Main Characters: Kim Ye Rim, Kim Myungsoo, Suzy, Dae Yoon

Song: Lyn -- Love, It's All Lies  

Author's Note: Hello dear readers! I hope that this entry inspires you to finally enter in some requests. Actually, I wrote this for a really good friend of mine. She's done so many things for me that I can't thank her enough for. No matter what, she's there for me, and I seriously look up to her. I don't know where I would have been without having met her. Anyways, one time a while back, she bought me something with the request that I wrote a story of any kind that had L/Myungsoo crying in detail to pay her back. Do you know how hard that was for me? xD To tell you the truth, this was my first sad story I've written in a while. Yes, my other stories have elements of sadness, but I've never written one like this...ever. xD Soooooooooooooo, here's for gaining experience! :D 

어니한테 감사합니다~ 명수눈물이 아주 좋아해요? ㅋㅋㅋ <3 사랑해요 제 언니~ ^__^

Oh! Please note that in this entry, I didn't make Suzy that great of a character. I apologize to Suzy fans. I needed a couple pairing for Myungsoo, and the first two I came up with were Krystal and Myungsoo and Suzy and Myungsoo. I really like Krystal...and I didn't think that she would go too well with the character, so I chose Suzy. And I was thinking of having Ye Rim actually be an Original Character before my friend stated that she liked Myungsoo and Ye Rim. Personally, I really like her myself. She's sweet, and from what I saw of her acting in Shut Up Flower Boy Band and from what I've heard of her singing, she's quite talented if I do say so myself. To there you have it! :D 

To the Sky Is The Limit Writing Contest:

Thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to come read this. I really hope that this entry meets your expectations. I worked really hard for not only my friend's sake, but also for the contest's sake. So my wish is that this is at least a slight bit entertaining and that you feel satisfied when reading this. If not, then please tell me what I'm missing so that I can do better next time. Thank you~ 사랑해~ ^__________^

If you're another writer from the contest, or the person coming to look upon entries of the contest, please read this with care. If you see anything amiss, please let me know. If you want me to do the same for your story/stories, I will gladly do the same. :) If you need me to, I will also come to support you~ Hwaiting to the fellow writers~ ^______^ 

Take care everyone and enjoy this first entry~ ^______^

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            “I missed this…I missed the three of us hanging out like we used to,” the voice of one of my closest friends sounded as he leaned back into a stretch. Looking back and forth between the two that accompanied me around a small table in the nook of one of our favorite coffee shops, I smiled warmly and tightened my grip on the cup of coffee before me.

                “What? You don’t like Suzy hanging around us?” the other questioned, staring at the one who had spoken first in accusation. My smile stilling, I looked back down, not ready to even think about the other person that had joined our trio merely a year ago.

                “Come on, you know that’s not it, but…” It’s not the same with her around, I finished for him, a small pinprick of pain forming in my chest.

                “But what?” the offended one demanded.

                “Myungsoo, Dae Yoon, enough,” I whispered. “Hurry and drink your coffee,” I added as I brought my own cup to my lips. Dae Yoon gave Myungsoo a disgusted look before picking up his mocha and gulping it down. Turning my gaze upon the other, my heart stilled as I watched him casually pick up the paper cup and bring it to his lips. Realizing that I had forgotten to breathe as I watched him swirl his Americano inside his mouth before swallowing, I blushed and gasped for air.

                “Are you okay?” Myungsoo inquired, setting down his cup. Glancing off to the side, not daring to look at either of my friends, I remained silent. This morning when I had learned that it was just going to be the three of us hanging out like the old times, I decided that today would be the day when I finally confessed the feelings that I had bottled up for close to three years now. Thinking that I should try to let them out sooner than later, I slowly swallowed and kept my eyes glued to white lid of my coffee cup.

                “Actually, I…” I started, looking up to see his small but round eyes intently staring at me. All of the courage that I had built up faded in an instant, and I decided that it was in fact not the right time. “I’m fine,” I concluded, berating myself for not uttering the words that I desperately wanted him to know.

                “Okay, well, the reason I really wanted just the three of us to hang out today was because I needed to tell you something,” he responded, his voice growing serious. Secretly wishing that I really did tell him, I continued to stare at him as he spoke, not fully listening to every word he said. The moment he took a deep breath and let it out, I breathed in, mainly focused on the scenarios that could have happened if I really did tell him my feelings. “Guys, I like Suzy,” he stated, finally catching my attention.

                “What?” I blurted. Stunned, I abruptly sat forward, forgetting about the cup of coffee in my hands. In result, the cup tipped over and spilled all over the table and my fingers. Feeling the burn of the scalding hot coffee on my skin along with the ache in my heart as the words that my friend had uttered settled upon me, I shot up and ran to the bathroom, tears threatening to spill. Once there, I the cold water and stared at the reflection in the mirror. For so long I chose not to tell him. Even when there was a point in time when he hinted at his feelings towards me, I refused not to tell him. I blamed it on not having enough courage, but it truly was a decision that my mind had made, because I was afraid of the possible outcomes. And due to this fear, I stood there and regretted the fact that I decided not to listen to my heart once more.

~*~*~*~*

                “Come on, Ye Rim-ah, you’re seriously bringing me down here. It’s almost Christmas, why are you being so sullen?” Dae Yoon whined as we strolled along one of Seoul’s famous market places, trying to find the perfect presents for those closest to us. Bitter cold air swirled about us, forcing me to clench my teeth and hold my breath until the condition of the weather became a bit more bearable.

                “Why do you think I’m sullen?” I muttered through gritted teeth. Just the night before, the event that I feared for the most had occurred. Dae Yoon, Myungsoo, and Suzy gathered at my house to snack on the extra sweets that my grandmother had left over from our day of cooking. I had been sitting with my aching feet propped up as I idly flipped through a book, not daring to bother with Myungsoo’s and Dae Yoon’s crazy antics and Suzy’s constant cry for attention. Before Suzy joined our group, I was sure to give just as much trouble. But that wasn’t the case now. Instead, I voluntarily stepped away and pretended to be the mature one as they wreaked havoc wherever they went.

                When I finally found something interesting on one of the pages in the book, a slender hand slammed onto it, forcing me to jump in shock. From my reaction, a fit of laughter burst from the owner of the hand’s mouth. Although there wasn’t much wrong with Suzy’s laugh, it always pricked at my essence just like every other action of hers. Especially after the news that had leaked from Myungsoo’s mouth, intense chills ran down my spine whenever I was in her presence. Taking a deep breath, I looked up at her and waited until she spoke. With that, she earnestly asked if I liked Myungsoo. Not sure how she knew of such a thing since I sincerely believed that my feelings for him were subtle—even Dae Yoon had no clue after so many years—I denied. Upon such a denial, the girl brightened, declared that I did and left me alone. In a matter of seconds, she and Myungsoo disappeared for the night only to announce to us the next morning that they were together.

                “Ye Rim!” Dae Yoon yelled, startling me out of the stupor that I was falling into. “I said it’s because of Myungsoo and Suzy, isn’t it?” he repeated as I stared at him blankly. Twisting my lips oddly, I looked away. “Okay, I understand that you’ve never liked Suzy—I never did either—but we knew that Myungsoo really liked her, didn’t we? It was obvious ever since he pleaded with us to let her join our group. It was a matter of time before they ended up together. So, we need to give them our blessing,” he stated, placing his hands onto my shoulders so that I could only look at him.

                “But…” I started only trail off with the thought that it was so hard to entrust Myungsoo to Suzy. She didn’t—couldn’t care for him as much as I did. No one did.

                “But what?”

                “Nothing,” I muttered, looking away as I felt as if my heart was tearing into a million pieces. When Dae Yoon continued to stare at me, obviously waiting for my answer, I sighed. “Fine, I’ll give them my blessing, but if Suzy hurts him in any way at any point in time, I will take it back in an instant,” I muttered. Truthfully, I wanted to selfishly run to Myungsoo and say that he shouldn’t be with her. That he should call of the relationship before he grew too attached. I wanted to declare my love for him and say that I just couldn’t handle it. But, I knew that he wouldn’t be able to accept that, and I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I did such a thing. If he really was going to be happy from this choice of his, then I would step back and let their relationship flourish for his sake. It was the least I could do. As long as my dear friend benefited from this, then I would do my best to move on.

                “Okay, good. I’ll do the same!” Dae Yoon smiled and ruffled my hair. “Ah! Look! It’s your favorite store, isn’t it?” he cried, pointing to the building that was indeed my favorite. “Let’s go in, okay?” he pressed while inching us closer. Sometimes I wondered if he secretly knew of my feelings, for whenever things were growing too touchy for me he would somehow change the subject as soon as he possibly could and do his best to change the focus of my thoughts.

                “Alright, let’s go,” I quietly responded and let my friend continue to pull me to the store where we would finally begin our Christmas shopping. Setting foot inside out of the cold, I decided that this was going to be a new beginning. I would do my best not to let thoughts of Myungsoo occupy my mind as much as they used to in the past.

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                “Why were you with her?” a scream erupted from the next room. Grimacing, I curled up on the couch next to Dae Yoon who tightly held onto my hand. “I waited for two hours, Myungsoo. Two hours! Yet you were out with Ye Rim and Dae Yoon!”

                “Suzy...it was the anniversary of—”

                “No, I don’t care if her father died five or however many years ago. I explicitly told you that today was my only free day in a while,” Suzy yelled, cutting him off. A tear slipping down my cheek, I laid my head on Dae Yoon’s shoulder. “You don’t care about me, do you?”

                “Suzy! Please! You know that’s not true,” Myungsoo pleaded. Although the two have been dating for two years, Suzy remained insecure when it came to him hanging around me. They constantly fought, and more times than not, I was the cause of their fight. Because of this, I was slowly stepping further and further away from my friendship with Myungsoo so that I wouldn’t be the cause of their break up. Biting my lip, I closed my eyes and waited for their fight to be over. It wasn’t long before the door opened and Myungsoo walked out with his head down. “Ye Rim…can we talk?” he quietly stated, pain leaking through his voice. Eyes snapping open, I looked at Dae Yoon before reluctantly standing up. Without even looking at me, my friend his heel and led his way outside of the apartment that belonged to Dae Yoon only to stop in the hallway around the corner.

                “I’m sorry for asking you to come out with Dae Yoon and me today,” I whispered although I wasn’t sorry at all. In fact, if he wasn’t there to help me through the day, I wouldn’t have known how to deal. With my grandmother in a nursing home, it was harder for me to make it to my father’s grave.

               “It’s alright,” he coldly stated, not turning to look at me. When he settled into silence, my stomach twisted painfully.

                “I’m sorry for always being the cause of your fights with Suzy.”

                “It’s alright,” he shortly replied.

                “What did you need to speak with me about?” I whispered, not wanting to hear his reply. Clenching my fists, I stared at his back, watching his shoulders move up and down as he breathed. Growing tired of the silence, I stepped forward and put my hand his shoulder. “Myungsoo…” I whispered.

                “I can’t be friends with you any longer. It’s making Suzy nervous, and it’s causing more fights with her than I’ve ever wanted,” he replied, his body growing stiff from my touch. At once, numbness spread from my fingertips where I touched him all the way through my body, lastly encasing my heart. The one that constantly searched for compassion and reassurance of love from his friends was now becoming a cold monster that was shoving away the ones who cared for him the most because of one girl. Biting my lip, I rapidly pulled my hand away from him as if I was burned.

                “T-that’s alright…” I managed to say, my hands shaking. “I-I’m….sorry…” I whispered. Not sure what to do, I turned around to find my way out of the apartment complex. However, I turned the wrong way. Tears beginning to form, I turned back, ducked my head and rushed towards the right direction. Upon passing the place where Myungsoo continued to stand, I stopped when I saw him staring at me finally, his eyes red and watery. “I-I turned the wrong way,” I choked out and dashed forward, not even daring to say goodbye. Once in the elevator, the tears racked through my body and I was finally able to feel my heart breaking. When I met Dae Yoon and Myungsoo while I was in kindergarten, I never would have expected that I would fall in love with one of them, not to mention did I expect that I would be pushed away from him for just being his friend. If I had known, I would have done my best to stay away from them as much as I possibly could, no matter what.

~*~*~*~*~

                “It’s Christmas Eve Day!” Dae Yoon yelled in excitement as he burst into my house. Wondering how he knew the code to my door, I bent my head to the counter, my messy hair falling in a curtain around me. Just the night before, I received an unexpected and an unwanted visitor at a god awful hour of the night. This visitor complained that her relationship with Myungsoo was falling apart even more with me gone, and she pleaded with me to forgive him. However, I told her that I wouldn’t go near the two while they were together so that I wouldn’t be able to mess up their relationship any longer. In the end, I barely go any sleep. “Come on! Let’s go celebrate!”

                “We have all day to celebrate...actually, shouldn’t the celebration be tomorrow…on Christmas?” I croaked.

                “So what? Let’s go out for breakfast then!”

                “Calm down, Dae Yoon-ah. We’ll celebrate soon enough,” I sighed picking myself up off of the bar stool. “Did you get a visit from Suzy too?” I questioned as I crossed the small apartment to slump on my couch.

                “Suzy? I thought you didn’t want to talk about her?” he questioned only to stop to think about what I said. “Wait, she visited you?” he asked when he finally joined me on the couch.

                “Yes…I think I might have said something stupid,” I sighed.

                “What did you say?”

                “She said that she wanted me to become friends with Myungsoo again,” I started, looking down. “But I said that I wouldn’t see either of them while they’re together.”

                “So you want them to break up?”

                “No! I mean, yes. I mean, I would like my friend back…”

                “Well, our friend called me last night. He asked what your new address was, and I decided to tell him,” he awkwardly responded.

                “You told him?” I demanded, my eyes growing wide.

                “Yes.”

                “Why?”

                “I got it!” my friend yelled awkwardly. Blinking in confusion, I waited until he answered me. “Let’s have a Christmas movie marathon!” he exclaimed, trying to change the subject to the best of his ability.

                “Dae Yoon—”

                “No, Ye Rim-ah, stop. Let’s just watch a movie, okay? It’s of no use to make you think about them,” he demanded. Frowning, I complied and let him set up the TV for our marathon. In the middle of our second movie, the doorbell rang. Jumping, I looked at my friend before quickly tying up my hair and moving to answer it. As I opened the door, a drunken Myungsoo stumble past me. Stunned to see him in my apartment—let alone in my presence—in such a long time, I watched as he stopped and turned to face me.

                “You’re drunk,” I stupidly blurted. “In the middle of the day?”

               “Hyung? What are you doing here?” Dae Yoon asked as he got off of the couch to see who was there, also surprised to see Myungsoo standing before me. Right as Dae Yoon reached Myungsoo’s side, the drunken man’s legs gave out.

               “Is…is it true?” the drunken one mumbled looking at me from Dae Yoon’s arms. “Ye Rim-ah…d-do you…” he started only to have his words jumble together in an incoherent mess.

               “Do I what?” I whispered, not understanding. Just like that, he broke out into an awkward laughter.

               “You can’t like me, right?” he mumbled through his chuckles. It took me a second before his words finally dawned on me. Heart stopping altogether, my mind raced for many excuses and denials.

               “You really do like Myungsoo?” Dae Yoon blurted as if he had been assuming that I did, but wasn’t fully sure until now. Ever since the day he and Suzy started to date, I had tried so hard to forget my feelings for him. What was the meaning of them finding out now, when I was so used to tucking it away? “For how long?” he inquired, making my mouth run dry.

                “F-five years now?” I choked out.

                 “Years?” he repeated in shock. Gulping, I slowly nodded and chills spread over my entire body. How would Myungsoo take this? Looking him, I noticed that he was staring at me with such sad eyes.

                “How did you find out?” I questioned, continuing to stare straight at Myungsoo, my heart racing. From his slurred words, the only one I could make out was the one name that I couldn’t stand…Suzy. Blood running cold, I let my legs give out, and I fell hard onto the floor. She told him about my feelings? Before I could even utter a word about them? Was that even fair? Tears threatened to spill from the thought of her forever ruining the chance to tell him when the time was right.

               Looking back up at my two friends, I watched as Myungsoo had settled into his own little world, whispering Suzy’s name over and over. Each time her name escaped his lips, his face scrunched up even further in pain. His brows knit together and his eyes watered for a second before tears spilled out of the corners one by one. Before a breath could be taken, the slip of tear drops down his cheeks grew to be a messy down pour. The corners of his beautiful mouth that was only meant to smile turned upside down and his chin quivered pathetically, indicating in the slightest the pain that he was feeling in his heart which couldn’t be numbed by the alcohol he had consumed. Still unable to breath, my nose stung and my eyes threatened to water as Dae Yoon carefully inched Myungsoo to join me on the floor. The moment our drunken friend let the sound of his heart tearing to pieces, I took a deep breath and tears spilled down my own cheeks.

               “It was all lies,” he sobbed and bent over so that he could cry out the pain he was enduring. At that, I too began to let out my own pain from suppressing my feelings for so long and Dae Yoon moved over to wrap me in his arms, tears spilling down his own cheeks as well.

               Truthfully, Myungsoo chose the path he walked on. He chose to be with a girl that only hurt him time and time again when he used to be the sort that only looked for those who gave him the love he needed. And I was no better. I chose to never tell him of my feelings. I chose to never change our friendship into something more, and because of that I suffered. However, with such painful experiences, it’s better to learn from them than to regret. I am almost positive that Myungsoo will find someone who cherishes him. And I’ll learn to express my feelings, because I can’t just keep secretly chasing clouds. Maybe once that happens, our future Christmases will be better.