2. Heartbreak
It's Me!
Chapter 2: Heartbreak
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“Hmmm… maybe this and this?” Vin mussed as she and Yeongji stared at the rack of clothes.
“Or this and that one…” Yeongji suggested. The older nodded, “That one looks good too” their mussing
continued on for several more minutes as they couldn’t decide which clothes should Joongki wear for
today.
“Maybe… that one?” a voice interrupted them and as they turned they saw Joongki standing next to
them, he too was now staring at the rack of clothes inside the dressing room.
“Alright, we’ll go with this” Vin settled for a pair of dark crimson pants, a nice black polo and some
cheeky white bowtie. She handed it to him and he headed for the changing area. “Ahh! Could you
get me the dark beige loafers, I left it in the van” she remembered and Yeongji nodded. “Arasseo, I’ll
be back in a moment” and with that she left the room to head back to the parking lot of KBS’s main
building.
After getting the pair of shoes, she got back inside the building and as she got to the 10th floor hallway
she stopped on her tracks.
Finally, after months of waiting she got her chance. Right before her eyes, Byunghun emerges from the
opposite end walking towards her direction. He seemed preoccupied as he was talking to Ricky, another
member of Teen Top.
Ricky was the first one to notice her as he nudged his hyung. Byunghun halts and turns his attention to
what Ricky was looking at. He stopped and stared at her, ‘What is she doing here?’ was the first thing
that came to mind.
“Byunghun-ah, annyeong!” Yeongji was the first one to greet him with a smile. “It’s been a long time,
how have you been?” she asked with pure concern but he only smirked back at her.
“Do I know you?” he asked with arrogance and she was taken aback.
“It’s Yeongji, remember? We went to the same school together” she replied, trying to make him
remember. She was a bit hurt, how could he even forget her. After all she’d done for him.
“Ohhh… right…” he replied without care, boredom written all over his face. Ricky just stood there
watching them.
She was feeling that this conversation was getting more and more awkward. Why was he acting like
this?
“You don’t answer my calls and messages, did you change your number?” she asked with worry as she
hadn’t heard from him since he left school to pursue his career.
“Excuse me but are we friends? Because from what I remember we’re not even that close” he remarked
harshly, his face now showed irritation. They weren’t friends, that he knows quite well. He just needed
someone to get his assignments completed and his errands done.
The very words stung her. How could he be so mean? Chorong’s words then came crossing her mind.
For the first time, she realized how awful he was towards her. It just felt so painful because she had
secretly liked him ever since and thought that maybe by doing all these for him they can become
friends.
So he just used her for his own convenience. “Tch. This is stupid and pointless” he voiced in annoyance,
“Let’s go Ricky” and called for the younger to follow him as they walked past her, leaving Yeongji on her
own in the hallway.
He literally walked past her without sparing her a single glance. “Don’t you think that was kind of mean,
hyung?” Ricky asked as she looked back at Yeongji who was still rooted to the spot not moving. He gave
her a sympathetic look as he followed his hyung back to their dressing room.
Yeongji bit her lower lip, trying to supress the tears from falling. “Hajima” she whispered to herself as
she made her way back to Joongki’s dressing room in a hurried pace.
“Please don’t” she continued to beg herself. She reached the room and locked it once she was safely
inside, closed off to the outside world. She sighed as she leaned heavily on the door.
She sniffs, a single tear finally escaping her eye. “Tsk!” just like that a stream of hot, fresh tears followed.
Soon, she was already sobbing. She let herself slip to the floor without a care. She felt like her heart was
tearing apart. She knew that Byunghun and she wouldn’t really have a future or anything, she didn’t
think of that. It was just too sad that all this time, she was blinded by her own stupidity thinking that
Byunghun actually did consider her as a friend. Unfortunately, it’s all just in hear head, an illusion she
had conjured.
“You’re so bad” she cursed under breath as she thought of him.
Joongki was alone in the dressing room going over his script for the show. They were supposed to be
taping the intro by now but it got delayed due to some technical difficulties and the people on the set
are still working on the problem.
He stopped as he saw Yeongji coming in. The air was filled with a heavy aura as he saw her just stand
there facing the door, head down. Then she started sobbing which alerted him. ‘Did something happen
to her? She just left a couple of minutes ago’ he got curious as to what had gone wrong, as well as
concern for her.
She didn’t seem to notice that he was inside as she slumped down in a corner and buried her face in her
hands.
Joongki stood up from his seat quietly and made his way towards her. He too sat on the floor beside her.
Her sobs stopped abruptly and she looked up with a tear-stricken face mixed with shock and alarm.
“M-mianhae-y-yo…” she voiced out quite incoherently as she was now having trouble breathing because
of too much crying.
“I didn’t know you were still here, I’ll just go out, sorry for disturbing you” she was about to stand up
when Joongki held onto her arm to make her stay in place.
She looked at him with surprise, her eyes wide but red because of all the crying.
“Just stay here, I don’t mind” he said calmly as he handed her a piece of tissue.
“I’m not going to force you to tell me what happened, I know I’m not in the right place to ask. But if you
need someone to talk to, I’m always here, you can tell me anything” he said with a soft smile, his eyes
full of concern.
“And this shoulder right here is always free” he added softly as he patted his shoulder.
She sniffed, appreciating his actions just now, “Komawo” thankful that he understood.
And they just stayed like that as Yeongji continued to cry her heart out because of possibly the first ever
heartbreak she experienced. Joongki scooted closer towards her and placed a comforting arm around
her shoulders as he patted it to help her calm down even just for a bit.
Joongki’s flashback:
“Annyeonghaseyo! I’m Park Yeongji, please take care of me!” the girl bowed in front of the whole staff,
her voice filled with enthusiasm as well as a hint of shyness in her voice. He was standing from a good
distance, script in hand as he was practicing his lines at that moment.
He stopped to stare at her. She had that innocent and angelic smile that caught his eyes. At that instant,
it felt like he wanted to protect her, and for that smile to never leave her face. “I must be going crazy” he
said thoughtfully to himself and chuckled at how cheesy the situation felt.
He watched as Yeongji continued to cry silently. He promised himself he would never let anyone make
her cry again.
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“Joongki-sshi,I got you some iced Americano” she came back with a cold cup of coffee as it was really
hot on the set. Summer was taking a toll on everyone today as they had to shoot outdoors. The blazing
sun and humid weather wasn’t really helping.
“Komawo, Yeongji-ah” he thanked her as he placed the script down and took the cup from her. She
smiled, pleased that he liked it.
“Hey, I told you to call me ‘Oppa’” he complained with a pout and she turned pink in surprise, “Come on,
just give it a try” he encouraged.
Yeongji didn’t know what to do, she can’t really say ‘no’ to him because that would just be so rude.
“Joongki-o-ppa?” she tried, the word felt awkward and foreign to her though Joongki seemed pleased.
“Good, just call me that from now on” he said with a big grin plastered on his face.
After the shoot, Shin-ae arrived making a quick check on everything. Joongki spotted her and quickly
approached her.
“Noona~” he started coyly and she replied with a “What do you want?” knowing Joongki quite well to
sense that he was about to ask her for something.
“Can I ask you a favor? It’s just a small one” he assured her and she raised an eyebrow at him, curious as
to what he was about to ask.
“Can you make Yeongji my stylist?” he asked with big doe eyes trying to pull her into saying ‘yes’.
Shin-ae was a bit surprised by his request which made her even more curious as to why he would ask for
such a thing. Joongki never really showed any interest in things like these, well, from what she knew and
saw.
"Alright" she gave up, she knew that Joongki wouldn't stop unless she said yes, anyway.
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TBC
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