Jaejoong's POV

5 months flew by the wind... Time for others seems so fast... but for me, it feels sooooo slow like the turtle (corny, isn't it? XD). I always harbor the pain in my heart, when he didn't greet me happy birthday when all my classmates greeted me, when he shoots daggers to me in our group activities, and when he smiles when my classmates are teasing Gail and him.

I can only curse Gail and the one who made me farther from him, his friend Ali. He has been Yunho's friend and from the start I warned Yunho about Ali's mischievousness and that Yunho will only be that _______ bastard's slave. But he didn't listen. He is so dumb because he had been the object of bullying in our class because of the stupid _______ bastard. My classmates laugh at his clumsiness, his ugly looks (for others), and also every mistake he do. Seems that they cannot see anything good in Yunho anymore, except being good in english and science. Some times I just laugh at him to cover up my pity for him... I want to run back to my Yunnie and give him a bear hug. I want to say I'm still loving him and that love grows deeper everyday. ____, I want to throw my classmates who makes fun with him in the trash bin, wanting to make their lives a living hell... But sadly I can't... first of all, I know he is mad w/ me... so because of guilt... and I also miss him so much...

"Yun..."

"WHAT!?"

"Um.. um... er.. I am sorry for everything!" '____, this bastard.'

"Ok ok... fine."

"Are you mad at me?"

" I am not."

"We are still friends right?"

"Yes! Repeating it all over again?!"

"Yunho! You are mad again!"

"Because you are repeating it again!"

"There you are again!" 'I do not really know why am I doing this.'

"Then why are you talking back!?"

"K k! It is settled! Just joking bro. Sorry again." 'I want to strangle you alive now.'

"K. Then we are fine."

After that, I ran outside the classroom, really afraid of what he is going to say. But I am happy because he is not mad at me! Teehee... I do not expect him to be close with me again... but I just want to act normal even when he is around.

Loving this man is hard. Damn! I hate myself for liking you! I hate you stupid retard! I do not know what will happen next...

The next day we are talking to each other like normal friends? Dunno. We just talk... and in one of our activities, puzzle, he called me by my name, Jae. i am quite surprised because for months I had been longing for that name from his lips! We also had instances when we accidentaly made contact with each other's hands. My heart beated faster again, so by the time I stepped out of the class, I am so tired. My heart rate is in abnormal rate now...

Andae, andae (no, no.). Stop daydreaming Kim Jaejoong. You will not be close again. Yunho doesn't have interest with you! Darn I hate having dreams about you like you hugging me from behind, holding my hand and saving me from kidnappers! I hate you!