“Thank you Sajangnim! Thank you everyone! Thank you for making it easier for me” I smiled at them and tears finally escape my eyes.       I roam my eyes around the room and look at these people whom I’ve worked for almost seven years or nine years if you will include the times when I first came to Korea for the acting lesson they gave me. I looked at the people I consider as my second family.        I look at Bommie, Minzy and CL. They are my members but to me they are more than just that. They are my friends and my sisters. Our dreams of becoming an idol or performer brought us together and together we worked and strived hard to achieve our dreams. We became an idol and one of the most successful in our field. I don’t know what happened but somewhere along the way, we started drifting away. Little by little, success got into their heads and all that matters for them now is the popularity and prestige that this business brings.       I look at GD and I can’t believe I once harbored special feelings for him. Gone were the caring dongsaeng who look after me when I first came here in Korea. Gone were the dongsaeng who promised to be my  oppagameikayo. Gone were the dongsaeng who encouraged me to try and never stop reaching for my dreams. All I see now is an egocentric young man whose life revolves around material things. He used to be so simple but now fame has gotten into his head. Gone is the respectful and humble GD I once knew. The GD in front of me is an arrogant man who has no regards for others feelings.       I look at Teddy Oppa. The man I considered as an older brother before. Teddy Oppa; the older brother who promised to defend us from all the jerks in the entertainment industry. The man who pushes my limits so I can break out from my shell. The man who understands my struggles as an artist. I don’t know this Teddy anymore. All I see is a man who doesn’t have respect for me. All I see is a man who doesn’t have regards for me.   I look at YG Sajangnim. This is the man who once believed that I can make the impossible possible. This is the man who once said that I am the strongest among 2ne1. This is the man who treated me like I am his own child. The man who always laughs at my crazy antics.  I am looking at the same man who accepted me in his Company with open arms. I am looking at the same man; he’s face is still the same but why does it feel like this is the first time that I meet him. All I see now is a cunning businessman who is out to ruin someone who crossed him. I no longer see the once strict but caring father image he has. All I see now is a calculating and vengeful man.       I look at all these people I consider my sisters, friends, colleagues and family. I look at them and I feel like I’ve been cheated for the past nine years. Who are these people? What have they done to the people I knew before. What happened to us? What went wrong?       I wipe the tears that keep falling from my eyes. I took a deep breath. Omma was right. I love my YG family in spite and despite of all the things that happened but I have to love myself first. In this business I am in, no one’s gonna look after me. No one’s gonna take care of me. So now more than ever is the right time to take care of myself. If I am not going to be strong for myself, how am I going to protect my family? I have to stand for myself. I have to love myself.       “Yes, they offered me something Sajangnim. Do you want to know what their offers are?” I look at each of them and I can see there startled faces. With strong and determined voice, I continued talking.       “They offered me a contract where I will be receiving ten times of what I am receiving from YG Ent. They showed me their plans for my career for the next two years should I sign their contract. They offered me everything I dreamed of doing from acting, hosting, to solo songs. They offered me all the things that I’ve yearned to do for the past 5 years but failed to do because you never give me the chance; because you never believe in me.” My knees are getting weaker but I willed them to stand up.      “But you know what? No matter how much I am tempted to accept their offer, I didn’t accept it Sajangnim. I declined their offer even if the sane part of me is telling me to accept it. I declined it because I respect you and your Company. I am loyal to you and YG Ent. No amount of money can buy my loyalty to you. I am loyal to all the people I’ve considered my family. I’ve rejected their offer because I love each and every one of you. I rejected it.” Remorse, guilt; those are some of the emotions I saw in their faces.       “Ungrateful little !”    Ha ha ha ha!!! My dearest GZB! Are you sure you’re talking about me CL? Aren’t you referring to yourself? Aren’t you the baddest out there CL? Weren’t you the one who’s dissing your famous designer friend Jeremy Scott for plagiarizing a certain artist’s works? It’s funny how you cling to him when you want to have connections in Hollywood but when he was under fire for that issue; you are one of those people throwing stones