NS Yoon-G - If You Love Me (feat. Jay Park) 

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Aey so I’m asking you, do you love me?
Cause I love you

I’m saying girl cause I really need to know
Is it for real and how deep does it go
Do you love me, cause I love you
Just know that I will always be the one that you can run to
Hear it girl

I groaned loudly as my alarm, on my alarm clock, began to play whatever was on the radio.  My hand emerged out of my blanket and began to search for the alarm clock that was on my nightstand.  I searched for the radio but after a while I failed to turn it off.  I groaned again before retracting my hand to help get myself up.

“Good morning Seoul, and happy Valentine’s Day to you all!” The DJ on the radio spoke enthusiastically.  Hearing that it was another lonely Valentine’s Day by an enthusiastic person was a bad way to start off my morning.  As the DJ continued to talk, I slammed my hand down on the snooze button and slowly got out of bed. 

I headed to the bathroom to start off my morning routine but when I tried to open the door, the door was locked.  I suspected it was my younger brother, of one year, so I began to pound on the door, “Yah, twerp!  Stop hogging the bathroom!”

I heard him scoff from the inside, “Why should I?  You don’t have anyone to get ready for, unlike me.”

I felt my blood boil; this morning wasn’t going out too well.  I pounded harder on the door, “Hurry up!  Single or not I still need to get ready for school you brat!”

“Calm your flat chest!  I’ll be out in a little while!” He retorted back annoyingly.

I made a face to the door before glancing down at my chest and looking back at the door in total rage.  “Just wait until you open the door!  I’ll make sure you’ll be bedridden!”

I went across the hall to lean against the wall and waited for my turn.  In a couple of minutes he opened the door and as soon as he took a step out of the door I punched him in the gut and kneed his in the s as hard as I could.  He collapsed onto the floor with a whimper and I stepped over him.  He was in the way of the door so I kicked him out into the hallway, then with that I quickly took a shower so I could continue with my routine.

After putting on my uniform, brushing my hair, putting on simple make-up, and tying my semi-long hair into a ponytail I headed downstairs where my brother was eating his breakfast with our parents.  “Good morning, sweetie,” My mother greeted as I took a seat at my place at the dining table. 

“Morning umma, morning appa,” I greeted both my parents before I began to quickly eat my breakfast.  The four of us ate silently until I looked at the clock on the microwave and realized my brother and I were going to miss the bus to school.  I quickly put my dirty dishes into the sink and grabbed my bag that was in the living room.  “Come on Minho!” I grumbled loudly before leaving out the door to the bus stop.

As I was half way to the bus stop Minho finally caught up to me and huffed out an irritable sigh.  I looked around and I continuously saw groups of girls heading to school with their homemade chocolates that they were going to give to their crush and every once and a while I saw a couple or two.  I just let out a regular, depressed sigh; I blamed myself for being lonely on Valentine’s Day.  I mean, most girls confess on Valentine’s Day, but I was never one to confess so I always waited for some boy to confess to me first.  Especially this guy that I’ve had my eye on for a while, but I knew liking him and waiting for him to notice me, or even confess was very unrealistic.

By the time my brother and I got to school, Minho already strayed away to his friends; not that he liked to be with me anyway.  “Minki!  Minki noona!” I heard one of the familiar voices of my brother’s friend’s call out to me.  I stopped and looked at where the voice originated from.  “Hey noona~  You have any chocolates for me~?” He cooed as he held out his hand in my direction.

I plastered a fake smile onto my face and said with me mouth dripping in sarcasm, “Sadly no, but I bet your umma has a big box of chocolates just for you waiting at home to cheer you up.”  Then with that I walked away confidently.

As I walked down the hall I could already see the crowd of girls, around my homeroom, trying to get in just to give their chocolates to the most popular boys in school; who sadly have to be in my class.  I stood in the back of the crowd thinking of a way to get in.  First I thought about asking nicely, but since I had such a bad morning and I am the most hated girl in school because of my attitude I just began shoving and pulling girls out of my way.  “Move your tiny asses out of my way,” I growled until I got through.

I was mostly hated because I was bitter most of the time and all the girls in the school were girly and I was a partial tomboy; I just really like athletics more than hair and make-up. 

The girls whined and mumbled my nickname “Manly Minki”.  When I finally saw light again I looked back at the crowd of girls and glared at them with one of my death glares.  They shuddered and took a small step back before proceeding with giving their chocolates to the boys who resided in my homeroom.

As I walked to my seat in the middle of the room I couldn’t help but glance that the boys all the girls wanted: Yonghwa, Jonghyun, Minhyuk, and Jongshin.  Yonghwa, Minhyuk, and Jongshin talked with each other, while Jonghyun sat almost on the side with his arms crossed and earbuds in as he stared out the window.

  I sat down at my seat and began to take out my things I needed for class from my bag, but then when I reached into the cubby underneath my desk to retrieve a tablet, my hand felt something alien to my cubby.  I pulled it out and saw that it was an envelope with my name on the back.

“Hm?  What is this?” I examined it before deciding to open it.  After I pulled out the folded paper that was inside I began to read it and it didn’t take me long to realize it was a handwritten love letter.  I read through it and it made my heart flutter…

Dear Minki,

                        Happy Valentine’s Day, Minki.  Normally, this is a day is where the girl normally gives the boy gifts or chocolates, but in this case I couldn’t sit back and watch as I was being unrecognized.  Sorry, I wish I could confess to you in person but I am too shy at approach you and I am afraid of being rejected.  Anyways, ever since I saw you, when I first transferred to this school last year, I couldn’t help but notice you out of every else who tried to get my attention.  So, I tried to get your attention for a while, but you didn’t seem to glance my way.  Also, I see how the other girls look you for being different from them, but I think that is cool that you aren’t afraid to stand out of the crowd; you are you.  I also find that you are very bright, sensitive, and kind person; which makes you beautiful in my eyes.  I know you aren’t as bitter and aggressive as you seem, so one day I hope everyone can see your sweet side that I see every once and a while during class.  Anyways, again, Happy Valentine’s Day and I hope you accept my feelings if I can get myself to approach you by the end of the day.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

I looked up from the paper, after reading, and looked around the classroom.  From what I could tell my admirer was someone in my class and who transferred here from last year.  I recognized about five boys, who transferred to this school from last year, but one of them was terribly afraid on me after I accidentally kicked a soccer ball into his face; so, that left four choices:  Junsu, Kwangho, Sukchul, and Jonghyun. 

I looked at Jonghyun as he chatted with his friends in the back of the room and I immediately crossed him off my list; he doesn’t wasn’t the type to like me, he’s a pretty boy who likes pretty girls.  My lips pressed into a thin line as I turned as I faced to the front of the room again and looking at the letter one last time before putting it away in my bag. 

The bell rang, signaling class to start, and everyone began to take their seats and the group of girls slowly disbanded.  First period went by slowly as I took no interest in it because it was history, but when second period came that’s when I was as lively as a rabbit; it was P.E. 

Today we were running a few laps before we could play dodge ball.  Dodge ball wasn’t my favorite game to play during P.E., but it was better than tennis.  After running a few miles on the field the teacher let us take a breather before splitting us into teams for dodge ball in the basketball court.  He first counted us off and we played like that for a while until he announced our last game was going to be boys versus girls just because it was Valentine’s Day, which didn’t make sense to me.

When the teacher blew the whistle that signaled the game to start me and a few other girls raced for the balls.  I got two before quickly beaming as many boys as I could before someone decides to aim for me.  After I ran out of balls I was being aimed at by the boys so I backed away from the center of the basketball court, on high alert.  When one of them finally decided to beam me, I caught it and beamed it right back to some other boy as they were trying to get a girl. 

After a while, as always, I was the last of the girls to be on the court, there were about three boys left, and I had two balls ready to be thrown, one at my feet, and majority of the balls were on my side of the court.  I was blinded by adrenaline that I only cared about winning at this point, so I stared them down until it was time for me to beam one of them down.  Finally, one of them decided to throw their ball so I quickly dodged that but what I didn’t see coming was that one of his teammates took this time to get me when I was defenseless.  I tried my best to dodge that ball also but that ended with me hitting the ground hard, but my adrenaline was pumping so I didn’t care and quickly got up and beamed the two who threw at me, so they were out. 

The gym became silent as it was me up against the last boy, at first I didn’t care who it was because I was blinded by adrenaline and winning, but as they started to fade away I realized I was against Jonghyun.  His melancholy and serious face intimidated me as the boys and girls cheered him on.  I bit my lip as I waited for him to throw first, and luckily he did.  He threw the ball hard so when I blocked it with my ball it was knocked out of my hands, but like the same strategy as before another ball came speeding towards me out of nowhere.  The ball hit me in the head and I went tumbling to the ground, but when I fell to the ground my head hit the ground hard which cause me to loose consciousness.  Right before I out though, all I heard was everyone chanting Jonghyun’s name.

Those frickers…

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The only thing I saw was black until I opened my eyes and realized I was in the nurse’s office.  I tried moving but as soon as I did my head began to ache and I groaned as I fell against the bed.  “Oh!  You shouldn’t move so quickly,” The nurse said as she came rushing from her desk to help me back into the bed, “You have a slight concussion.” 

I shook my head slightly, “It’s okay.”  I tried to get off the bed again, but only slower, “May I please go back to class?”

The nurse looked at me nervously, “How do you feel?”

“I feel fine,” I said.

She pursed her lips as she thought about it, “Fine, I’ll write you a note.  Go to the locker room and shower, but after come back here to pick up an ice pack before going to class.”  She instructed as she went back to her desk to write me the note she said she would.

“Yes, ma’am,” I nodded and waited patiently.  She gave me the pass and I did as she told me before going back to class.

By the time I actually got back to class it was practically the end of the day; was I out that long?  When I entered the classroom I quickly gave the teacher my note before going to my seat.  After sitting down I couldn’t help but hear soft snickers around me.  I sighed and began to take out me things when I noticed drawings on my desk; they were drawings of me being knocked out in dodge ball and rude comments. 

I knew people didn’t like me, but I didn’t think they would ever resort to this.  I shook my head slowly before taking out an eraser and erasing the drawings and comments before anyone else saw.

Half an hour of class passed and it was already the end of school.  I took my time putting away my things as other people rushed out the doors as soon as possible.  One person who was in a rush bumped into my shoulder as they passed by and I think purposely hit my head.  I groaned in pain and placed my aching head on my cool desk. 

“Are you okay?” A familiar voice spoke and I looked up to see Jonghyun standing in front of my desk.  “How is your head?”  I stared at him, wondering if this was real as he continued to ask me questions.  “Do you have a concussion?  Do you feel sick?”

“I am fine,” I finally answered, “I just have a slight concussion.”

“Oh…  I hope you feel better,” He said as he scratched the back of his neck nervously.  My eyebrows pinched together as I analyzed his movements; something was up.  “Um listen…  I know I shouldn’t be doing this, but I just want to say sorry on Jungshin’s behalf, he was the one who beamed you in the face.  After you got him out, he was steaming mad,” He explained.

“It’s fine,” I shrugged as I finally got my things together and was ready to leave.  “Anyways, I have to go, bye.”  I got up and pushed in my chair, but as I was leaving Jonghyun grabbed my hand.  I turned around carefully and stared at him with wide eyes; what was happening?

“Wait, I want to tell you something,” He said as he cautiously let go of my hand.  “Well, ummm…” He diverted his eyes away from mine, “Did you read my letter?”

“Letter?” I repeated, not understanding what he was talking about, until I remembered the letter I found in my desk this morning.  “You wrote that to me?” I asked with my jaw dropped.  He nodded his head shyly.  “What―Why?”

“Didn’t I explain myself clearly in the letter?”

I nodded my head, “Yes, but…WHY ME?”

He groaned and shook his head, becoming frustrated.  “I.  Like.  You.  I don’t know if it’s too late, but will you be my Valentine?” He suddenly spat out.  My eyes widened and my jaw dropped more; I was speechless.  He took my silence as a bad sign, so he began to panic; which, I’ve never seen before besides him being cool, calm and collected.  “Well, I am not pressuring you to say yes, so I will understand your decision.”

I took a breath trying to adjust to the situation as soon as possible, “I…I…”  I started off to say but I kept choking up when I actually had to say my answer.  I took another breath as I looked at the ground and back up at him as the corners of my mouth slowly hitched up, “Sure, I’ll be your Valentine.”

He smiled back, as he kept his excitement in, and his shoulder that rose from the tension, relaxed from the relief.  He stuck his hands into his pockets and began to nervously fiddle with the floor with his foot.  “So, um…you want to go out tonight?”

“Go out…?  Tonight…?” I asked, shock; it was my first time being asked out.  “Sure…”  He slightly rejoiced before asking me about where I lived and getting my number.  “What are we going to do?” I asked curiously. 

“Don’t worry about it, just dress nice and warm,” He suggested. 

I nodded my head, “Sure…”  It became awkwardly quiet between us until I began to eye the door, “Well, I think the sooner I get home the faster we can see each other again…?”  I pointed at the door while slowly walking towards it.

He slightly jumped and went by my side, “Sure, I’ll walk you out.”  We walked side by side in silence until we reached outside, where Minho was waiting. 

He tapped his foot irritably until I notice him take a double take my way, “Noona!”  I cringed from hearing him call me that; he never calls me noona unless in front of people he wants to make a good impression on.  “Noona, where have you been?  I’ve been waiting for you,” He said with almost an angelic voice. 

I stomped on his foot and he held in his yelp.  “Save the act,” I whispered to him as I then looked at Jonghyun and bowing, “Well, I’ll see you soon.”  I then dragged my brother away before I received my good-bye from him.  I admit it was rude but I didn’t want Minho to bring out my bad side in front of him. 

All along the way home Minho bothered me with questions about Jonghyun, but instead of yelling at him to leave me alone, I ignored him.  When we got home, Minho had enough of me ignoring him, so he grabbed my shoulder and whipped me around to face him, “Why were you with Jonghyun?”

I glared at him, but my mind was elsewhere so I couldn’t think of a good enough comeback, “Why weren’t you?”

Minho looked at me weirdly because of my weak comeback, “Never mind…”  He yawned from exhaustion and walked away to his room.

I slowly became my normal self again, “…Idiot.” I then headed up to my room and tried my best to look my best for the date.

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“Minki, your date is here!” My mother called out to me.  I looked down to the drive way where I saw a motorcycle parked.  He drives a motorcycle…?

Before heading to the living room where I expected him to be with my family, I checked myself in the mirror.  I wore a red long sleeve off the shoulder top, white jeans, black high heel boots, and a black scarf.  I put my hair up into a high pony, and then quickly smiling at myself before heading to the living room. 

When I entered the living room everyone was seated on the couch, looked at me.  Jonghyun quickly stood up, “Hi Minki.” 

“Hi Jonhyun,” I waved, “You’ve met my parents?” He nodded and my mother and father quickly stood up.

“Yes, they are very nice,” He commented.

My mother came up to me and began to whisper in my ear, “He is such a handsome and polite young man; be nice.”

I nodded my head, “Yes umma.”  I looked at Jonghyun, who was getting a parental talk by my father.  “Jonghyun, let’s get going,” I suggested as I headed to the door.

He nodded, “Sure, have a good night Mr. and Mrs. Park.” 

“You too,” My father waved, “Have her back by 10:30.”

Jonghyun smiled, “I will.”  He then held the door open for me and we both exited.  We walked quietly to his motorcycle.  “Have you ever ridden a motorcycle before?”  I shook my head nervously.  “Are you scared?” He asked curiously.

“I have never ridden one before, so I am a little,” I admitted. 

He smoothly got on and smiled, “Don’t worry just hold on tight.”  He held out his hand and I slowly go on.  He put a helmet on my head then on his, before he started up the motorcycle.  It made a loud roar before we both began to move.  I clung onto his midsection and held in my screams as he sped out of the driveway and onto the road.

He took me to a carnival that was in town temporarily.  We went on many scary yet fun rides, ate a lot of foods that we could only get at the carnival, and played many games.  At one of the games I had my eye on a teddy bear, he saw me eyeing it, and so he won it for me. 

The night was coming to an end as we just began to walk around.  He let out a sigh as he looked at me, “This was a fun date.”  He stuffed his hands into his pockets and playfully bumped me.

I nodded my head as I giggled, “Mhm.  Thank you for taking me out.”

“It’s, no problem.  Maybe we can go out again?”

I stopped and looked up at him.  I made his nervously wait for my answer as I had a blank expression on my face.  A smile appeared, “We should; I’ll pick it next time.”  He sighed in relief and put an arm around my shoulders as we began to walk again.

“You have to stop doing that to me,” He chuckled.

I looked at him questionably, “Doing what?”

“Making me wait anxiously for an answer; it feels like I am going to die.”

Then stop making me feel so vulnerable…so different…so warm on the inside.  “Hm…  Maybe, it’s sort of fun,” I said teasingly.

“Aish…  You…” he jerked me closer to him and I laughed.  We walked for a while until he stopped something that caught his eye.  “Let’s go in there for a little,” He pointed at a mirror house.

I shrugged, “Sure.”  He then took my hand and pulled me in.  We walked through it laughing at how we looked in the distorted mirrors. 

We laughed until we came to a normal mirror, which we calmed down at.  I looked at myself with Jonghyun behind me, who wrapped his arms around my shoulders.  Even though it was only our first date it didn’t feel like one as we were very friendly with one another. 

We just stood there admiring ourselves until he cleared his throat and looked me in the eyes through the mirror.  “I know this is a little weird, but I only thought about this now…” He said but then trailed off, “Before I asked you out today, did you like someone before me?  Were you disappointed at your admirer was me?”

I nodded my head, “I did like someone, and I still do.”  He took in a sharp breath and became tense; probably wondering why I would agree to a second date if I like someone else.  “But, it was you all the time,” I told him and he looked at me shocked.

“Really?  For how long?”

I shrugged, “I don’t really know; for a while…?”  He shook his head and chuckled because I made him anxious again.  I continued to look into the mirror until my eyes lay upon the teddy bear in my hands.  “I am sorry I didn’t get you a gift,” I look down at the ground a little ashamed.  It’s Valentine’s Day and the girls normally get the boys things…

“Don’t be, besides I am the one who asked you out and…” He lifted my chin up so I was looking in the mirror again.  He then blushed and shyly smiled as he said, “No gift could ever compare to you.”  Then all of a sudden his shy side went away and his mischievous side came out and he turned me towards a distorted mirror that made my head look big.  “You and your big head is the best gift of all,” He held in his laughter.

I hit his chest, “Yah!  Not funny!”  I felt embarrassed, but I laughed myself also.

“Then we are you laughing too?” He poked my cheek.

“Shut up…” I grumbled as I then buried my face into his chest…

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Jonghyun gave me a handwritten love letter and as he blushed and shyly smiled he said, “No gift could ever compare to you.”

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Written by:  808_Appler

Sorry we haven't been updating >.<  But I hope you like this one shot with Jonghyun from CN BLUE.  For the whole month of February I've been really into CN BLUE so when Valentine's Day came around I just wanted to do a Jonghyun one shot.  Also sorry it is really late for Valentines Day.