Beads of sweat gathered at the base of Kyuhyun’s neck soaking the collar of his black t-shirt. His brown locks stuck to his forehead irritating the surface of his smooth skin. Kyuhyun jerked his head to the side getting a few stray hairs away from his vision. The humid air around him felt heavy and damp causing his throat to burn with every breath he took. He dismissed the dry pain not minding it at all already used to the feeling.

Kyuhyun focused ahead of him with a genuine smile on his face. He stood on stage, his chocolate brown eyes looked over a beautiful display of sapphire blue light sticks swaying with uneven harmony. With every movement the fans gave, it seemed to radiate a feeling of hope. Everything seemed like an ill wanted dream, a wanted illusion. A slight cough or touch could cause the image to disappear instantly.

“Amazing, isn’t it,” Sungmin spoke softly as he loosely put an arm around the young Super junior member, shoulder. With that simple action, the fans instantly reacted with screams of excitement seeing their favorite stars do skinship. Kyuhyun couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle as he looked toward the older man. Again, the fans seemed to love that because now some of them were yelling their shipping name.

With a cheeky grin, Sungmin winked toward the brown haired male and ran off to another part of the stage to go bother the other members. It wasn’t uncommon to see these simple skinship between men. A simple hug or look to one another can cause a crowd to be wild. It was odd at first but the men of Super Junior were now used to it. Skinship was part of their lives and they weren’t going to deprive the fans of that.

Still, all of this close hugging and kisses on the cheek made Kyuhyun a little uneasy. It wasn’t the fact that it was weird that men would even begin to do those loving actions but it was the reason of knowing when a certain person touched him, either on the cheek or on the side of his stomach, would cause the brown haired male to feel a burning on his skin. He would feel a sense of warmth especially when this certain person hugged him. Hell, Kyuhyun would feel his cheeks burn when that certain male looked at him.

Without warning, water was sprayed right into Kyuhyun’s face causing him to jump back in surprise. He looked around him with a glare set on the person who had sprayed him. The members were scrabbling hiding behind one another not wanting to be blamed for the deed. It was clear that Kyuhyun wanted answers and started to eye each of the older males. The crowd, on the other hand, were hysterically laughing loving every minute of the show below them.

A snicker echoed out giving away the person who had committed the playful act. Kyuhyun quickly turned to see a hair of messy black hair trying to hide behind Siwon. With a glare from the young Super Junior member, Siwon moved out of the way leaving an awkward turtle standing still with his face hidden in his small hands.

“Yah, what was that for,” Kyuhyun playfully yelled. Out of the corner of his eye, he picked up a stray fish stuff animal and threw it to the older male. Kyuhyun waited for the other’s reaction with his arms crossed over his chest.

“Kyu,” the raven haired male whined out as he felt the soft toy hit his head. Jongwoon looked up from his hands looking straight at the young guy. “That hurt and now I’m not talking to you!” A pout was upon his face with his cheeks puffing out and stomped his foot in a childish manner. The members rolled their eyes but the fans were now screaming in delight as Jongwoon’s pouting face was on the big screen.

“And you’re supposed to be older than me?”

“...”

“You better apologize to me.”

Jongwoon stuck his lower lip further trying to do the best puppy face he can muster.

“Not going to work.”

With one more try, Jongwoon puckered his pink lips together to mimic a kissing movement.

“Nope.”

Blinking his eyes innocently, Jongwoon spoke in his softest voice. “I love you.”

A pang in Kyuhyun’s chest burst hearing the older male’s words. He knew he shouldn’t feel happy or giddy but it was hard to ignore. He knew Jongwoon only said it because it was either for the fans reactions or because he knew that there’re wasn’t any deeper meaning. Kyuhyun wanted so bad for those words to be real, to mean something than friendship. How could Jongwoon speak those words? Why couldn't he see the effects he had on the younger? 

Gulping down his saliva, Kyuhyun forced out a chuckle and waved his hand in a ‘go away’ motion. Not wanting to look at Jongwoon in the eyes, the brown haired singer looked at the crowd of fans in the stadium, then to the many members on stage, and lastly at his mic in his hands. A mask sounded so cliche in Kyuhyun's mind and would rather just disguise his pain as a secret locked behind rusted chains and a guard dog. At least it made more sense since a mask could easily be pulled away.

For three full minutes he stood there with a plastic smile on his face. Kyuhyun’s hands were slightly shaking but he tried his best to seem calm and collected not tipping anything off. He should be used to the words ‘I love you’ coming out from his older member’s mouth. The rest of the members kept saying it to each other - just words to easily fling around - but when Jongwoon says it, it feels different even if he didn’t mean to make Kyuhyun flustered.

Kyuhyun jumped suddenly has he felt a pair of arms snake around his waist. He was about to sneer at the intruder who dared to touch him right now but those feelings vanished as he heard a deep husky chuckle echo in his ear. Kyuhyun quickly glanced back him to see the one person he dreaded. Jongwoon just had to arrive.

“Hey Kyu,” Jongwoon whispered into the younger’s ear. Kyuhyun was a bit daze from the screaming from the fangirls around them and the bubbly feeling in his stomach. He tried to ignore the warmth from Jongwoon’s body but Kyuhyun could feel the sweat and heat radiating from the older singer.

“What?”

Jongwoon chuckled again hearing a tint of irritation in the gamer’s tone. He ignored it continueing to  hug Kyuhyun closer to him like a teddy bear. He could feel Kyuhyun squirming in his grasp but Jongwoon wasn’t going to let go just yet. Maybe he needed to feel the other like some unkowing need.

“Hi,” with that single word said, Jongwoon let go of the brown haired male and ran off in a random direction with a smile gracing his lips. He jumped over a plushy and decided to make his way to two other Super Junior members.

Kyuhyun yelled at the black haired male in irritation but he couldn’t fully be angry at him. It was mere impossible for Kyuhyun keep a grudge on Super Junior’s awkward turtle. Instead he laughed out loud showing his teeth. It just felt great that Jongwoon took the time to be playful with him.

Throughout the show, Kyuhyun sang his parts of the song and was secretly keeping his eyes on the wild hyper Jongwoon. He was busy having a dance battle with Hyukjae but in the end, Hyukjae gave up because he was laughing too hard at Jongwoon’s dance moves. Kyuhyun rolled his eyes at the display but had respect for the older male for embarrassing himself. Yeah, the world was cruel but Jongwoon seemed not to care at all. It made Kyuhyun smile.

Minutes passed by as the final stage of Super Junior was done and all of them were now heading backstage to rest. Many of the members were off racing to the bathroom knocking each other down like a bunch of children in preschool.

“Hey, Kyu! Where ya goin’?” Hyukjae asked as he spotted the gamer sneaking away to the back door. The blonde dancing machine took off his shirt but still kept his eye on the younger.

Kyuhyun froze but acted calm. “Going to go out.”

Hyukjae smirked, “going to the train station so you can find your true love? Why do you always go there? Oh yeah, because of fate.” Donghae suddenly came in and hit the back of Hyukjae’s head but couldn’t help but chuckle too.

“Owe!” the dancer whined and pushed the childish member.

“Shut up.” Kyuhyun turned around giving a slight glare toward Super Junior’s dancing machine. He didn’t even wait for the older blonde to reply because Kyuhyun was already out the door making his way through the stadium's hallways.

The car door closed with a slam as Kyuhyun made it to the parking garage getting into a green Toyota. If Kyuhyun took the van, it would too obvious with fans spotting it from a mile away. Too many photographers and extremely clingy fans would crowd around the vehicle causing it to slow it done. Kyuhyun wasn’t going to take the chance of that happening.

With a quick turn of his key into the ignition, Kyuhyun carefully drove out of the underground parking lot in the unmarked vehicle. HIs eyes watched the roads carefully only staring what’s in front of him. He could hear the screeching of the fangirls and fanboys leak into his car. Just by hearing the pile of voices, Kyuhyun could visualize the crowd of banners and flashes of the cameras.  Even when one of the fans called out his name, he wasn’t even slightly distracted. He didn’t panic knowing very well he was hidding behind tinted window panes.

As the noises of the fans were growing distant, Kyuhyun could hear the soft buzzing of the the engine. He passed the many of the familiar shops and even a billboard with some of the members on it. Of course he dismissed it but still his conscious was telling the singer to look up for a quick peak.  His eyes scanned over it seeing Jongwoon with a smile gracing his face. Kyuhyun’s chest ache and drove a little faster leaving the billboard behind.

After making sharp turns and avoiding traffic, the brown haired male made it out from the city of Seoul to a familiar two story house. He parked past it, two or three blocks away. He jogged on the sidewalk going through the side gate knowing it wouldn’t be lock and Kyuhyun climbed through an open window.

“Jongwoon’s showing signs, isn’t he?” a voice called out. It came from the living room with a sound of heavy breathing.

A glare was set upon Kyuhyun features as he eyed the back of a leather chair. He stayed where he was keeping silent with his hands in his pants pocket.

“You don’t visit me. Not even once. And I’m sure this is the reason why you came, right?”

“What’s going to happen to him now,” Kyuhyun growled under his breath.

“Don’t know.”

“Why the hell don’t you know? You’re the one who did this to Jongwoon!”

“I created it. I didn’t do the rest.”

Kyuhyun, with rage, turned the leather chair over to reveal a metal device. With a knowing sneer, the singer realized his father just set him up, again. He didn’t know why he thought he was going to be there or if Kyuhyun would see his father again. All he knew was that he need answers.

Or else Jongwoon will completely shut down.