I couldn't sleep that night as usual.Everything just doesn't make sense.Why is she avoiding me

like I'm some sort of insect?Does she hate me?I'm not quiet sure myself.I don't get it at all.She's

hiding something that she doesn't want me to know.But what is it?I don't know.Why can't she

just tell me and get over with it?Is it that hard?Ist it something really important?.I know we just

met,but doesn't she understand the kind of guy I am?I would never do anything to hurt her.If she

doesn't know that,I have to prove it to her.I get anxious when I can't see her and seeing the

situation,I don't think I'm gonna have the chance to talk to her anytime soon.This .

The next day,I tried finding her during recess but she was nowhere to be found.Where could she

be?I asked one of her classmates and turns out,she didn't even came to school today.They said

she's not coming to school for at least a week.But what was the reason?They don't know either.I

don't care,but I need to find out what was her big secret.I have to know.After school, I decided to

go to the one place she knew.The orphanage.When I reached there,I couldn't believe my

eyes.There was a sign saying that the place was for sale.I quickly went inside and peeked into

the window.No one was around.What happened to the kids and miss seungyun?.No way.Why did

Lizzy nver told me about this?or maybe she doesn't know a thing about this?But how?.And there

I was.Confused and shocked.I hate to be in this state.It not only ,but really hurts.As I

walked and have no idea where I'm heading,I stopped when I saw a familiar girl sitting on a swing

set at a kids playground.I quickly checked and no doubt.It was Lizzy.I ran to her."Hi" I said not

knowing if thats what I should have said."Mir.....what are you doing here" she said while getting

up from the swing.I can see from her red eyes that she had been crying."Are you okay?

Please..let me help you!" I told her finally."I don't need help!" she said while taking a step back

from me."Why are you avoiding me?!" I said in anger and took a step forward.I knew everyone

was looking.But it didn't bothered me."Leave me alone!" she shouted and ran away.I chased

after her and finally grabbed her right arm and spun her around."I know we haven't know each

other that well and maybe your having a hard time trusting people.But please,I will never hurt

you.The truth is...I don't know what the truth is! Everything is out of place!Your keeping secrets

from me!Avoiding me!Why?Did I ever do you wrong?!Please tell me what's wrong!Don't leave

me like this!" I said in a heart crushing tone.She started crying.I let go of her arm."This has

nothing to do with you mir.."she forced herself to say while holding back tears."Of course it

does!We're friends and that means I'm in your life!I'm involved now so I have the right to ask you

what's wrong!" I shouted trying to control my emotion."This is a mistake" she said while wiping

her tears with her sleeve."Mistake?your saying it was a mistake that I'm friends with you in the

first place?Why?why is it a mistake?why is it a mistake Lizzy?!!TELL ME WHYYY!!"I shouted in a

pathetic voice and the next thing I know,I was crying like there was no tomorrow."I'm sorry to

have made you a part of my life.This is why I didn't want close friends"she said  with a voice so

soft,you can barely hear."Just tell me what is it that your hiding." I said still wanting an

answer."It's not as easy as you think,Mir.I love you and I don't want you to be hurt like that." she

said in an angelic voice."Your so stubborn,Lizzy." I said while looking at her."You want to know

soo badly right?okay I'll tell you." she said in a much more confident voice which I can tell is

fake.I waited for her answer."I'm dying,Mir" she said in a weak voice."No your not" I answered

too quickly.I was soo afraid of what she is going to say next."Come closer" she said.I did as she

told and she took my right hand and place it under her shirt.What was she doing?I thought.And

that's where my life took the most emotional turn.She didn't have anything at all.I could feel extra

cloths under her shirt to make her seem like any normal girl in highschool.She didn't need to tell

me what's next.She had cancer.I quickly pulled my hand away from her shirt and I couldn't

bear to see her face."Now you know why!" she shouted in fear."I'm ugly am I?I'm abnormal and

no boy would ever want to be with a girl like me!You are one of them!It's okay,I'm expecting this

anyway.I'm ugly!!" she shouted while crying and still trying to catch her breath.I was still so

shocked that I froze there.But somehow,I took her in my arms and let her cry on my chest.My

beautiful Lizzy is dying and theres nothing I could do about it.yea I had seen people around me

die like my grandparents.But I barely even knew them and I was practically under 5 when it happened.But someone who I cared for so much and I already fell madly in love with is gonna

leave me anytime soon?Thats too much too handle for a guy like me.Suddenly,my future

seemed sooo fuzzy and unclear,like a television with bad reception.That night was the first night

I ever prayed to God while crying in a scared manner."Dear God,I love her too much,please don't

take her away from me.If You do,take me with her too!" I shouted while fighting back tears that

couldn't be fought.When your about to lose the one you love,you don't matter anymore.That

person matters to you much more than yourself.