You took the glasses from kitchen and come back to the living room where all BigBang’s members – except from their leader were sitting comfortably on every possible free space.

Now we can talk all night! Big SeungHyun said pleased when you gave him a glass and he took his own corkscrew from his jacket’s pocket. Always prepared. As always.

When everyone had a full glass, boys looked at each other, then at you and asked what’s going on.

How’s JiYong? You asked serious

Recording new songs… like always… Youngbae said after a sip of his wine. You looked at each member but they didn’t look at you. Looking everywhere, shoes, glass, nails, lamp… but not you.

But HOW is he recording it? Drugged? Drunk? I’ve heard Teddy… You almost scream at them, your hand started to shake and YuJin patted your back to calm you down. You took a deep breath and turned to the eldest guy.

SeungHyun Oppa… please. Tell me what’s going on with him.

He has a lot on his head… our solos and band’s album… he produces couple of songs for WINNER and Lee Hi… he said still not looking at you. Then drunk almost all wine that he had in the glass in one gulp.

But does he take drugs? You still didn’t get an answer to the question you wanted to know

Sometimes … we want to stop him, but… sober and clean… he can’t work, can’t do anything than… Daesung whispered over his glass.

He can’t be alone when he’s sober. He does weird things then. Seungri added

And as much as we love him, we can’t spend with him 24/7 to look after him… Youngbae finished.

You were in shock… so everything you thought was true… he’s addicted… he’s addicted because of …

When it all started? He had a drug scandal in Japan few months after we… you couldn’t handle to said your thoughts out loud, but you knew they knew what you think. But non of them answered you

I beg you! Please, tell me it’s not because of me!! You screamed through the tears and you hid your face in your hands. Few seconds later you felt someone embracing you and patted your back.

Everything’s gonna be OK ____-ah. We take care of him… We do our best so he could be around people all the time and be clean. it was SeungHyun who said it to your ear. He looked at you and wiped tears from your cheeks. All of us know the reason why you decided to break up with JiYong. And no one blame you for what happened to him after that.

I would do the same if I were on your place two years ago. Seungri said and YuJin looked at him with a sad expression.

When boys left soon after, you went to bed, but couldn’t force yourself to sleep. You had to wake up in few hours, and after sleepless nights you looked as a zombie. And no makeup could cover it. The thought that JiYong was smoking weed, or taking other drugs, and all because of you... The only thing that should calm you down was that Daesung admitted, that he met someone and Ji feels better with her. Yeah… that should calm you down. But why you still feel that pain in your chest when you think about that?

The next day, after the customer you were taking care of left the gallery you went to the main desk where JiWoo was sitting and sighed when you heard the ringtone of your coworker. Her phone was left on the desk but she was nowhere. After a few signals, when you noticed that whoever is calling her