know.. but you cannot be like this. okay? Stay strong bro..” I said. We both walk to my car, to taeyeon who calmly help me open the door for drunken fish. Her eyes full with pity.. I doubt she knew what happen..

While donghae is not able to recognize taeyeon there. He just chuckled and gave flirting words to her, smacking taeyeon and laugh happily.

“yah.. siwon ahh.. you sure know how to get hotter woman than taeyeon” his statement like lightning to me. What is he talking about. Damn… I didn’t!!!

Me and taeyeon once more drop into dreadful silent..

“hallo.. hehe.. it me.. donghae oppa.. yes… hehe.. aigoo.. how can I didn’t notice hot girl like you…. Aahh.. should we had date tomorrow… hot .. I am ing hell to meet you.. aishh.. anni.. no.. she and me is not an item.. just my dongsaeng or should is said ing buddy??.. how bout you?....... I am not…. See you tomorrow at the club.. yes.. please wear the most iest so I will take you home with me.. hehehe.. naughty.. love you too.. mwahhhhhh” donghae call almost 5 difference girl that I don’t who is that.. the things that I know is the fumes taeyeon beside me. Nothing out of . Her face show disgust as donghae to everyone. She hold it very well as she is not bursting in the car.

 

Siwon home

 Donghae walk funnily to the room. The guest room. Since me a bit rich from them they like to had fun in my apartment. I own two house. One is apartment and one more is a villa… since me and taeyeon had schedule for tomorrow I prefer we to go to apartment, it nearer to the office and airport.

“baby..” she look at me.. a small smile come after that. “you want me to cook something?” I asked. It just slips from my mouth. She laugh to my impossible offer.

“are you trying to make me work up all night to clean your mess for cooking. Anni.. I am okay..” she knuckled my forehead. “I just need some rest.” She assured me. A little in my head is keep asking my mouth to explain what donghae said is nothing but I didn’t dare. I afraid we will start accused each other.

“hehe.. I am sorry. Yeeah.. you should go and rest early.. I mean you only had four hour to sleep babe..”

“yeah.. I know.. are you okay?” what with the question. Am I look not?  I just smile. Hold her hand and pull her into my embrace. “see you when I am coming back here again”

“yeahh.. you sound like you go without goodbye tomorrow”

Chuckled. “I don’t know but.. it just..” she kiss me.. quick one. “nyte.. love you..” she walk to her room.  Stop in front her room and look back at me. We both static in that position. She look like she had something to say or ask and me, look like had something to explain, get ready for every or any question that comes from her.. thinking hard even she just look at me. But.. we choose to ignore that feeling.

“sleep tight baby. See you tomorrow.. I love you” I said and she disappear behind the door. I relieve a very deep sigh. Huhu.. what is happening here.

Tomorrow morning.

“!!!!!!” I blinked my eyes as I heard scream from donghae room. Not just me cause taeyeon also rush from her room hearing the scream. The glass scatter on the floor. It make me worry about taeyeon if danghae out of his mind.

“hae oppa..” taeyeon try to help donghae up from the floor. The room is mess. Very mess. Paper everywhere, the glass is all over the floor.

“what are you doing !” he push taeyeon roughly. That petite body roughly went to the wall across the living room. Its boiled my blood immediately. I run to him and punch him on his face.

“what are you thinking are you doing you dimwit!!!” I yelled. Try to slowing down my breathing as I walk to taeyeon. Supporting her by holding her both shoulder. “are you okay jagi?” she nodded, smiling at me. Enough for me to calm in a second.

“you!!!!” This time I realize something.. there were someone else at the corner of my living room. Guess who.. it Jessica jung. The one who make my bro miserably in this week. I am in guilty position. Knowing donghae he will never telling the truth about it was sica who cheated behind his back. Knowing sica.. she must be feeling very guilty until she is ready for everything that donghae will do to her for forgiveness. Knowing taeyeon.. she is always defend her group mate. And me.. i trying hard to be fair to everyone.

“oppa.. let talk about it nicely” taeyeon look at sica.. look at donghae. Must be weird about all this.. as far as I know.. taeyeon was not inform about it. All snsd member knew but not kim taeyeon. She is the most closest to us suju. People may said it was yoona but to be true.. yoona is close with everybody than taeyeon. Taeyeon is our little dongsaeng. Her tomboyish personality make suju member a bit confortable around her. She might kill sica if she knew sica cheated to her bro.. she might sulk forever to every member didn’t said anything to her about sica wrong doing. She might hating me keeping such secret from her. She hate that most between us two.

Donghae come closer and PPANG.. he slap sica face. As reflex is taeyeon when there and slap back donghae face.

“don’t you dare to even touch my sister like that. off” she burst. Sica still silent as the slap must be shock her cause donghae never be rough to her. And that must hurt cause her face is changing into red and swell.

“hahaha… off?? I am.. going to off kim taeyeon ssi.. actually.. I am too.. sick with you woman.” Donghae change his face from taeyeon to crying sica. “to be truth.. I am with you just cause I pitied of you. Being in relationship but no one able to handled your superdemanding attitude of yours. It only me Jessica jung.. just me who want you.. haha.. talk about all this nicely.. I am sorry.. ing with some other hot girl and you try to make me jealous by coffee date with taecyeon? Hehe.. hey.. that not for make me to be jealous.. it just proving me you are S.L.U” sica push donghae and out from the house. Taeyeon glare in disbelieve to donghae. I knew.. sica not angry but hit by guilty by big help from donghae to cover her in front of taeyeon.

“what are you doing oppa.. you are hurting my sister.. and you put all the blame to her?” her face is very tense. Clenching her fist and trembling is in her voice. “I hate you oppa.. I thought you the best for her” she left me and donghae.. as taeyeon walk away, I believe she is running after sica.

“hae… what are you doing.. you never sleep or cheat sica.. what are you trying to do?” I sit beside him.

“cause I am too.. thought I am the best for her siwon. But nope.. at least for the last I hope I am doing the best for her. I am sorry.. you must had hard time to make up with taeyeon after this..” he stand and walk to room. Leaving me alone.. is that power of love.. If I am in donghae place, will I do like that too?

 

The week is silently happen.. taeyeon is still silent.. didn’t inform me anything. May be they are busy for their japan tour so I let her be.

“bro.. let go to the club” I heard heechul call donghae.. I went to the big dorm. Donghae is act cool as hard as he can. But.. we, heechul, eunhyuk and me is knowing it well. He is really broke.

“nahh.. I prefer stay at home”

“aisshh.. it been four days.. let had fun.. siwon is going too.. come.. eunhyuk aa… pick dress for our bro.” eunhyuk chuckled and run to the room.

“aishh… I don’t want…”

“come on.. chill up.. let had fun till we drunk..” heechul nudge me.

“let go hae.. it been long time we had been too had fun together.” Heechul smirk and donghae look at me. For few minute he think, and nodded at last.

“you.. are you okay with taeyeon. Is she push you out again?” I only smile with heechul’s question.

“that young girl really need to be discipline how to take care of her future husband.” I blush just to think we gonna be married in future. “and I heard you going out with stella?” he asking me seriously now. “don’t you ever make my dongsaengi hurt” he warn me with a smile. But sure make me shiver to his words.

“hyung..”

“it okay.. I believe in you,, it just.. taeyeon is not me. You understand what I am talking right.. just be careful with that girls silentness. She is quite depressed nowadays.” I nodded and agree. Yes..

 

 

The music boom hard.. somehow.. I am enjoying it,, since it just us.. I felt so free.. I checked on phone..

 

A message from taengbaby

Oppa.. just finish practice. How are you doing? Is hae oppa okay now? What are you doing? I miss you..

 

I smile to the message.. I miss her too, when I was typing the reply  message someone pull the phone from me.. I look back..

“hye handsome oppa.. someone is so free tonight?” I look at her.. yes.. her… my past.. “had you forget the rule in club? No phone allowed.” Stella smile at me and give me back the already switched off phone. “how are you oppa?” she take sit beside me. Smiling happily.

“hey.. hehe.. you still in seoul?” I still feel nervous to her. Not like I love you but, knowing in past how much a dore her make me become so much uncomfortable to be with her.

“why? I can’t? Don’t tell me you still hating me” she chuckled to her epic question but me.. I am questioning myself again about it.. did I still hating a girlfriend who leave me without telling me anything to new york for her carrier.. did i? yes I am.. until I fall for taeyeon. Until she knocked my head about it.. hating is wasting.

“no.. why would i.. it just the past. I think you did make a good choice for it. Don’t misunderstand. I just shock to see you here since, you tell me that you only a week here.”

“hehe.. oppa.. it not week yet.. I had two more day here. And I really hope you asking me to date when I told you about me free for week in seoul.” I join her laughed. She must clueless about the relationship behind stage of me and taeyeon. Or she will never dare to talk to me like this.

“I am sorry..”

“I only accept if you going to the dancing floor with me.” She wink. Walk before I can reject the offer. It take me to drink three cup of vodka before follow her to the floor. I am so confused.. follow or not.. I drank three more vodka and follow her to the dancing floor. Just for dancing. Just for fun anyway,.. taeyeon is not here and.. I believe she is not easily jealous with it. She will understand my friendship of course.. just like always.

The music is so damn good. The booom boom here.. boom boom there.. everywhere boom boom. Make me pumping up.. pumping it with her and start doing some couple dance due to the excitement I had. I sometime went to the bar and drank one or two more some alcoholic drink. Then continue to dancing on the busy space again.

“oppa…” stella call for me.. I  look at here blurry.. she still beautiful like before.. but I am sure my taeyeon beauty is thousand more catching my breath then her. Kim taeyeon a… the song been change to the slow one.. and so.. she take the role as my partner. Hanging her slander hand around my neck.. and as the gentleman I reply the action by putting my both hand around her waist. Swaying our body into one follow the music. I swear the moment doesn’t mean anything to me. No heart beating when I am with taeyeon. No electrocuted that shock my body like every time taeyeon touch me.. I smile.. I don’t know that is the most stupid things I ever dare to do. I only realize that after the song was stopped. When I open my eyes and  taeyeon is smiling bitterly at me from a far. It was too late when I push stella body from my embrace. She saw everything.. I think..

God what I’ve done?

The shock make me even awake from almost two bottle of vodka I had earlier.

“wae oppa?” she ask me.. she must be shock cause I push her so sudden. “you still like before. So warm..”

“humph.. sure..” my body feel so hot right now. I can see on the other side all of snsd member gather all at the other vip section beside us.. Yuri and  hyoyeon is keep dancing like crazy.. sooyoung and yoona also with seohyun is making another small group on the dancing floor. Fany is drinking with sunny. Sica is sit all alone and I know her eyes is on donghae who crazily kissing and rubbing all the hot girls around him. I am so sorry to tell that that boy is totally drunk to aware what is he even doing.

“yahh.. woori dongsaeng is here” heechul run to other VIP space beside us. “yahh.. you keep telling me you missing your girl. She in front you.. don’t waste your time.” Heechul patted me and stella look at me. Asking what the meaning trough her eye.

“I am so sorry stella.. I am with taeyeon right now.. I am so sorry not telling you soon.” She cry.. crying on the spot as I finish telling her about it. “i…”

When I am trying to sooth her I heard other commotion from aside. Donghae is stand infront of taeyeon, sica holding taeyeon left hand. Heechul is making wall between donghae and my girlfriend.

 

“you!!” taeyeon voice is making her member get back to her. It rare for taeyeon to being that mad, its scared everyone there.

“wae??”

“stop it oppa” sica begged. Make donghae laughed. Make taeyeon face darken.

“whatever I do is nothing to do with you . like you don’t had any right to stop me.” The words sounds so cruel. Luckily it just us who in that vip area. Sooyoung act clever cause she and snsd maknae hurried to empty the area.

“stop cursing! What are you thinking calling my sister like that. Apologize now!” taeyeon demanding with high tone voice. Able to jerk everyone there.

“taenggoo.. it okay”

“no sica.. it not okay.. what did you ever do so he can insulting you like this.. I didn’t like it.. hating it so much into my bone!” she yank sica hold.

“I am insulting!!?? No, I am not so called SNSD leader. Your member here is so good in playing with guys..”

“oppa!!” sica scream too. Enough when he said she is a . She accept it cause if a woman is changing love to other man is . She don’t care. But.. she is not sleeping around like a e if that donghae thought. “I am sorry. Please.. don’t fight for me” she crying like a baby. Fany hold her while taeyeon is only stand there with no emotion. She still with her fire glare to donghae.

 “fight for you.. yes.. here I am.. fighting for you Jessica jung. After many years…..” he chuckled a bit. Move closer to taeyeon “ kim taeyeon ssi.. wanna sleep with me?” it my turn to burning inside. Quickly go closer to taeyeon. Taeyeon is so burst.

“who do you think I am? You kiss almost all girl around the table, eating all you can on their face. And here you keep telling that sica is very cheap. How about you oppa? So expensive with all that? You such a head. for hurting my member!. Watch your mouth cause you know I will do anything to keep my member.”

“so.. you will sleep with me?” taeyeon answer with silent. “or should I try the maknae over there?” and taeyeon pull donghae from seohyun. “wae? Aren’t all of you is,,”

“I said STOP!!!!!” sica screamed. Stoping danghae words. “I am so sorry that my heart was changing. I cant control it hae oppa.. I loved you. Loved.. but time to time my heart grew to fall in love with taecyeon. I didn’t know how, since when but.. he got me oppa.. I begged you.. just punish me.. don’t take the blame.. I am who is the wrong, but you still acting like you are the in this relationship. Making taeyeon to hating you to save me? You just making me the worse person ever oppa. Please.. stop ating like this..” she crying hard.. trembling as she let out those words clearly for everyone there. “stop fighting.. I am the problem here.” She felt down… fany quick hug her.

Heeechul shook her head. “I’ve told you.. just move on.. it better than acting like this hae..” he pull donghae to sit. Everyone know the situation and just calmly on their own place. I try to get closer to my girl. She is stand there silent after the confession.

“taengbaby..” I try to called her. Nervously.. enough with sica matter, I more scare with the scene I’ve made earlier. She closed her eyes taking deep breath.

“I am going home first.” I saw 8 pairs of eyes is looked at me. Her member is scare of her now. They been keep this secret from taeyeon for more than a week already.. and the truth was out at last. The moment they don’t want is here.

“taetae..”

“I am very angry so don’t you ever call my name or I am blown right here and right now.” Her slow deep voice froze all of us. she walk away leaving us there without goodbye..  

 

We had very solemn clubbing afterward. The music still blasting but the two vip area is darken with only us know the reason.

“girls.. you had to go back now.” Manager hyung counting head of them. “and where is the leader?” he asked all of 12 of us there.. frown a little when he realize sica is sobbing hard on the couch. Flopping beside tiffany and yoona. “wait.. are you fighting again?” he asked and walk to sica. Forcing sica to look at him. Sooyoung quickly pull the forcefully hand of the manager. Didn’t like what she the action.

Manager hyung look at four of us. his eyes stick at donghae for sure. “are you two breaking up?” he look at me after that. “ and you.. what are you doing with your ex is hanging on your very muscular hand” I look aside me.. I forgot to tell you.. I am so much gentle man so.. leaving my ex standing alone crying is also not a manner for me.. I bring her with me standing here. I didn’t even realize she hug my hand all the time.

“i.. I am sorry” stella apologize since sunny throw her a dagger for it.

“no.. it okay..” I said.. It not her fault of course.

“who know where is taeyeon? I will talk to all of you tomorrow at office. You all sure like to see me struggle to keep my job aren’t it?” he shook his head. Taking out his smart phone calling for kim taeyeon. Mad kim taeyeon..

“fany… the van is waiting for all of you. Back to the dorm first. I will settle with taeyeon after this. inform me if taeyeon get back okay. Move girls..” the manager said as his phone on his cheek waiting the call answered by taeyeon.

I asked for stella to sit while me went to manager hyung. “did she answered?”

“I don’t know what happen but.. this all things.. gonna be big if it lack to fan or what.. this is why I keep telling you all to never date.. its will make everything be more complicated.” He fire out. “you.. what are you doing partying with your ex her? Don’t you think about her feeling? Did you ever know she keep hurting by your superhot ex.. she never said it but… she is hurt..” he scold my insensitivity.. seriously.. I feel guilty all over my body.. my heart.. my head pain in sudden.. what is happening to us..

“hyung..”

“you all should go back too” he cut eunhyuk who just come to us. he grinned to the warned.

“we are.. sorry hyung.. siwon ahh.. let go back.. can you send she go to the hotel?” eunhyuk signaling silent stella who sit beside donghae. She looking at me with her red eyes..

“I don’t care just go..” the manager leaves us with so tense face.. he must be worried to sulking taeyeon.. tomorrow is the day taeyeon and her member go to new york.. the great letterman interview they say..

 

“can you send her?” I whispered to eunhyuk. Heechul try to listen. He became so much silent.. it weird but.. I didn’t  dare to asked anything. He will be sensitive as taeyeon is involved someway in this matter.

“oppa.. I can get cab to hotel.. don’t worry..” stella is catching the fear I have.. of course.. I afraid its will make worse between me the liar with the rage taeyeon..

But I cant do like that.. I just cant.. it dangerous to let her alone.. it early in the morning actually.. a little bit pass of midnight. “no.. I will send you.. it okay.. I drive my own car.. don’t you dare to be alone at this late.” I scold her.. gave her a sweet smile so I can take back bad impression she read earlier..please believe and trust me more kim taeyeon. i pray in my heart.

 

 

a/n

hello reader.. i will update part 2 tomorrow.. that a promise.. 

sorry.. i am had too much things.. not good one.. bad things..

my family is not in good condition.. it makes me feel like...

aaa... cant even express it how.. 

my mother is sick.. i am so DOWN...

bye.. see you soon.

i hope.