It might have started a year ago. I’m not quite sure myself when it started. All I knew was I wasn’t myself anymore. All I knew was I started to fake my emotions around people. Who knew a happy person like me would end up being mentally unstable in the end? If you asked people from freshman year, they’ll remember me being the jokester. The girl who’s always smiling. Now, what happened? What happened to me these past few years? I’m still not quite sure.

“Dara, you’ll be late,” My mother called me down, “Wake up Sanghyun, he’ll be late for school.”

I’m Park Sandara also known as Dara. I have two younger siblings; Park Sanghyun and Park Durami. And this is the story of my life.

When he came, my life became a roller coaster ride. The ups and downs. The smiles and tears. Everything became beautiful and ugly at the same time. There were times I loved him and there were times I wanted to regret him as well. But what can I say? It’s not his fault, is it? I’m just a stupid little girl who learned how to love and lost herself in the process.

But mind you, it wasn’t all about love. It was about everything. My life changed and I don’t know when it started. All I know is that I’m lost and don’t know where to go or how it will end.

If only I can see the future. If only… I was strong enough.

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