7. First argument    "Are you ok?" Sooyoung asked, worriedly looking at her leader who was looking so pale thanks to the slight flu and stomach upset she's suffering from.      "Yeah." Taeyeon sniffed and took a tissue paper to wipe her nose. "Can you call the rest to gather? Briefing time."      "Dae." Answered Sooyoung before shouting across the waiting room for the  rest of her members to gather.      It took a few minutes before the rest of the girls gathered around the couch, waiting for taeyeon to start.      "Alright, guys..." She paused to clear her nose again." She was about to continue when she heard a small giggle. She looked up only to see Tiffany giggling away. She ignored it and begin speaking again.      "Good job with the performance. After this, we have another CF photoshoot before going to the radio station for live recording-..." Taeyeon was interrupted by another giggle. She looked at Tiffany again, whom quickly stopped giggling and smiled at her.      "As I was saying," Taeyeon spoke again. "So after the radio-..." She paused again when she heard a faint whisper among the group. She looked at the direction of the voice, only to see Tiffany whispering to Sunny whom immediately gestured to Tiffany to quieten down when she saw taeyeon looking at them. Taeyeon silently thanked Sunny before looking at Tiffany.      Tiffnay stopped whispering and met Taeyeon's eye. She smiled, knowing that Taeyeon would never scold her.      Taeyeon saw the smile and looked away. She was sick and was getting annoyed that Tiffany wasn't being serious. She decided to ignore her anger that was building up and continued to address the group.      "So after the radio show, we'll head back to the dorm. And we have another-..." Taeyeon briefed her members looking at them one by one as she spoke. She paused when her eyes passed by Tiffany and saw her girlfriend playing with Sunny's fingers. She was already feeling unwell and annoyed that Tiffany wasn't paying attention to her earlier, causing her to keep repeating what she wanted to say. And with the gesture she just saw, she suddenly felt jealous.        "Yah!" Taeyeon have reached her limits and screamed out loud causing some of her members to jump and winced at the sudden loud voice.      Tiffany looked up when she heard the scream, only to see taeyeon angrily glaring at her. "What? Me?" She asked innocently, totally clueless that Taeyeon was mad at her.      The room grew quiet as nobody dared to speak while taeyeon was just glaring at Tiffany.      "Me?" Tiffany asked again, pointing at herself as she shoot a questioning look at Taeyeon.      Taeyeon snorts sarcastically. First, you didn't pay attention, then you played with Sunny's finger and now you're acting innocent. You're too much, Fany! She kept that thought in a head before exhaling loudly. "Since you like to talk so much, you brief them then." Taeyeon turned her heels and stomped off, angrily leaving the room.      Sooyoung saw Taeyeon stomping off and quickly followed her, "Yah, Taeyeonie...Taeyeon-ah.." She tried stopping Taeyeon but stopped in her track when taeyeon left the room, slamming the door in her face. She turned around, walking back to join the rest of her members.      "What was that for?" Tiffany asked no one in particular. She felt slightly irritated that Taeyeon was throwing her tantrum at her.        "Fany-ah.." Sooyoung spoke the moment she joined back the group.        "What?"      "Why did you do that?"      "Do what? What? Are you blaming me right now? I didn't even do anything wrong. Did I?" She turned to look at the rest of her members and saw some of them, shaking her head.        "She's sick and she's tired. And yet you're making things difficult for her. When she's trying to speak, try not to be so hyper next time?" Sooyoung said, trying to sound as gentle as possible not wanting Tiffany to misunderstood her.      "Still, she shouldn't be shouting at me!" Tiffany raised her voice making Sooyoung flinched.        "She's sick and she's sensitive. And yet, she's trying very hard to do her job of a leader. If you don't listen to her, it's difficult for her. You know how horrible it feels like to be sick but yet you have to go about doing your schedule right. And worst, she still have to take care of us." Sooyoung tried explaining to Tiffany.      Tiffany listened and kept quiet. Yes, she was angry at taeyeon for shouting and embarrassed her in front of their members, but as she thought about Sooyoung's words, she suddenly felt guilty for giving Taeyeon such a hard time, even after knowing that she was feeling unwell. Furthermore, they were in a waiting room and she didn't want other onlookers to know that SNSD was having a disagreement and hence, she kept shut, afraid that if she were to argue about it, it will escalate into something bigger.      Sooyoung saw Tiffany keeping quiet and knew that her words was getting to her. She inhaled, "So let's just get change and wait for manager-oppa to come back. In the mean time, I'll go find Taeyeon and bring her back. Or Fany, would you want to do it?" Sooyoung briefed her other group members before looking at Tiffany.      Tiffany shook her head. She knew Taeyeon was angry at her and she too was still slightly mad at taeyeon. She thought it was best if she let taeyeon cool off before talking to her again.      "Alright then, be right back." Replied Sooyoung and left the room, in search of Taeyeon.        ************    As soon as they reached the dorm, Taeyeon went straight to her room, wanting to take a quick shower and go to sleep. She wasn't feeling well the whole day and with the minor incident with Tiffany earlier, she was still angry and feeling sensitive about it.      Tiffany saw Taeyeon walking toward her room and decided to ignore it. She too was feeling mad about how Taeyeon shouted at her earlier and didn't even bother to talk to her or apologize to her. She walked towards the couch, joining Sunny and Hyoyeon.      Taeyeon took longer than she had expected in the shower as she rethink about the incident that had happened. Unhappy with her situation with Tiffany right now as well as feeling guilty for shouting at Tiffany earlier, she decided to approach Tiffany and talk to her about it after her shower.      Taeyeon stepped out of the room and saw Tiffany sitting at the couch, she approached her.      "Hey.." She greeted, waiting for Tiffany to look at her. "About just now..." Her voice trails when she saw Tiffany looked away.      Tiffany immediately looked up when she heard the familiar voice. Knowing that Taeyeon was going to talk to her about the earlier incident, she decided to apologize first. "Mianhe." She whispered.      "Fany-ah..." Taeyeon didn't hear the apology and called for Tiffany's attention again.      Tiffany turned and said louder this time, in what she thought was her normal speaking voice. "Mianhe!"      Still feeling sensitive and unwell, Taeyeon thought that Tiffany was being rude and raised her voice at her. "If you're not sincere, don't apologise!" Taeyeon raised her voice as well.      Shocked, Tiffany stood up and approached Taeyeon. "What?!" She really shouted this time. "Here I am trying to apologize first and you said I'm not sincere about it!"      Taeyeon took a step back by reflex, her eyes were soon engage in a staring competition with Tiffany. Not one to back down, Taeyeon shouted back. "If you're sincere, you won't shout!"      "I'm not shouting!! That's my normal voice."      "But you're shouting right now!"      "Because you shouted at me! And worst, you embarrassed me in front of every body else as well!!"      "That's because you weren't paying attention when I'm talking!!"      They continued shouting and bantering to each other, not even caring of the two other person in the living room.      "Yah, do something about it." Hyoyeon whispered to Sunny. She had never seen Taeyeon this angry and she was getting scared.      "Do what? I don't dare." Sunny replied. She too was afraid to interrupt the argument. It was just too tense.      It took a few more minutes before some of their other members walked out of their room to see what was the loud commotion about.      "Guys guys..." Yuri tried to intervene. "Calm down, will ya?"      Both Tiffany and taeyeon stopped shouting and looked at Yuri.      "How am I suppose to calm down when she's putting words into my mouth!" Tiffany was the first to spoke, still with the same angry tone.      Yuri was about to reply back but kept shut when she heard taeyeon replying.      "Perhaps you should start by learning not to shout and lower your voice?" Taeyeon scoffed sarcastically, rolling her eyes.      "Yah! Don't use that tone on me, Kim Taeyeon! And you're the one who shouted at me first! And I'm naturally loud!"      Taeyeon was about to open to retaliate back but Yuri stopped her.      "Taengoo-yah..." Yuri called out softly. She knows that these two are getting agitated and any wrong moves could tick them off.      "Look, we are all tired from schedule and we need to rest. We still have an early morning flight to Japan to catch tomorrow. So let's not argue over such trivial thing, can we?"      "I didn't start it." Tiffany folded her arm and look away, still not giving in. "Here I am trying to be nice and apologize yet she accused me of not being sincere."      Taeyeon furrowed her brows when she heard what Tiffany said. She thought Tiffany could understand her better but she was wronged. She was disappointed yet upset that her own lover didn't know her better. She was sick and instead of being there for her and caring for her, she was hurting her.      "Fine, I'm sorry then." Taeyeon unwillingly gave in, turned her heels and walked away, into her room. She was sick and her energy was draining, she couldn't be bothered to argue anymore. She slammed the door, venting the anger on it before slumping her body on the bed, wanting to just sleep it off and forget about it.        "Fany-ah..." Yuri called out.      "What?" Replied Tiffany. There was still anger in her voice.      "Shouldn't you understand her better?"       "What do you mean?" Her voice finally mellowed down.      "Well.." This time it was Jessica who spoke. "You're in a relationship with her yet when she's sick and need you the most, you're being difficult to her."        "I'm not being difficult to her. She was being rude to me."      "When people are sick, they get sensitive and cranky. And moody. Not to mention, we still have to go about doing our job despite not feeling well. Yet..." Jessica paused when she saw Tiffany looking down. She knew Tiffany was starting to feel guilty about it.        "So what now? Do you want to sleep in my room? Cause obviously..." Sunny finally spoke, nodding her head towards Taeyeon's room. She didn't want to mention Taeyeon's name in case Tiffany get agitated once again.        "Nah, it's ok." Tiffany took a seat on the couch and sighed as guilt starts to creep in.      "You sure?" Sunny asked.      "Yeah. You guys can go to sleep. I'll just sit here for awhile." Said Tiffany. She just wanted to have some time alone and think. Besides, she didn't want her members to be worried over her and have lack of sleep.      "Alright then, I'll go to my room then." Said Sunny as she stood up and walked to her room. The rest of the girls in the living room followed suit except for Jessica. She took a seat next to Tiffany and observed her.      "Am I being insensitive?" Tiffany asked in English. She had realized that extra pair of eyes observing her but she kept her gaze on the floor.      "Do you even love her?" It was a simple question but that question makes Tiffany turned her head, looking at Jessica with wide-eyes.      "What?!"      "Do you even love her?" Jessica repeated her question.        "Of course I do. Why did you even say that?"      "I don't know." Jessica shrugged. "You sure don't show it."      "What do you mean?"      "All this arguments?"      "People who are in love do argue too in case you didn't know."        "I know. But she's sick and yet you're arguing with her?"      "But I'm not in the wrong."      "Still? Can't you even give in for once?"      "I did wanted to and I even apologized first. Until she accused me of being insincere." Tiffany pouted.        "And you say you love her..." Jessica dramatically sighed and shook her head.      "I do!" Tiffany raised her voice.      Jessica frowned. "So do you want to start a fight with me next?"      "Huh?"      "Keep your voice down, will ya." Jessica calmly replied.        "But that's how I speak normally."        "I know."      "Then?"      "Nothing. It's just that, sometimes you just have to learn to control your voice. Some people may misunderstood you for shouting at them. Just like what happened today. "      "Then taeyeon should understand me better. I thought she knew me well enough, to not get hurt about it."      "Let me just remind you again, she's sick, Tiff."        "So?"        "So...She's feeling sensitive and she needs you!" Jessica had to raise her voice. She was irritated that Tiffany still couldn't get her point.        "I-..." Tiffany didn't know what to say.      "She loves you. And she's sick right now. And the only thing she need right now is your utmost attention and care. But yet..." Jessica stopped talking not wanting to remind Tiffany of her arguments again.      "So you're saying I'm at fault?"        "I'm not saying who's at fault here, neither am I taking any side. But seriously Tiff, if you truly loves her, this argument shouldn't have started. Cause what you're doing right now is totally hurting her." Jessica looked at Tiffany and pats her thigh. "But what is done is done. And if you're truly sorry, be sure to amend it properly. Let's just take it as the first test for your love ok?"      "I do love her." Answered Tiffany, thinking that Jessica was still doubting her love for Taeyeon. Her voice wavered a little. She was suddenly feeling sad and she didn't know why. All she knows that she was suddenly having this guilty feeling, guilty to have hurt Taeyeon and that she didn't meant to argue with the person she loves.      "I know. I didn't said that you didn't. Just that, just reminding you that the only person she needs the most right now is you. You're her only cure. You know that right?"      Tiffany kept quiet, slowing digesting Jessica's words.      Jessica taps Tiffnay's thigh once more and gave her an encouraging smile when Tiffany looked at her. She knew Tiffany probably needs some time alone to think. She stood up.      "I'm off to sleep. You know how cranky I can get if I have lack of sleep right. See you tomorrow." She waited for Tiffany's response before heading to her room.      Tiffany responded with a smile before observing Jessica disappearing into her room. She  exhaled loudly. The arguments and her anger earlier was finally draining her energy away. Finally when she was all alone, she suddenly realized how much she missed Taeyeon. She finally realized how selfish she was towards her sick girlfriend.       She's sick and yet I was not even there for her... She unknowingly started tearing but quickly wipes her tears away before it fall.      She thought to herself for a few more minutes before deciding to enter Taeyeon's room, their newly shared room.      ***********    Tiffany slowly closed the door behind her and approach taeyeon's side of the bed. She kneels on the floor and lightly place her palm on taeyeon's forehead, not wanting to wake her up.      She sighed, silently cursing to herself when she felt that taeyeon's body temperature was hot. She stepped out of the room and head to the kitchen, only to return with a small bucket of water and a sponge. She place the bucket on the floor and kneel in front of Taeyeon again. She dipped the sponge into the bucket and squeeze it, ensuring that there are no water dripping from it before lightly dapping it on taeyeon's forehead.      Taeyeon furrowed her brows when she felt something cold on her forehead. Her body was tingling with pain and her head was heavy thanks to her throbbing headache and the last thing she needs was someone disturbing her sleep.      "Mmmm..." She tried to protest and mumbled something incoherent. She tilted her head from left to right.      "Tae..." Tiffany called out softly, wanting Taeyeon to stop moving. She continued, dapping Taeyeon's forehead with the damp sponge.        Taeyeon heard the voice and her mind started working again. She slowly opened her eyes. Even though her vision was blur at first, she could slowly see Tiffany's face, looking all concern and worried, unlike her angry and fierce stare earlier. Gone were the fire in her eyes. She could see Tiffany's soft gaze yet again, a gaze that indicate love and concern.        "F-fany..." Taeyeon mumbled. She tried to speak but her voice were hoarse, thanks to all the shouting earlier.      "Shhh... You're running a temperature. Just stay still and close you're eyes and let me sponge you. Hopefully, your fever will cool down by tomorrow." Tiffany dip the sponge into the bucket yet again and repeated her action.      "Have you eaten any medicine?" She asked.      Taeyeon shook her head. She was surprised by the sudden care and kindness. She wondered what makes Tiffany change but she was too sick to even bother about that fact. She was just silently relieved that Tiffany wasn't angry at her and was even caring for her. She closed her eyes.      "Then how are you going to recover? Are you having a headache?"      Taeyeon nod her head.      Tiffany places the sponge into the bucket before getting up to get medicine for Taeyeon. She returned to the room.      "Tae.." She shook taeyeon slightly.        "Mmm?" Taeyeon answered but her eyes remained shut.      "Sit up and eat your medicine for awhile."      "No..." Taeyeon whines and grumbles.      "Just awhile. You want to recover right?" Tiffany shook taeyeon again.      Taeyeon grumbles once more before opening her eyes. She slowly lifted her head up and sat up. Tiffany picks her pillow and place it behind taeyeon's back, enabling taeyeon to lean her back against it. She then handed Taeyeon her medicine. She waited for taeyeon to place the medicine into before handing her the glass of warm water. She then took the glass back and place it on the nightstand. She quickly returned her focus onto the bed and tuck Taeyeon in.      Taeyeon lay on the bed and let Tiffany do whatever to her. She have no energy left. "Fany...Ti-tissue." She sniffed. Her nose was blocked, thanks to the cold air-con room.      Tiffany straightened up from her bending position and went out of the room, in search of a new tissue box. She was tired and exhausted and all this walking was not helping her. She just hoped she could crash onto her bed and fall into a slumber then and now. But yet, she knew Taeyeon needs her and she was responsible to take care of Taeyeon. Because she knew if it was her in that bed right now, Taeyeon would do the same for her.      She re-entered the room with a new box of tissue. She place it on the nightstand first before taking the air-con remote and switched it off. Se then walked over to the windows and open it slightly, opting to let natural wind cool their room.      "Why did you off it?" Taeyeon asked.      "You're having a fever and flu. I know it feels terrible to sleep in a cold room when you're having a fever and flu." Explained Tiffany before taking a seat on the small space next to taeyeon's head. She took a tissue and place it over taeyeon's nose.      Taeyeon automatically blew her nose into the tissue, clearing the mucus that's covering her nostrils.      "But you'll feel hot." Said taeyeon. Despite her sickness, she was still caring for Tiffany, putting Tiffany first before herself.      "I'll be fine. Go to sleep, taetae." Tiffany kneel down again and start sponging Taeyeon.      "You should sleep too." Taeyeon was glad for the attention but she didn't want to deprive Tiffany of sleep and be tired the next day.      "I'll sleep when you're asleep. Close your eyes taetae." She tried to reassure Taeyeon.      "Lie down with me, Fany."      "Later. Besides you're having a fever right now. Let me sponge you first and when your fever have cool down, I'll lie beside you ok?"      "I'll wait for you then."      "Alright. But close your eyes ok? At least, rest your eyes?" Tiffany knew that whatever she said to Taeyeon would be of no use