Your POV

I didn’t notice myself crying until Taeyeon hugged me. She felt so warm, but she was crying and all the other members were too, they didn’t deserve to feel the same pain as me, they should be happy. I wiped Taeyeon’s tears away.

“Don’t cry, you are all blessed to be with your families, you shouldn’t be crying because of sadness, you should all be crying because of the happiness you have.” I said trying to hold my tears in.

Taeyeon looked into my eyes after I told them to stop crying. My eyes were still filled with pain, yet I couldn’t let them cry again.  But I guess it backfired since they continued to cry even harder. They all came to me and hugged me.

“It’s ok, we’re here for you.” Jessica said. I was confused why she said it, but I could feel their warmth. Now it was my turn to cry.

~Knock knock~

In came Lee ajussi.

“ _________, come out here. I need to speak to you.” I obeyed and went outside the practice room.

“________, you are to be at an interview as a new member of SNSD. It’s tonight, at 8 pm. ” He said.

“Why is it so rushed?” I asked.

“It’s better for you to not argue about this, oh and also, you will be singing, not rapping, at the interview.”

“WHAT? Why?” I said confused.

“Because this way they can’t say that you have no talent.” I nodded, it was true, I was an added member, the press would ask many questions on why I was added in the group.

I came back into the practice room, with 18 eyes looking at me.

“I’m going back to the dorm late today.” I said.

“Are you ok?” Hyoyeon asked.

I nodded and left the room.

SNSD’s POV

We weren’t sure what you were going to do, it seems like you are once again, depre