Crazy, isn't it?

The feeling you gain when you lay your eyes into his

Your cheeks get rosy pink
Your hands get shaky
Your heart skips a beat each time, he whispers into your ear 'I love you.'

I never been in love before, and I don't know if I'm actually in love either.

My heart shouts loud and proudly, "Of course you are! The long, charming stares, the sweet kisses, the cozy, bear hugs! You're in love, honey!"

But my brain disagrees and smacks my heart away like an annoying, buzzing fly. "Are you insane? You're only 15 years old and you think you're in love? You got to be an idiot to literally take those feelings seriously."

I laugh it off, but sometimes it really bugs me.
Not like younger sibling bother, more like it can never leave your head bother.

I don't want to get hurt, but I believe in my heart more than my brain.

Is that weird?
I don't think so.

Maybe I am insane and an idiot for taking my feelings so seriously.
But, isn't that a good thing?

It's been 4 long months,
every hour,
every minute,
every second,
each kiss,
each breathe taken...

Has been wonderful.

I believe I'll love you forever, Sam.
Thank you for everything you made me feel for the pass 4 months and counting.