Jaejoong's POV... No no... My POV

Hooooo! I thought I will have inner peace in me once I can't see him for many weeks... But know... I can't. In my FB account, us, classmates, in our group, we talked about the 'matter', which are Jung _______ Yunho and Wh*re Gail. Aish... We can't really imagine what he saw to that that made him dump me... A girl who can't even reach my standards!? ____! And also, if he say she has brains... damn ____, I am the valedictorian and she is the top of the other section, but still, she can't get to the overall top 15... maybe because she is so loud... and clingy to boys... she calls herself friendly and she said she finds her happiness when she's with boys... and she says she is a lesbian and now she takes it back? Are you a psychotic person? no... I am the psychotic one... OK fine! For the readers... I know some think I am crazy, irrational, sly, scheming and immature here... But that is what most people think of also... Not only me... I am having a good time then you will just destroy it in a single day!? Is it my fault to fell like this!? I even punch the wall instead of Yunho and Gail, because I do not want them to be hurt... It is better if it is me... for Gail, I still care for her, because we had been close friends since 2007, and for Yunniebear, you know it... I went somehow insane, irrational, immature, sly, crafty, vile, unforgiving, resentful, gloomy, and I know... I learned lessons from those experiences...

My friend here in AFF... no, one of my unnies here in AFF, (you know who you are... I won't tell your name ^^ I ask you to read this ^^) said,

"Henri, patient saengie-ah...

Don't be upset with her words, you know yourself and you are better than her. Patient ne. *hugs*"

"Like I said before just let them be. Time will heal your heart. I know it. When I read your story, I think they are heartless, seriously. 

Time is the best medicine :)
Just think that God already prepare someone who will not break your heart and love you.
I don't know about her, but don't bother yourself with them, they are not worth it!"

That gave me hope... I am now learning how to control my anger... my emotions...

Guys, I am happy I didn't say a 'yes' to him when he courted me. ^^ I am still young and childish...

And if I answered him, maybe I am flooded with issues and problems about him, being a playboy... Darn...

I recently read a quote, in filipino language first!

"Balang araw, makakaya ko na ring tignan ka ng wala na akong nararamdaman pa."

In English (The translation is stupid, I know XD:

"Time will come that I could look straight into your eyes... WITH NO FEELINGS TOWARDS YOU ANYMORE."

Life is so unfair, my Umma always says.

They take advantage over me, use me, break me, but still I have to stand up from my fall... I can't change other people, but the only person I can control is myself... And also...

One day, even you have many friends, you will realize that the only person you can trust is yourself.

And the last but not the least...

God, or Allah or Buddha or the one creator, will make a way to reach out to you. Even if you can't really feel His presence around you when you are afraid, sad, or deprived, He will send people to comfort you... This poem is the poem I made to pass ro our English teacher in our activity... and I never thought I can use it in my daily life...

God is With You

When you feel life is hard

That it’s breaking your heart

When you sense people around are unfair

It seems you’re losing air

When you want to break down

Feeling the whole world is against you

Just remember friend

God is with you.

When you feel so lonely

Not even knowing you’re still breathing

When you know you’re dying

That you want to be killed quickly

When you are weeping

Because every one had left you

Just remember dear

God is with you.

When everybody rejected you

Making your life a living hell

All things not going well

When every one makes you cry

And they really want you to die

The world turning its back on you

Mark it in your heart and mind

Always remember

God is forever with you.

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Thank you readers! I know there is no comedy here but hope you enjoyed and cried (Just Kidding). ^^

~Jiji-ah