Alone

Always and Forever

I walked down the crowded streets and yet I felt

as if I was the only one there. Nobody mattered to me.

Only her. Why do I keep torturing myself? Why can't I just

forget her? Why can't I just be happy? When she left,

she took my happiness with her.  The thoughts of her are painful.

They are like knifes cutting through my soul. To stop the thoughts

from entering my brain I put my ipod into my ears and put the music on shuffle.

Fate was obviously messing with my heart, and wanted despritely  to give me more pain and suffering.

The song that came on was her and my song. The song that we danced to together on the night

that I admitted my love to her. Memories began to flood over me and tears were threatening to come out of my

eyes. Men don't cry. It's the test of dignity. Those that can bear more, suffer less.

But even though I don't cry, why do I still feel miserable?

 My dignity is all that I have left. All the rest, she took with her.

I quickly changed the song. To my surprise, a new song came on. One that I've never heard, by a kpop group named Beast.

"Yosoeb must have stolen my ipod again!" I said to myself as the song began.

 

 I still can’t forget you
I still can’t trust everything
Even today I can’t send you away like this

I will rewrite it again, our story will not end
I will bury fact that reality is seeping into my skin for now
I rewrite it once again, the start beginning with you and I smiling happily
In case you will leave me, the background is a small room without an exit

I kiss you as if there is nothing wrong
I can’t leave your sweet presence
There is no such thing as an end for us

 Like this again (Fiction in Fiction)
I can’t forget you (Fiction in Fiction)
I am writing the story that will never end in my heart

 I will hold on to you (Fiction in Fiction)
I won’t let you go (Fiction in Fiction in Fiction)
Even today, I’m in the story of you and I that hasn’t ended still, in Fiction...

 

Sometime during the song, I fell to my knees. And I officially lost everything, including my dignity.

But I didn't care. I let the tears streak down my face and hit the ground.

They stung my eyes, they blurred my vision, they made me lose all sense.

I stopped crying when a figure walked in front of me and stood there, staring at me.

I looked up and my heart stopped. It was her...

 

 

 

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BlueBang #1
Chapter 5: Hey I really like your story update as soon as possible ~ ♥ oh and ...
omg ! NOOOOOO !
pandasockSJ
#2
@wtfelicia- Yes, yes she did! I didn't want the whole story to be depressing! Yeah, I did try to make her as cute as possible. Though, Jun Hyung does outshine her cuteness any day!<br />
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@Jaimee- INDEED! Aw, thank you! The accident actually does have more meaning as you will see in the next few chapters. HAHA! I know! And the little sister was like: WTF? I like how you always reply with: Hwaiting. It's pretty fab! <br />
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@Jeniscool100- Thank you. I do try! And yes, she has been. And yes, I have been. What, you thought that she was dead? That's...a good idea. I just might use that. Or not. I do love a happy ending, though!
jeniscool100 #3
Whaaaaaaaaaat? She's been alive this whole time?!?! <br />
YOU WERE HOLDING OUT ON US, GIRL! ;D <br />
I really loved Junhyung at the end having a mini spazz and running out of the apartment! WOOOHOOO, I can't wait to see their first interaction!(: <br />
You write so so well! Your word choice is great and so is your sentence structure. I really do enjoy reading this story soooooo much! :]<br />
I can't wait for your next update! I just know that it's gonna be AWESOME, just like this one was! :3 ♥
Jaimee #4
You're welcome :) I love commenting on this story!!<br />
SO she is alive!! and she's looking for Junhyung!! Junhyung but be like the happiest guy in the world right now ^_^<br />
I thought you did good when you portrayed the accident in the last chapter :)<br />
haha Junhyung is such a spazz screaming, SHE'S AT MY APARTMENT out of nowhere :P<br />
HURRY!! Go and get your girl back Junhyung!! :D<br />
GREAT update!! I thought that this one was really exciting!! :)<br />
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HWAITING~!<br />
wtfelicia #5
she went to his apartment!? >.< and the sister.. so cute
pandasockSJ
#6
@Jaimee- Thank you so much for your AMAZING comments! Well, like the in the music video when Jung Hyung "saw" the girl, he was just imagining her. But honestly, I really don't know anything about the girl yet, I'm making it all up as I go! Yeah. I probably portrayed the accident in a really failure way but, I'll make it have a point in the story! Jun Hyung is pretty stupid! I'm probs totally overdoing his heartbroken-ness but it'll play out in the end...I hope.
Jaimee #7
Thanks!! your pretty awesome for writing this amazing story!!!<br />
so is the girl dead?? hmm this is interesting... ^_^<br />
OH!!! I just had an epiphany!! That was when Kyuhyun from Super Junior got into that accident and it was really sad!! I remember because it was HUGE! I remember reading something that said that Leeteuk kept on saying Kyuhyun as he was taken to the hospital :'( it was really sad!<br />
i understand that Junhyung is heartbroken but does he have to be that stupid?!?<br />
But AMAZING update I loved <333<br />
I can't wait for the next update!! HWAITING~!!
pandasockSJ
#8
@jeniscool100: Your comment just blew my mind. You caught things that I was doing that I didn't even realize that I was doing. That doesn't make sense, but I don't care! Jeniscool100, you are cool100!
jeniscool100 #9
OH MY GOD! I love how the member of Beast is not a member of Beast and is instead listening to Beast on his ipod! THAT JUST BLEW MY MIND! :D<br />
And WOW! You write so well!(: And some of your themes going on here are quite interesting! Like, my favorite line in this chapter was:<br />
"Men don't cry. It's the test of dignity." Analyzing gender roles? DANG GIRL! I love that you're breaking convention! :P <br />
Keep up the great work! You're absolutely awesomely amazing! ♥<br />
I can't wait for your next update! :3 <br />