2NE1 was sitting in their living room watching TV. The flipped through channels not really caring until it landed on a channel that reported on the lives of idols and today they were featuring it. They all paid attention to what the reporter was saying.

Photos of Dara's shaven hair appeared, her ME2DAY account reports side by side.

"It is said that 2NE1's Dara's shaven hair wasn't actually her idea but CL. And according to these ME2DAY reports it seems that CL was suppose to have the hair cut but pushed it onto Dara...my how cowardly of the fierce leader." The reporter sneered obviously showing her bias in front of the camera.

"It also seems fans are upset as well. And some say that this is CL's own way of punishment. As if to say, "Dara can't date anyone with this hair!" Well fans we can all agree that CL tried to do that but failed. Because she will never be attractive as fresh vocal, Dara!" The reporter exclaimed. 

As the reporter kept talking on and on about the issue all the members stared at CL, at Chaerin.

Chaerin was lounging on the sofa. Her face showing no emotion. She brought up one of her hands to run it through her tousled blonde hair.

"Hmm." she hummed.

"Chaerin-ah! You know it's not like that!" Dara exclaimed. Her eyes moist. But it didn't convince Chaerin nor her alter ego CL. Because when she said that Dara had slightly touched the side of her shavened head.

"YEAH UNNI! Don't believe them!" The maknae exclaimed. Chaerin glanced at her. Chaerin knew that Minzy thought highly of CL. CL was her leader and her older sister. Of course she could do no wrong in her eyes but Chaerin knew that it was her maknae's biased heart talking. 

"CL-roo you shouldn't believe them." said the oldest member, Bom. Bom doted on Chaerin. Bom knew she would be upset but she never saw CL once upset, once complain or cry over anything. So she wasn't entirely sure.

"You guys might believe that." She sighed as she got of the couch and slunk towards the window facing outside. She looked at the buildings, the night view, and lights. "But does it really matter what we believe in when the public holds higher opinion than us." 

They all held their comments because it was true. Once the public decided what was true and what was false what they knew to be true was thrown out the window.

"Don't worry, something like this won't hurt me...hey Dara unni if you don't like the hair you can out grow it...I'll buy you some cute hats to cover it up for now." She said as she turned at smiled at them with her signature eye smile, her grin filled with happiness.

"CL-roo" They all whispered. Because they didn't know what to say or do.

"Well time to go to sleep! Everyone head to your rooms! Look I need to pick up something the studio. I'll be back don't wait up for me~" She said cutely, to convince them that she was Chaerin. That she wasn't hiding, that she was showing her true feelings. And for now they believed it as they nodded and said good nights and headed towards their respective rooms.

Chaerin grabbed her shades from her room, putting them on and then she slipped on her shoes quickly and exited the dorms. Heading towards Teddy's studio.

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Chaerin walked into the studio and saw Teddy sleeping on the sofa but his eyes fluttered open at the noise of the door opening. He saw Chaerin close the door and turn around. Her shades on, a soft smile on her lips. 

"Chae, what are you doing here?" he said groggily but he had an idea why she was here.

"Oppa, I want to do a cover of a song." She said softly. 

"Ah, problems?" he propped himself up. Chaerin was always like this when she had feelings welling up. She'd come here and record covers, write lyrics, anything to release her pent up emotions.

"Mm." She simply said as she headed into the recording booth. And moved her hands, signally for him to get up. 

He got up and sat by the switch board and computer.

"Which song?" He said as he readied himself to find the instrumentals. 

"Can you play the piano?" She said as she pointed at the electronic piano at his side. He nodded, "Play Chris Brown's Don't Judge Me." And luckily enough he knew how to play it and so he did.

And as he played the song he heard Chaerin sing so painfully, so sadly he was taken aback. She hadn't been here for a few months. Did her feelings pile up. It was so moving, so sad. 

So please babe
So please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
Cause it could get ugly
Before it gets beautiful
Please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
And if you love me
Then let it be beautiful
Let it be beautifu-u-ul, let it be beautiful
Let it be beautifu-u-ul, let it be beautiful

Everything I say right now
Is gonna be used in another fight
And I've been through this so many times
Can we change the subject?

(A/N: the song is from a man to a woman but this part of the lyrics I thought suited the situation.)

As she finished up, Teddy pressed save on the recording. Keeping it in the hidden files of her recordings. He saw her stand there for a while, her head titled up towards the ceiling.

He continued to play the piano and CL looked at him. He pressed a button and whispered, "Ah well I am going to continue to play, you can rest in the booth if you want."  

And with that CL slumped down to the floor as the faint tunes played in the booth. She brought her knees up, towards her face. She didn't cry, she wouldn't cry. Or maybe she couldn't cry. She stared at her knees and took off her shades and flung them to the wall, shattering them. 

She buried her face into her palms. Angered. Frustrated. Exhausted. Helpless.

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A/N: well I felt like writing another CL fanfic. (I don't know if you guys know but I really love her lol xD)

I just felt like writing this because lately CL has been getting hate from so called BJs. I ain't saying you got to love her just respect her as 2NE1's leader, 2NE1's sister, as an artist and more importantly as a person. I just got feels today especially after listening to Taeyang's cover of this song. I was just like I can see CL doing a cover of this song. SHE SHOULD DO A COVER OF THIS SONG. Damn. 

And I really don't know who to put her with in this fic or maybe i'll just let her go through her journey.