“HYUNG!!!!” minhyuk, jungshin and jonghyun just woke up and got shocked when they saw Yonghwa sleeping on the couch in their living room. Blinking twice, when Yonghwa didn’t disappear they ran to his direction and hugged him tight.

“Yah!! I just fell asleep! Aish!” Yonghwa jokingly said

“I miss you hyung!!” minhyuk said

“Na do! I miss you guys! Now now, prepare my breakfast palli!”

Then the boys rushed to the kitchen and happily prepared breakfast for the four of them. While waiting Yonghwa decided to take a bath first, but when he entered his room it filled him with longing. They used to cuddle there in his bed, running around the dorm, preparing foods together and playing instruments. Seo Joo Hyun I’ll see you soon my Angel. He sighed, tiredness because of his long flight creeps thru him. After a warm shower Jungshin called him already and they ate in the living room, Minhyuk opened the TV while Jonghyun are serving him rice

“uwaah! I feel like a king. Quick my servants give me food! Mwahaha!” He jokingly said, seeing his dongsaengs after 5 months made him really happy

But then his smile died, seeing a familiar figure in the TV screen. Seo Joo Hyun

His eyes widen, froze on his spot. Jungshin followed his gaze and saw Seohyun’s new CF. He looked at Minhyuk and Jonghyun who’s also looking at their Yonghwa hyung worriedly

“Hyung! Here! Eat more” jungshin put some kimchi on his bowl

“So, how’s New York hyung?” Minhyuk asked hurriedly, thinking of how to shift his attention quickly

“Well it’s good! A good place actually” but they heard a hint of bitterness in Yonghwa’s tone

“How’s Shinhye?” asked Jonghyun, looks like he already know

“That Liar! I can’t forgive her anymore!” He put down his chopsticks, and balled his fist

“What happened?” asked Jungshin curiously

“She doesn’t have Leukemia! She lied!” seeing their hyung in anger, they’ve decided to change the topic again

“What the! How can she do that?!” Jungshin angrily said, she made Yonghwa suffer because of her selfishness?! The gut of that woman!

“By the way” Yonghwa started “Heard Seohyun’s gonna have a fashion show tomorrow. Are you guys coming?”

Jonghyun who’s drinking his juice choked and got his clothes wet. He stood up and excused his self, which left the two maknae’s. Minhyuk’s phone rang and also excused his self. Jungshin who’s staring wide-eyed at him, beads of sweat in his forehead, and fidgeting in his seat pleading for the two to comeback quickly.

“a-are you c-coming hyung?” he tensely asked

“And now presenting, one of the hottest model in Korea! Ms. Bella Erin!” Jung Yong Hwa stared wide-eye at the stage, his palm begins to sweat and cold, his heart is beating faster like it’ll explode anytime soon.

“Hyung breath!” Jungshin, minhyuk and jonghyun kept on staring at him, they never saw him this nervous, and they really need to look after him up until later fearing something might happen

Then the music started playing and then the spot light turned to the one familiar figure standing at the end of the stage, until little by little the stage lit up. Staring at her beautiful small face make him want to run to her and hug her but that can wait later. Seeing her, wearing an almost transparent dress made him want to cover her with his jacket, those luscious red lips and smokey eyes, the figure on the stage screams perfection.

 He’s palms are sweating, lips are dry and his heart won’t calm down. He’s in the backstage waiting for his Angel. But then Jonghyun, Minhyuk and Jungshin are irritatingly the hell out of him. They’ve been looking at him since they arrived at the event, checking on him like every minute, giving him unknown glances, and when they’re walking near the backstage it seems like they want to sabotage this plan on surprising her. They look so nervous, looking at each other like they all have the same topic in their mind, and they look...

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“OPPA!!” He froze on his spot, hearing her sweet and angelic voice again give him this feeling of longing. He turned around, readying his self for welcoming her in his arms but the following scenes in front of him makes him want to explode, giving him mixed feelings

“My Seohyun-ah!” that voice sounds familiar

He looked at the man who called her that, only to found out that he’s no other than Jung Yunho. The almighty pretending best-friend, he feels like punching him there. Especially when seohyun ran to him and hugged him tight, caressing her hair and smelling it, then he kissed her on the cheeks. That did it, he’ll wring his head off him! He’s about to give him a quick punch but he felt some strong arms stopping him from behind

“Get your hands off me!!” Yonghwa shouted. That’s when Seohyun and Yunho looked at their direction. But Seohyun’s expression shocked the hell out of him; it’s empty. Then she disentangled her hands to yunho and walked closer to them.

“Jonghyun Oppa is something wrong?” She asked jonghyun worriedly

How come you won’t talk to me?! He keeps on staring at her. Waiting for her attention

“Well seohyun this is”

“Let’s go Seohyun-ah! You need to rest” Yunho cut Jonghyun midsentence. Yunho pulls her lightly and caressed her cheeks

Minhyuk saw Yonghwa clenched his jaw, he balled his fist ready to attack, and then what pains them is Yonghwa’s expression. Anger, Frustration, Disappointment, Sadness, and Pain name it all. They tightened their grip on Yonghwa.

“Hyung let’s go home. We’ll explain everything later we promise” Minhyuk whispered to him. Willing to do anything just to calm him down, but Yonghwa can’t even hear him. The way he looked at seohyun now, it’s like talking to her silently, pleading, begging. But seohyun is only giving him that do-I-know-you look. Probably she’s thinking that Yonghwa hyung is one of her crazy fanboys.

“Hyun” his voice croaked. Seohyun looked at him quickly when she heard him call her that nickname

But it seems like God have given him such a huge problem he can’t face. Hearing her next words made him fell on his knees

“Who are you?” his eyes widen, He lost all his strength, his staring at her, disbelieving what he heard,

Those words didn’t come out from right? She didn’t say it right?

“Hyun” he tried again, he can feel his heart. She’s squeezing it too tightly he can’t breath

“Oppa who is He?” Seohyun looked at Yunho then back at him

“Let’s get you home seohyun-ah. Omoni called me, she cooked us dinner” Yunho changed the topic quickly, then he turned her around and linked his hands thru hers, and they walked away without sparing them another glance.

“Hyung get up. They’re looking at us. Let’s go” Jungshin said pleading him

“Hyung promise we’ll tell everything to you when we get back home” Minhyuk who’s not used seeing his use in this condition hurts him too

“Want to buy some beer before we go home?” was what Jonghyun said, It’s the only way they can help him decrease the pain in his heart

Seeing him right now, tears starting to build up at the side of his eyes, down on bended knees, staring at the place where seohyun and yunho walked out, gripping Jonghyun’s other arm tightly, tho it pain Jonghyun a lot he let his hyung do that to him this time, [maybe in another circumstances he might punch his hyung jokingly for doing that to him] but now he needs them.

They lifted him up from the ground and drove back home, but stopped to a mini-mart to buy alcohols first. While they’re on their way they keep glancing on his side, but then it’s like seeing a soul-less man. Looks like Seohyun brought along with her his heart and soul when she walked out with Yunho few minutes ago.

“Hyung” Minhyuk said, looking at him, waiting for his response. But then, He didn’t answer him. He just keep on looking outside, looking at the sky, asking God what happened, asking God what could he have done wrong to receive a punishment like this.

They didn’t know he’s crying silently. He just can’t stop the tears from falling. He’s heart is breaking into pieces, and it feels empty. Seohyun’s words keeps on repeating in his mind. Those short but hurtful words

When they arrived on their dorm, he sat on their sofa lifelessly. Staring blankly

“Here hyung” Jonghyun gave him beer. Yonghwa accepted it and drank it in one shot

“Woah hyung take it easy” Jungshin who was shocked seeing his hyung drink like that

“Let him” said Jonghyun

“But” Minhyuk was about to reason out but stopped when Jonghyun gave him a deadly glare

Seeing Yonghwa hyung like that scared them, he’s just drinking one beer in one shot but then he’s not saying anything other than “more beer”. They’ll understand if he cry but no, he’s staring blankly at a certain place, then closing his eyes for a while and breathing hard then opening his eyes again and drinking the strong beer in one shot. And now he currently finish the 10 can of strong beers already. Both Minhyuk and Jungshin are not taking their eyes of their Yonghwa hyung fearing he might do something stupid.

He’s feeling the alcohol in his system already. It feels like his head is flying, his vision is blurring and spinning. But his heart can still feel

Flashback

“Oppa! I told you not to drink alcohol! You know it can harm you!!” seohyun crossed her arms, threw him a deathly glare, nose flaring, lips pouting. She’s too cute he wants to cuddle her

 “I just got one shot of tequila that’s all! I’m totally okay hyun. No more for me. I promise!” He said

“Look I can still walk straight” Then he walked straight and looked at her. She sighed in defeat

“But oppa promise me you won’t drink alcohol if it’s not needed ahrasso?” She said

“I promise I won’t hyun-ah. I don’t need anything as long as you’re beside me”

“Aish! Jung Yong Hwa! mushyyyy!” she giggled and tapped him lightly on his broad chest.

“But you like it! I can see it in your eyes!” he said

“But you love me! I can see it in your eyes!” Seohyun said, and then she covered her face from embarrassment

“Omo. Soon to be Mrs. Jung Seo Hyun are you challenging me of the most mushy lines?”

“Noooo! It gives me chills!” Seohyun said jokingly. But then Yong choding appeared, he pretend that he’s sulking from what she said. So she grabbed the both side of his cheek and said

“Aigoo My yooong is sulky now huh? Aigoo my baby” She’s talking to him like a baby, and then all of a sudden she gave him a light kiss first, until they deepen the kiss and they made love the rest of the day. But before going to sleep

“Good night Hyuuuun”

“Good night Yoooong” He pulled her to his chest and placed her head on his chest

“Can you feel my heartbeat? It says hyun.hyun.hyun” they he heard her chuckled. Then slowly her breath became lighter, indicating that she’s already sleeping, right after confirming she’s asleep he closed his eyes and followed her to dreamland.

And a sting from his right cheeks brought him back to reality. Jonghyun slapped him hardly that even Jonghyun’s hand reddened.

“Hyung what’s happening to you” Minhyuk who’s silently crying seeing his Yonghwa hyung like that

“Where’s our strong leader?! Where’s my Yonghwa hyung who can endure anything?! Oh? Where’s our hyung who’s the one comforting us?! Where’s our lively hyung?!”  

 “Minhyuk-ah” Jungshin hold minhyuk’s arm and squeezed it, signalling him to stop.

When they arrived to the beach it was almost 12 midnight. They got off the car and sat on the rocks. Yonghwa decided to walk for a while to calm his self. But Jonghyun won’t let him walk alone.

They’ve been walking in full silence. Watching the wave hit the big rocks, the sand tickling their feet, the cold water splashing over them

“You know you can talk to me about things you can’t share to Minhyuk and Jungshin. I know you can’t show them this image of yours. But you need to let it go. They’re mature enough to understand you. Let it go Yonghwa”

“No”

They didn’t know that Minhyuk and Jungshin are walking few centimetres from them, not making any sounds.

Then the sound of a fist hitting a skin was heard. From their direction they saw Jonghyun punched Yonghwa near his jaw and Yonghwa fell, head bend low, then they saw his body shaking. Minhyuk’s about to approach him when Jonghyun stopped him and signalled him to keep quiet

Few seconds later they heard him murmuring, crying, his body won’t stop shaking, until his cries become louder, he started shouting, punching the sand with his strength left,

“SEO JOO HYUN!!!!” he shouted with all his might. Crying his heart out

“SEO JOO HYUN!! WAE?!?!?!” he hit his chest repeatedly

“IT HURTS! IT HURTS A LOT!! WAE SEO JOO HYUN?! WAE?!” his voice began to drift slowly, along with the sound of the waves

“IT PAINS ME A LOT!!! MY HEART IS GONE!”

“I’M SORRY IF YOU LOVED A STUPID MAN LIKE ME MY ANGEL”

Then the next words he said made their tears fell. The three boys stood there, lost on what to do to ease Yonghwa’s pain

“WE’RE SUPPOSE TO BE CELEBRATING OUR 3^RD ANNIVERSARY TODAY SEO JOO HYUN! I’M PLANNING TO PROPOSE TO YOU AGAIN!!!!!” he shouted with all the strength left in him. Then he lay there in the sand, looking at the sand.

“She lost her memory” jonghyun said to him

“Ne” the three boys got shocked on Yonghwa’s response.

Yonghwa hyung knows already?!

“but hyung why didn’t”

“I dreamt about it, a lot of times actually. Under different circumstances but she keeps on repeating the same lines. So maybe that prepared me for the worst. But still I hoped to God that it’s not true so I expect a lot, but then when I heard her say those words and the she looked at me, damn that’s too painful for me to bear. Not in my life I’ve experienced something like this. It hurt the crap out of me. It’s like my world is gone, and left me hanging.”  Then they saw the tears glistening in his eyes, flowing freely at the side of his face, wetting the sand.

He felt a bit better. After crying and receiving a strong blow made his head clear, he sat up and the three boys followed him

“Eottoke hyung?” Minhyuk said, voice full of pain. Looking at him with those concerned eyes

“Thank you guys” he said to them sincerely

“What will you do hyung?” asked jungshin who’s looking at him intently

“If she lost her memory, we’ll get back to zero. I’ll bring her back no matter what.” Yonghwa is now full of hope. His motivation to bring back his Angel, his Princess, His Lovelight, HIS SEOHYUN, you’ll see Jung Yunho!

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Authors note again.lol

I've been in an rollercoaster mood today (lots of emotions) so maybe that's why I started writing this update awhile ago and finished at exactly 12:30 midnight lol. who's a Nocturnal here too? *raise hands* HAHAHA!

OMONAAAAAAA! I've been receiving a lot of love from my fellow gogumas! Thanks for spending time reading my story!! I really do appreciate it a lot! and believe me I'm also affected with the characters especially ehem the one who lied. haha! I love reading your comments!! I really do!! Even tho I'm not replying to all of you I really love reading your reactions regarding my stories! please don't be shy to voice out your opinions,reactions and suggestions! I would love to hear it all! please do comment ahrasso? 

and also sorry for the wrong words or grammar I guess, I still have a long way to go to practice my english skills.heee. and you might find other scene confusing so don't be shy to ask me umkay? :] <3

Thank you all again!! till next update ^^

PS. so this past few chapters seems to have heavy scenes, so let's go lighter for now shall we?  :D

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