dec. 8th

entry three ; seul mi

dear jongin,

I'm getting out my handy dandy cell and reading you the time. It says 2 a.m. now. Not really shocking in a sense that I can pull all-nighters for up to 2 weeks.

I just laughed out loud because, holy , almost 2 whole weeks? Is that even human?

You're not human. I have to keep saying this to myself cause I think you aren't human the way you smile.


Off topic.


I'm in my closet. Since ... 2 in the after noon? So, maybe ten hours straight? Yeah. Ten hours.

I kinda like it in here. Although it's not walk-in, it's still pretty decent and provides enough room to stretch my legs and stuff. That's good enough. I can come in here when I wanna and leave as I please. It's neat, I guess.

It's neat and it's safe. I like solitude.

I also like that I ignore you. I really like that. I do it so well at that. I bet you like being ignored so much that you laugh about it sometimes. I can laugh too. I'm laughing. I'm laughing so hard because I ignore you every day. I ignore you so much that I don't even go to school much less. Being ignored by me must be fantastic. What's it like? Is it perfect? Just like you're perfect? I don't blame you, jongin, I don't.

Being ignored by me is perfect, so why should I blame you?

It's all my fault.