I don't know who should I choose. Both of them are too perfect to be leaved. They both have never met, even did not know each other. And I don't know what to do if they know each other. They are very important persons in my life ..

Oh Sehun, my classmate at college who trying to approach me. We indeed are in the same age, but the nature and his attitude is much more mature than me. I often questioned the trivial things that happened between us. For example, he did not answer my call when I need him, in fact he was trying to explain it to me, but I still don't want to hear it. Finally he always relented and admitted he was wrong. I was also always being selfish, all my wishes must be obeyed him. I like he treat me like this, with this way I felt he was very fond of me. He also never complained because of my act. Sehun and I have not in a lover relationship. Once Sehun asked me to be his girlfriend, but I refused. Sehun also told me, if he's going to try to love someone else because I give him false hope for so long. I then told him why he can not he be patient any longer? I'm too lazy to be in a relation for now. After hearing my words, Sehun back to life as my shadow. I don't want to be his girlfriend, but I would be angry if I knew that he was close to another girl. That's how I was with Sehun, I'm selfish ..

Choi Junhong, he is different with Sehun. If I was together with Junhong, I will more mature. Of course I have to do it, we closed to within 2 years of age, and I'm older than him. Junhong currently still in school at the last year of high school. I knew him from my cousin Minki. Just like Sehun, Junhong also had asked me to be his girlfriend, and I also refused him same as Sehun. But I can not forbid Junhong to close with another girl, because Junhong always argue with me. Ever time I forbid him because had met another girl, he immediately blamed me for not accepting his love. But even as it Junhong not been on a date with another girl without my known, before he go on a date with another girl, he would tell me. He did not intend to find a girlfriend. Junhong always makes me be 'the number 1' among all the girls who were close to him. He always treated me in a special way, although sometimes he is childish and often troubled me. But he always knew how to make me happy. Junhong always depend on me. He once said he could not live without me.

I love both. I can not live without them. On the one hand I rely on Sehun, but on the other hand Junhong that rely on me.

They both don't know that I have been in 'relationship', just relationship, not be a lover, but just  with the 2 of them. They always think that if I just close with one of them. I do not want to be theirs, but I want to have them completely .. I'm selfish ..

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