I was playing starcraft like what I always did everyday since I know this game. But some players just ruined my mood by winning against me several time. Didn't want to play and make my mood worsened If I loose mores, I just quited my game and wanders around in youtube.

Watched fancam of recent SS5 Seoul make me realized how we are loved by ELFs. They bothers to came to watch our concerts where basically just a bunch of idiots having fun an playing around in stage? That's must be because they loved Super Junior so so so much. Or maybe because we are to amazing to resisted. Whichever suit you better. SME locked so many fancam already, duh, why can't they let that videos a little longer. I know they have a plan to sell SS5 DVD, but actually let the concert's fancams a little longer before they blocked them can be a good promotion for us, no?

Just because I was curious, not because I was their shipper, I know they are not couple like most of ELFs think, at least, they never really admit it. I started to search for EunHae video. And a lot, really a lot of their videos came up. From SS5 moments, old moments, even compilation of EunHae moments from the start of Super Junior, until this time. Wow, that really impressed me. EunHae shipper really knew how to catch an translate every single details of their moments and make us believe there are something between them. Or maybe there really are something and the shippers just show it to us, and open our eyes? I don't know.

But not a long time after that, I got bored of EunHae. Come on, I met them almost everyday. I have a right to be bored, no? And just because I was bored, not because I was curious, noted it, it have a big difference, I try to search of KyuMin. Hmm, look like we didn't really have a lot of KyuMin moments nowadays. I think I should work harder to make that moments right? Not that I want to make that moments, or I have some 'strange' feeling to Minnie Hyung. We really are just a brothers. He is my favourite Hyung, and my number one bias in Super Junior, remember? But we can't just turned down our shippers. We need to do more fanservice. Yes, that's it. Just a fanservice. Our shippers had been sad enough because of we divorced earlier this year. And just a few days ago, Minnie Hyung said he had a crush toward someone when he was DJ-ing SuKiRa. I hate that someone, eventhough Minnie Hyung told me that, he just said that to make the listeners curious and interested. I don't care wether they are real or just bull, whoever they are, I hate them, Minnie Hyung is mine. I mean, he is my favourite Hyung.

And suddenly, I found this video. An old video, a cut from when Minnie Hyung DJ-ing with SooYoung and I called to the radio. Wow, KyuMin shipper really daebak. I never though I would hear that conversation again. That conversation when Minnie Hyung said he love me. U know the video that I mean right? The one which going like this:

Minnie Hyung: KyuHyun ah~

Me: Hmm?

Minnie Hyung: Saranghae~

Me: Ne~ Saranghaeyo~

Waah, I remembered that I'm blushing like crazy when we were hanging up. I even can't sleep that night. I just felt really really happy. Who didn't felt happy when their brother said he love them, right?

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Wait... HeeChul Hyung barged in to my room. Someone really need to teach him to knock before entering someone's room. Ah, I need to stop writing and hide this. He would force to read it, if he know I'm writing a journal.

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, I was too late. And he indeed read my journal, I'm doomed he will teasing me till the day I'm dead. But no, he just murmured something sound like "You're in denial idiot." and walked out of my room. Wow, that really new. Maybe he is sick? Ah, don't care. I need to sleep, I have a long schedule waiting for me tomorrow. Bye~