Why had he reacted like that? Why had Dongwan's kiss left such a deep impression on him?

He couldn't stop thinking about it, thinking about him. It was different from any relationship he had ever had in the past, especially since this was no relationship, it was just a friend helping another, it was just practice, it meant nothing to Dongwan, so why did it feel so special to Andy?

Was it just like Dongwan had said? That he was too deprived of love, or was it something else, something more?

Was it the fact that it was Dongwan who had kissed him? That the thought of kissing your friend was something so alien to him, something, forbidden?

His thoughts were scaring him, they weren't normal, and they weren't welcome at all.

He had to forget, to ignore, his feelings, to ignore the strange butterflies he felt every time he saw Dongwan, every time he was reminded of that kiss.

There was no point wallowing  in joy and happiness like a lovestruck fool. Cause he knew he had to wake up, he knew he had to move on.

He might be able to hold onto Dongwan for a while, but Dongwan would start to grow suspicious after some time. He would question why Andy still needed help, why he hadn't begun dating like he promised.

There was no point not dating, Dongwan would move on, even if he didn't. He would find a new girlfriend, and then he wouldn't even have time for him anymore.

A new girlfriend. Why did that thought cause the butterflies in his stomach to die down? Why did it make his heart sink? Did he not want Dongwan to date? Why couldn't he wish for the best for Dongwan, for him to be happy?

It was obvious why, he knew the answer to all of these questions. The problem was just, that the answer was too horrifying to say out loud.

It had been a week  or so since their last "date". It had partially been because of their busy schedules, but mainly because Andy had no clue how to ask Dongwan on a "date". If that was even what Dongwan was waiting for.

Andy had no clue where he stood in all this, what Dongwan was thinking, and what he was supposed to do now.

Everything had been so easy up until Dongwan had kissed him. Andy was supposed to organize the next "date", and Dongwan would evaluate his efforts. But that kiss, what Dongwan had said, he had no clue how to react to that, no clue about how he was supposed to approach Dongwan again.

Dongwan didn't seem affected by the whole kiss thing though. He acted completely normal around the others, even around Andy, and it all just added to Andy's sense of shame.

He was, in all ways, the one who was being sinful, who was having bad thoughts about his friend. It was obvious it wasn't normal to act like this, it was obvious Dongwan didn't feel any of these emotions, and he damn well knew it. It just hurt too much to think about it. 

They were standing on stage now, applauding the group who had won, listening to the MC's wrapping the show up when Andy suddenly felt someone wrapping his arm around his waist and leaning close to his ear.

"I need to talk to you, stay in the waiting room after this" It was Dongwan, Andy knew what he wanted to talk about, he knew Dongwan had grown impatient and wanted to know what Andy had been up to.

His body involuntarily shuttered when he whispered, his breath so close to him he could feel the heat emanating from him. Worse of all, Dongwan made no intend of moving, his arm stuck around Andy's waist, and face still way too close for Andy's liking. He could feel his heartbeat increasing, and he hated his body for it.

Time went by so slowly, but finally the MC's were done, and people started moving down from the stage, Dongwan let go and smiled before he made his way towards their waiting room. Andy was done for, he had no excuse as to why he had been quiet around him.

The waiting room was chaos. Eric had left right away, so he was no problem, but Hyesung kept bugging everyone about grabbing lunch, and Minwoo wouldn't let Junjin change into his own clothes, he was constantly asking him questions, and Junjin couldn't talk and change at the same time. They were going to be there for a long time if Dongwan wanted to be alone with Andy.

Andy was sitting in a couch, just watching the mayhem unfold when an annoyed Junjin accidentally hit Hyesung when he was putting his shirt on too violently. He would've normally loved the scene of Hyesung pretending like Junjin had broken his nose, and the concerned look on Junjin's and Minwoo's faces, but he couldn't relax, not now, he couldn't feel anything but the weird butterflies fighting in his stomach at the thought of being alone with Dongwan.

Speaking of the devil, Dongwan stepped into the room, he had went to his car to get some things from his bag earlier. He looked at the mess the others were in in the middle of the room, but then his eyes traveled to the couch in the corner, and his eyes fell on Andy.

Andy swallowed hard as they locked eyes, Dongwan was approaching him, ignore the butterflies, calm down.

"Hey, I was thinking. This will take forever if we wait for the guys to leave, what about just finding an empty room?" Dongwan had leaned down and half whispered, and Andy couldn't find any words, he just nodded and got up when Dongwan gave him his hand as help.

They went down a couple of hallways until they saw a room with an open door, it was empty so Dongwan pulled Andy inside and closed the door.

"Wouldn't want someone to walk in on us and expose your secret" he smiled as he locked the door.

This was it, he couldn't run now, he had to face Dongwan, he had to come up with a really good excuse right now.

"Andy. I've been worrying about you lately" this was unexpected, nothing like what Andy had predicted, he had never thought Dongwan would look sad, would worry.

"I'm really sorry if I made you uncomfortable last time, it was never my intend to scare you away. I just thought we were good enough friends for me to kiss you, but, if I crossed the line...please forgive me" he looked straight at Andy's eyes, putting his hand on his arm and the sadness he was showing was no joke, it really made Andy feel guilty, it was never Dongwan's fault that he didn't call, it was him who was to blame, not Dongwan.

"Hyung" he spoke for the first time in a long time.

"I'm the one who's supposed to be sorry, it has nothing to do with you, you can never cross the line, I was just too afraid of messing up, so I didn't know what to say to you. I guess I just still need a lot more training" Oh god, what was he saying. This was the most embarrassing thing he had ever admitted, ok maybe the thing that started this whole "training" was more embarrassing, but still.

"Are you sure Andy? There's no way I can cross the line? I mean, I can go pretty far if you want it" his face was suddenly not sad anymore, it was filled with that emotion Andy hadn't seen before. Dongwan had also let go of his arm and moved closer, unconsciously Andy had backed up a little, but hurriedly realized he was standing back against a wall.

Dongwan's face was coming closer again, his arms had found their way around Andy's waist but he couldn't protest, he wanted this, he wanted Dongwan, he just couldn't know.

"Andy, are you sure you want this? You seem kind of scared?" He had unconsciously closed his eyes, and opened them to find Dongwan right in front of him. He shouldn't do this, he was cheating Dongwan, Dongwan did this as a form of help, a friendly gesture, and Andy did it for pleasure, it was wrong. But as long as he never told Dongwan, who did it really hurt?

"Hyung..." He couldn't finish his sentence, he just had to show him.

He went straight for his lips, wrapping his arms around the older man as he closed his eyes again.

He had definitely taken the other by surprise, cause he was frozen for a good couple of seconds before he suddenly began moving his hands down Andy's back to find the bottom of his shirt and slipping his hands under it. His hands were warm, and soothing, and Andy couldn't help but whimper slightly, why did Dongwan always have the upper hand?

Dongwan took his chance when Andy opened his mouth to slip his tongue inside and deepen the kiss, this made Andy moan again and he knew he had to do something to Dongwan to show him he wasn't a complete newbie.

Dongwan was wearing a buttoned up shirt, so Andy took the initiative to make Dongwan the first one to be shirtless by moving his hands to Dongwan's chest and ing it.

Dongwan pulled away slightly to catch his breath, and Andy couldn't help but smile at him when he saw Dongwan's confused face as he noticed his ed shirt.

"So you want to take it that far?" Dongwan smiled as he took a hold of Andy's t-shirt and pulled it off of him.

He had never wanted to touch Dongwan's chest, feel his skin against his own before, but now, he couldn't think of anything else, he had to know how it felt, how he felt.

He pulled Dongwan in for another kiss, but this time he was completely focused on roaming Dongwan's upper body. Dongwan didn't seem to complain though, and when Andy begged him for entrance he willingly opened his mouth.

It was as if time had stopped, he couldn't care less if Dongwan was doing this because of love or because of a promise he made to a friend, it didn't make him less real, it didn't make his touches less real.

Dongwan pulled away to breath again, but this time Andy hadn't had enough, he wanted Dongwan to moan, he wanted him to feel weak, at least once. He moved his focus to Dongwan's collarbone and neck area, he wanted to make a love bite, he wanted to do at least one thing Dongwan hadn't done to him before.

It was working too, Dongwan was caught completely off guard, and even though it was barely audible, Andy could still hear the noises escaping Dongwan's mouth.

Dongwan wouldn't let Andy win though, as soon as he regained his senses Andy felt Dongwan's hands moving away from his back, moving lower, grabbing the rim of his pants, slowly moving lower, and Andy couldn't help but blush and freeze, if only for a moment. Dongwan noticed though, he chuckled at the younger's response.

"You still have much to learn Andy. You can't freeze like that just because I'm grabbing your . If you react like this, then how badly would you react if I did this?" he moved his hands to Andy's zipper and zipped it open.

His mind went blank, was Dongwan really going to go there? Was this all a joke, or was he really going there?

He had to counter him, to show him he could win. He moved his own hands from Dongwan's back to the front of his pants and did the exact same thing he had done to him, except that he pulled Dongwan's pants down as well.

"You know, Andy. There's still one step left" he pulled Andy's pants down slightly and took a hold of the rim of his underpants, he made a move to slip a hand inside, but just as Andy had prepared himself as much as he could mentally a noise came from the hallway.

"Thank you very much sir, I'm really sorry for bothering you, I'll tell them to leave right away when you've opened the door. No I don't know why they would lock themselves in there. Yes I know you have better things to do than searching for missing adults, I'm very sorry" It was Hyesung. Andy opened his eyes to stare right into Dongwan's, they knew they were in deep if Hyesung saw this, there was no explaining why Dongwan's hand was almost inside of Andy's underwear, or why they were practically .

The door clicked open and the lights , they had been too slow at moving, too shocked.

"What the hell are you two doing?! Dongwan, remove that hand immediately!"

AN: So, a new chapter :D I couldn't end it here like I had planned, I need more chapters, one, maybe two, but then I promise I'm done :D hopefully :P Love you guys so much, all of the comments and subscriptions are so appreciated :D And I'm really very proud of this, the closest thing I've ever gotten to M rated :D I'm really kind of proud :P Wandy seems easier to do this with :P