Play => Block B Taeil - Where Are You.

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*5 years later* - AFTER COMEBACK SHOWCASE

Block B had done their comeback showcase. Everyone was satisfied with it. Everything went well but Block B member just doesn’t feel so right when that one person was not right here. Yukwon tried the best he could not to search for him, giving him water, bad habit he still couldn't control till now.

Seriously, he really needed to forget him after what he had seen earlier. He saw a bunch of flowers and box of his favorite chocolate on top of his bag. There is a letter in the flower. He opened it and couldn’t help but letting a tears out. Pure tears that fill with nothing but love.

"You are stars in your own life. I’m sorry but I just couldn’t help to say it. I love you, Kwon. I will always be. Even if fate did not allow us to be together, fate not between us, I swear I will only love you for my entirely life. Let’s live happily with our own new life"

*FLASHBACK - 5 YEARS BACK*

"WHAT??? HYUNG YOU ARE CRAZY!! I DARE SAYING YOU ARE DARN CRAZY!! WHAT IN THE..... HYUNG… WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?" Zico said with tears flowing staining his cheek. Yukwon could only freeze in his seat looking at Minhyuk. He knew about this, Minhyuk had been saying to him about this many times but Yukwon tried his best to advise him. He would never think Minhyuk act on his own after all his efforts which is nothing but useless.

"Wait… Hyung, only want temporary right? Hyung are tired right? We will give you a rest as much as you want," Zico tried to be denial. "Zico... It’s not temporary leave. I want to drop from Block B. I’m not going to come back again."

Kyung tried to calm Zico down who were having 3WW right now. "Why? Why? After all what we had been through. You just let it go liked that? No. I’m not going to allow you," Zico looked at Cho PD with pleading eyes so he wouldn’t allow it. "Minhyuk, let me talk to you," They went to stall nearby.

"I’m not going to be mad, Minhyuk. You had your own very reasons to do this. If your reasons is reasonable I will allow you, if not I wouldn’t." Minhyuk face palmed, crying. "It’s hard, hyung. It’s hard for me to this also," Cho PD patted his back. "If it’s hard for you to leave us why would you decide on this?"

"I had to… the only reasons that helped me to stay put was Yukwon, but…. I can’t anymore."

"Why?"

"I can’t live like this again. I felt liked a shadow. No matter how many times I tried to forget it. I couldn’t. I want more but I just couldn’t. I always at the back. I couldn’t even try to say my opinion. I always hold back myself, that’s what I hate about myself. Having Yukwon taking my spotlight. My only reason to be here as a dancer but my dance is just so stupid it’s the same. Same…. No different! Not powerful to the point I was not recognized as a main dancer anymore. What am I? If you saw me not on any of our group picture, it felt so complete. It felt so right. When I’m absent from any Block B activities… did our fans even asked? No! I’m being to blame too because I’m just some kind of idiotic who wouldn’t fight back as Zico started to voice out his opinion. I just followed the steps as a slave. I’m a shadow of the group. How our fans know me? People know me for being Selca king the only dimple guys in Block B. And… what did I do more? Zico and Kyung famous for they producing our songs, Jaehyo and Jihoon had sense of variety, often do variety show, Taeil collaboration with you, Yukwon…. He did participate in Zico and Kyung mixtapes, who is known being the main dancer of the team now… but me?? What did I do? Dance representative? Which already been stole by Yukwon.. What am I? Stayed behind… looking at the member and only started talking when there is opportunity.. What did I do? I practically do nothing!! I just followed around.. I.. I…. feel nothing.. I… I hopeless.. I don’t have any talent at all."

"Minhyuk what are you talking about?” Cho PD eyes tears up after hearing Minhyuk reasons. "This is... Totally wrong.. Why would you think like that...— “he paused realizing the situation. "I’m sorry for not looking after you. I’m sorry for only looked after the other. I’m sorry for taking the opportunities.... Thinking you’re okay with it… I thought you wouldn’t care of it. I..."

"Hyung, there is no one to blame. It’s just I’m being too emotional but.. I’m sick of this idol world. I wanted to be free liked usual. All this thought... I couldn’t help but stressing about it. And the worst thing was when I’m starting to think badly about Yukwon for taking my spotlight. I even tried to do that to the one I love unconsciously. All of this scaring me. I don’t want to hurt Yukwon. I don’t want my feel for him turned to hatred... I love him. I only want to be myself, my usually self who never think of spotlight or whatever it is. I just wanted to be the old Minhyuk," he looked at Cho PD crying with hopeful look. Cho PD looked away. He couldn’t believe all of this. He never knew his sons stressing himself out liked this because of his carelessness.

"Please, let me go," Minhyuk pleaded him sobbing. "It’s for Kwonnie. I want to love him. I don’t want this thought keep invading my thoughts."

Minhyuk went to the dorm to be greeted with member disappointed face. He doesn’t care anymore. This is for the best. Yukwon smile at him releasing the tensions. Minhyuk smile back at that favorite smile of him. They went to their room, laying on the bed with Yukwon snuggle into Minhyuk. "It’s okay, Minnie. I couldn’t do anything anymore. I will support your every action."

"I will be leaving tomorrow," Minhyuk told him. With that Yukwon cried hard in his chest. The thought of being without Minhyuk next to him anymore, hurting him. He felt part of his life missing. "You know that I always love you right. You the only one I will only love for my entire life. You know I always---"

"Don’t…. Don’t tell me you gonna break with me. Think, Hyuk. It’s okay. Even if we not going to meet each other. We will still be dating. You are mine. You are always mine.. No! You are not going to break up with me. You----"

"Yukwon.. Kwon.. I had to. It’s for the bes----"

"No! No! Don’t you dare say it for the best. Don’t you even dare say that words. It’s not the best. Its hurts you idiot," Yukwon hugged him tightly snuggling his head into Minhyuk’s neck, smelling his lover scene.

"Kwon, listen to me," Yukwon shook his head. "Please….. We will not break forever. I mean.. Why don’t we take a break first? I want to settle my heart. Let’s take a break. Give me some time to solve all of this. Give me a rest. I swear after my heart is calm I will come back to you. You are the first one I search. Until that time, there will be no turned back at that time."

Yukwon just cried. "Promise me you will wait for me, Yukwon till I come to you. Promise me you will wait," Yukwon nodded his head. "Kwon, I’m sorry…. I love you."

News of Minhyuk leaving Block B had been out since last night. Minhyuk wanted this to end as fast as he could. Fans were standing in front of Stardom wanting real reasons for his leaving. Minhyuk doesn’t want to talk about it. He only left messages on his SNS:

"I want to be myself back. I am confused now. My thought is confused. I want the best for this team. That’s why I came to this conclusion."

They waited at the living room along with Cho PD and all Stardom representatives staring at Minhyuk’s backpack. Minhyuk still inside their room with Yukwon. They were hugging each other for who know how long already. Yukwon just couldn’t stop crying since last night. It took him a lot of time to make Yukwon go to sleep. Now, when he woke up the first thing he do was crying in Minhyuk’s neck. "So, this is the last time? We wouldn’t have any relation as you step out from the dorm, right?" Yukwon asked sobbing.

Minhyuk leaned in kissing him, "I will always love you, Kwon" "I love you too"

Minhyuk went to the living room. Zico wouldn’t see him; he locked himself in his room. Kyung sighed before he went to bang the door still Zico wouldn’t come out. "Kyung-ah let him be. Just tell him I was sorry."

They bid farewell, having last group hugged together, crying together. Jihoon even thought of giving Toto to Minhyuk, Minhyuk just laughed at him giving Toto back at Jihoon because he knew Jihoon couldn’t sleep without Toto next to him. Minhyuk leaned in to kiss Yukwon for the last time. Before he stepped out, Yukwon hugged him from the back.

"Minnie~ don’t leave me," tears fall from Minhyuk’s eyes. He couldn’t leave Yukwon. He really couldn’t leave him. Yukwon was his everything. Yukwon was his reasons to live. Yukwon was his oxygen. "I’m sorry Kwon," he unwrap Yukwon’s hand on his waist and stepped out from the dorm. The more hurt was when he knowledge he and Yukwon is no more.

Yukwon kneel down crying his whole heart.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

*5years later* - BEFORE COMEBAK SHOWCASE

Before showcase, Yukwon went to the Han River. This is what he always does whenever he missed Minhyuk. Han River. There were a lot of happy memories here, everything, their date, and his first kiss with Minhyuk. He smiles remembering it. He went further near to the river.

He couldn’t believe this. He couldn’t believe his eyes. He saw Minhyuk from a far. He blinked and he sure that’s really Minhyuk! His Minhyuk!! With a smile he went to approach Minhyuk but stop midway when he saw Minhyuk playing with kids around 3 years old maybe with a pregnant women happily watching them. He heard the child called her "Umma"

Yukwon was more than hurt knowing that she was Minhyuk’s wife and sons. Minhyuk broke their promise. Minhyuk broke their promise to wait for him when Yukwon spend his five years devoted himself to wait for Minhyuk to come to him, claiming his loves. Minhyuk was supposed to be alone until he came to Yukwon, not liked this, him married having sons and wife who soon going to have another baby.

Unconsciously tears flow from his eyes. He saw them went towards him. He should been hiding but his feet was just being stupid wanting to stay there making him looked pathetic, standing there with tears staining his cheek. He meets eyes with Minhyuk. Minhyuk seems to be surprised by it. *At least greet me you idiot* he thought but then Minhyuk just went passed him. Their hands slightly touch.

Yukwon closed his eyes feeling the warm radiate from Minhyuk’s body. The body that used to engulf him with warmness. That used to be with his body. That only belong to him.

"I’m sorry Yukwon."

The touch of their hands only makes them wanting to have more. To hug each other liked there is no tomorrow, letting all their feeling of this past 5 years.

"I love you, Yukwon. Will always be."

"I love you, hyung," they thought at the same time.

Revised – 13/11/2013

·         English is not my first language. I’m sorry for any grammar mistakes. Asking for your kind understanding :)