I open my eyes slowly to see blurry white walls surrounding me. I blink a few times and the area around me comes into focus. The hospital? I turn my head to see Yoochun and Junsu sleeping together on a little couch. 

    Why am I here?

    Because your stupid and selfish.

    What?

    I look down at my wrist to see it bandaged. The things from last night come to me and I gasp.

    "Jae?" Yoochun says in a groggy voice. I quickly look over to see him staring at him with sleepy eyes. "You ok?" he asks me. "I don't know what happened with you last night, but you scared me and Junsu to death."

    "Mhm." Junsu agrees as he slowly opens his eyes.

    I look away now wanting to look at either of them. Every time I'm so close to just getting my wish, someone has to interfere.

    I sigh and Junsu gets up and walks up to my bed. He grabs my hands and I look towards him.

    "Jaejoong, I understand what you're going through." he says his voice small.

    I immediately turn my head as I feel tears rush to my eyes.

    You never will...

    "Jae.." Junsu whispers. I snatch my hands from his and stare at the wall. I hate when people try to tell me they understand me and what I'm going through. The only person who understood me was Yunho...

    I bite my lips hard trying to hold back tears, and soon I taste blood.

    Every time I think about you, all that comes from it is pain and tears. Why must you do this to me?

    I hear the door open and a man's deep voice. A familiar voice, that sends shiver of fear down through my body.

    Should I even look over?

    I don't even wait for my mind to give me an answer as I turn my head. My eyes widen in terror and I nearly scream at the sight.

    No....Why him?!?!?

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I don't know why but I really have been writing a lot of angst lately. I am update this story with two chapters in one night (WOOHOO xD) Thanks for reading :D