The vain attempt to actually change a stubborn person's mind can be considered as rather stupid. Yet Jonghyun couldn't help but run after this slightly taller boy whose back was shown to him as slender fingers wrapped themselves around the doorknob, showing off how serious all that was. "Don't!" Was the blonde haired boy's last, useless try and he had to watch helplessly as his love banged the door close behind him. "KIBUM!" Too late those precious letters, forming a name slipped past the singer's plump lips. How could he? Sure, they fought often since it wasn't easy to deal with Kibum's diva side, but even though, they never failed to make up at the end. This was the first time that Kibum packed his bags and left. Jonghyun slowly slid down the wall as it finally began to dawn on him.

His lover just walked out of their shared house. Raising his hand the singer messed up his hair angrily before he covered his face just to notice the wetness on his cheeks. When did he start crying? He didn't know, didn't care. The realisation was enough to break the well built walls, causing his muscled body to shake with each released sob. Jonghyun never knew what people meant when they said they bawled their eyes out about something...until now. It seemed like the world around him just became dark, nothing was right anymore. Everything which defined him and his life shattered into useless pieces. Jonghyun's sniffles and cries filled the air around him. The reverberations caused him to realise how empty the house really was, slowly getting up, he walked past the living room, up the stairs to the bedroom. Standing in the doorframe he recalled the happenings of the past few hours whilst his gaze wandered over the king sized bed, the full body mirror and finlly the wardrobe. It was like watching a movie as he saw his lover, moving around the room and throwing things in the suitcase on the bed, again.

Another sob made its way past those tightly closed lips, rescuing the tears as well. With the back of his hand he tried to stifle his loud sobbing as he stared at the bed, remembering the times when they cuddled on it and held each other tightly, feeling even more lonely and uncomplete now, that he recognized it would never happen again. Still not believing it Jonhgyun stumbled over to the armoire, lacerating it open to control whether it was true. Seeing only half of it full of clothes he dropped to his knees, threw his head back and screamed. Screamed as loud as he could, as much as he could, as desperate as he was. The scream, stocked with so much pain, despair and sorrow, left the worn out body trembling and shaking, yet it wasn't enough to release even the slightest bit of the pain, which printed itself on the vulnerable heart, soul and mind. Jonghyun's thoughts were running, chasing each other's end. When did Kibum's eyes turn away from his? How could he forget what united them?! His mind was filled with Kibum's voice and he could feel how something broke, something between them. But how could this ever happen? They couldn't have lost their ever lasting love, could they?

Banging his fists on the ground Jonghyun let out yet another heartbreaking scream before he layed down, letting the memories flow over him.

Flashback.
Kibum in the kitchen with his cute pink apron, turning around to smile at him brightly as telling him what he cooked today.
Flashback.
Kibum on stage, dancing like there was no tomorrow, showing off his awesome skills and a bit too much skin for Jonghyun's liking.
Flashback.
Kibum in his arms on the couch, watching a romantic movie together with those utterly adorable giggles of the black haired, which always caused the singer to steal a few pecks.
Flashback.
Him in the shower as suddenly the door cracks open and Kibum comes in to join him.
Flashback.
Minho and him playing basketball whilst Kibum sits on a bench nearby, the sun trailing over his porcelain like skin, his eyes twinkling as he bites on the end of his pencil, starring at his sketchbook concentrated.
Final flashback.
Kibum and him slow dancing in the living room to a music only they could hear.

Jonghyun rolled over, desperately trying to get rid of those flashs which drove him insane. They shared so much, there was so much which linked them. From memories over sweet nothings to the ual parts. Even though everyone told them they wouldn't fit or last, they fit perfectly and lasted since a long time already. Yes, they were one. Most of the times they didn't even need to voice their thoughts for the other to understand. Understanding, wasn't this the cause of their fight?

Flashback.
The door opened, revealing a rather pissed off Kibum who stormed in, slamming the wood close behind him. "KIM JONGHYUN!" Were the first words, leaving those perfectly bow shaped lips while the dancer kicked off his shoes. Jonghyun, who went home earlier than his lover sticked his head out of the kitchen. "What is it?" He asked innocently before he strolled down the hallway to welcome his boyfriend. The smile which spread on his face earlier died down immediately as the heated glare of those feline eyes hit him. Stopping midway he raised his hands in surrender, wondering what he did wrong this time. "Don't you think it's enough that we have to hide our relationship?! Do you have to act so ing straight and go around, flirting with every noona* you find on stage?!" Kibum hissed angrily as he stormed to Jonghyun to poke his chest repeatedly. Sighing, Jonghyun slid his arms around Kibum's slender waist. "Try to understand me honey. You know I have an image which I have to keep up in order for us to date properly. What would the fans say if we would admit being gay?" Kibum growled before he pushed the other away harshly just to shout again: "UNDERSTAND, UNDERSTAND!! I DON'T WANT! Can't you just stop this ?! Do you have to go on my nerves all the time?!" Jonghyun, who tried to remain calm snapped at this wording, losing his temper he scoffed annoyed: "If I go on your nerves all the time, why are you in a relationship with me?! If I'm so nerve-racking just leave!!" Spoken, words can't be taken back so Jonghyun couldn't do anything but watch as Kibum's eyes went wide before the latter turned to run up the stairs. Shocked the blond stayed frozen to his spot for a few seconds then he rushed after his love.

"Babe, hey! You know I didn't mean it like that!!" Desperately trying to explain himself the main vocalist had to watch as Kibum grabbed his clothes furiously just to shove them into the opened suitcase, placed on the king sized bed. Seeing how Kibum took his words for too serious once again Jonghyun walked over and grabbed those slender hands he had held so often. Swiftly spinning the less muscled man around he pulled him away from the closet. Kibum on the other side did his best to free himself from the stern grip of the smaller man, but instead of succeeding, he caused Jonghyun to slam him in the next wall. "YOU! STOP IT!! TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME AT LEAST ONCE!!" Jonghyun all but yelled at the younger one, tightening his grip even more in the process. Glaring eyes met glaring eyes as both of their bodies trembled in anger. "WHY SHOULD I?!" Came the answer right away before Kibum decided to end it there and kneed the older man where it hurts the most. Of course the grip was released as Jonghyun dropped to his knees, clutching at his crotch with a pained expression. This was the clue for Kibum to finish what he started and he shut the suitcase before grabbing it and storming out of the room, followed by a still slumped over Jonghyun.
End of Flashback.

Jonghyun whimpered then got on his knees again. They had fought about this topic so often, yet they always made up at the end, usually with a heated make out session. Why didn't they this time? All this remembering caused Jonghyun to tear up once again, but suddenly there were those slender fingers, which perfectly fit in the spaces between his fingers, wiping away his tears and as the singer raised his gaze his puppy eyes met the feline ones he loved so much. In the next moment he was standing, embracing the love of his life in his arms tightly, causing the thiny man to gasp for air. Apologizes were whispered into each other's ears before their lips finally connected in the most innocent kind of way. Both men felt shivers running down their spines as they made their way to the bed, falling on it before exploding into little fits of laughter. Neither one even thought about letting the other go as their legs got all tangled up and their bodies pressed together in a breathtaking hug. "Don't you ever do this again." Jonghyun mumbled before he left a tender peck on the button like nosetip of his man. Kibum only shook his head as he nuzzled his face into the other's neck, embarrassed about what he was going to say.

"Jjongie?" He murmured to make sure the called one was listening. In response he got an encouraging hum which made him smile. "You know... I just can't leave you." Kibum continued his whispered speech. "You're the reason why I'm breathing, why my heart is beating, why my mind is always messed up. You're the person who drives me crazy, no, who actually drives me insane. Even if you just look at another person I'm fearing I'll lose you and this the reason for all my y acting...why I'm snaping at you for worthless happenings. I'm sorry that I'm causing you so much headache and trouble, but I'll try to make it up to you." Finally the feline boy managed to lock his eyes with the owner of his heart. "I'll..." He didn't get to end his sentence as Jonghyun silenced him with a passionate kiss. After pulling away the singer grinned widely at Kibum before he leaned their foreheads together. "You're perfect. This "y attitude" how you call it, is nothing but the feisty kitty I fell in love with. You're all I need, whether you're angry or cute, I can deal with all these moods if only you stay by my side. Our road might be a rocky one, but no river runs smoothly and so can't we. I'm willing to ride this rollercoaster with you, because as long as I have you, I'm happy. You're what completes me, you're what keeps me alive so don't you dare changing." Kibum's cheeks flushed at those sweet words and he couldn't help but giggle as he nuzzled his face in Jonghyun's chest, inhaling the manly perfume deeply.

Neither Jonghyun nor Kibum knew what future held for them but they were sure about one thing: As long as they were together they would overcome anything, because a perfect match never fails. And even if the colours of their relationship faded due the familarisation, they knew a colourless rose could also be a beautiful one.



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* Noona = form of address from a boy to an older girl in korea.

A/N:
So here we go, with the first kinda angsty, kinda fail fluff one shot, starring Jonghyun and Key.