I sighed as the beautiful young lady continued to try and link arms with me. Why was she always so bubbly and happy? Her giggle sent shivers down my spine not finding her playfulness funny at all. "What do you want?'

She smiled up at me and I couldn't help but look away. I didn't say anything worth smiling over, "I want to be with my favorite oppa."

I sighed yet again finally giving in as she hooked her arm around my limp arm. "I'm going shopping," I told her in hopes that she'd leave me alone.

"Okay I'll go with you," she quickly said with yet another smile forming at her lips.

I hopped into my car and she followed along sitting in the passengers seat as I turned the music up. Speeding down the streets like I normally do, I feel the cool air entering the car. I look to see the wind blowing in her face as she willingly lets the wind caress her face earning a smile. How could something so small make her smile? But then again what didn't make her smile? She smiled at everything and everyone. No matter what the situation she always found a way to smile.

"Why are you looking at me like that," she grinned at me.

I could only shake my head turning my gaze back to the road trying to block out her smiling face.

After picking out a couple of outfits we found ourselves at a fast food resturant grabbing a bite to eat. As always she would be the one to initiate the conversation while I quietly ate not paying much atention to a word she says. But saying a couple of grunts in between bites so she wouldn't pressure me into talking.

"Great," I hissed when I found a stain on my new designer jacket.

Before I could grab a napkin she wiped it off with her index finger and it off, "There all better."

Coughing a laugh at the disgusting action I shook my head not saying anything as she winked at me before giggling. Wow this girl really is something. Finishing up the last of our meal, I walked out to the near by park. I knew her better than anyone did. She loved being out in nature.

I watched as she raced past me and up the little grassy hill. She was lucky tonight, since it was clear skies for her to see those stars she always stared up at every night.

"Hurry up," she called back waving to me to come and sit next to her.

I didn't listen to her, I knew she was too busy starring up at the sky to notice my pace. I walked up and took a seat next to her. Looking at her, I was amazed to see her eyes so wide as she stared in awe. It was as if the stars where reflecting in her eyes and I could feel the left side of my lip starting to twich. I shook it off as I pulled my knees up and let my arms rest upon them.

I was grateful that it was dark out it felt quiet and peaceful. I felt her lean her head onto my shoulder as she continued to stare out into space.

"Why do you always want to look out at the stars? There's nothing special about them," I finally said breaking the comfortable silence between us.

"Because it's beautiful."

I shook my head still not understanding, "Don't you know that you're only starring up at the past? For all we know those stars don't exist anymore."

"The more the reason to enjoy it. Making the moment last before it's gone," she said as she looked to me with a smile.

I had to turn away from her gaze it was too strong for me. I can't really explain it, but this girl makes me feel...something. I just don't know what.

"Look there's a shooting star, make a wish," she said quickly shutting her eyes as she crossed her fingers.

I felt the left side of my lip starting to twich yet again as I looked at her sillyness. Did she know that those wishes were only made in vain? Probably not. But I continue to look at her face that is lite softly with the light of the moon and the stars. Her face was so beautiful, so innocent, so pure, so happy, so everything I wasn't.

Looking away before she could open her eyes I clench my fists feeling like an idiot sitting up here with her. How was it that she somehow got me to do stupid things like this? Pushing myself up from the hill I started to make my way back. Just as expected she fell into step with me walking in silence before we found ourselves back at the car.

We both sat in silence and I didn't know why I wouldn't start the car to leave. But something made me want to stay just for a little bit. Sitting in silence for a bit I knew she wouldn't say anything and allow me this moment of silence. One of the reasons why I let her hang around me. She knew me. Well... she knew when I wanted moments of peace and quiet and she gave them to me. For this, I'm grateful for her.

"Minzy..." I turned to look at her.

She flashed me a smile, "Yes oppa?"

What do I say? Thanks for tagging along even though I wanted to be alone? No I couldn't. So why am I calling out her name? "I'm sorry."

"For what," she asked with the smile still plastered on her face.

"That I'm not the same oppa," finally speaking the words I've been wanting to say to her for such a long time.

"Jiyong what are you talking about?"

I shrugged my shoulders knowing what I was going to say next, "I don't feel comfortable around you anymore."

I watched as her smile turn into a pout, "What does that mean?"

"Minzy we can't keep hanging out like this, people will get the wrong idea of us."

"What? Since when does what other people think bother you?"

Yup she knows me too well. My lie was read through within a split second, "Minzy you are a maturing young lady now."

"And..." her voice trailed off signaling for me to finish her sentence.

"And it's best if we keep our distance from each other for the sake of our fans," yet another lie.

"What? That's the lamest excuse ever! Everyone knows from 2ne1tv how we really are."

"Do they," I challenged her for some odd reason.

She gave me a look of confusion, something I myself was feeling, "I don't understand where this is all coming from."

"Minzy can't you see that I'm trying to push you away," I spoke a little louder then intended.

"Well...I knew you were acting a little strange. But I figured you were probably going through something and you'd tell me about it later."

Her guess was half right. I was going through a lot of doubt, confusion, and fear. But I wasn't, no I'm not, going to tell her the cause of it all. "Minzy don't follow me anymore. It's annoying!"

"Oppa why are you speaking so harshly to me," she spoke as I saw her eyes speak words of saddness.

"Because I can't breath when you're around me. I feel so uncomfortable," I began to bark, not so much angry at her but at the feels that were eating me alive.

"I...I'm sorry. I...I didn't know. Wha...what can I do so you don't feel this way," she stuttered as I saw tears forming at her eyes.

Damn the tears! Why was she always so quick to use them against me, "Minzy don't cry. Just please understand." I started to calmly speak to control the raging feelings ready to burst out of me.

I watched as her gaze dropped to her lap wipping the tears that escaped her eyes. She nodded like the obedient girl she was, "Whatever you say."

Watching her walk in by herself with her head hanging low pricked my heart. But it was for the best. This was the only way to stop her from coming to me. This was the only way to save her from myself. I couldn't taint her beauty and especially her innocence. She deserves better. A guy like me could only love a girl like her from a distance. This was my way of keeping this a one-sided love.

Author's Notes:

Dang I don't know why I wrote this in first person when I still kinda feel uncomfortable writing in that way. But yeah thanks for indulging me in yet another one of my random fics. I thought that maybe by using GD in this fic I could possibly redeem him from how I've been writing about him in my other fic...but that didn't happen. this is still kinda somewhat sad, dang! haha, anywho thanks for reading!