boooya. short chapter before i sleep.
nights. o/

            She held the letter in her hands, looking up at Baekhyun. “What is this?” she whispered before unfolding the piece of paper. Baekhyun shrugged, as if not knowing what the piece of paper contained. But it was what it was – the letter contained all the feelings Baekhyun had kept inside of him for the longest time, much more honest this time.

“Naeun,

            I’m sorry but I can never stop loving you..” she read.

            She looked up after that sentence, turned to me and sighed, “Why not?”

            “Because.. You’re the best,” he grinned with thumbs up, with hopes to make the mood lighter. However he knew his heart was still feeling heavy. Naeun only chuckled and looked back at the letter, blankly staring this time.

            Baekhyun sat up and hugged his knees. This time, he continued the rest of the letter, seemingly to have memorized well whatever he had written.

            “I know it hurts – and you wouldn’t want me to, but please.. give me the freedom to love. We are best friends and we will always be. And it doesn’t matter if I choose to leave, always remember that I would still always be around for you. The main reason why I initially wanted to leave you was because I didn’t want you to worry about me anymore. I wanted to try to hate you for letting me go. It didn’t hurt. It didn’t, until you begged me not to leave. I’ll try to keep my promise. Just for you, I won’t. Lastly, sorry if in any way I happen to hurt you again. No matter what, you’re my best friend, always.”

            With that last sentence, both of them fell silent. Naeun continued to stare blankly at the letter, whilst Baekhyun felt his tears about to fall. He knew he seemed weak, but he really didn’t care anymore.

            After Baekhyun has done telling her what he had to, he felt like running away. Disappearing and never come back. One does not simply pour his feelings out. What more Baekhyun. He has always been a strong guy. Well, not anymore. He felt like he has lost everything that was ever within him. Nothing exists anymore. Not his feelings, not his thoughts, nothing.

            Like they say;

            “If a man tells a girl that doesn’t like him – if he confesses everything like a pathetic fool.. ..it means that he never wants to see her ever again..” – (Reply 1997)

            That’s how he felt. That’s what he wanted to do. But everything else was stopping him.