April Showers

These Words I'll Never Say

April, 2004

 

I must say a word about jealousy. I don’t feel it. But when word of his relationship spread around, I could no longer focus on reading my book, nor my studies. Which is odd, because education is obviously far more important than a petty—dare I say—crush. High school relationships are pointless. Everyone breaks up by the end of high school. Sure some people form genuine, loving relationships last past that; but the people who irk me to no end are the ones who get into a relationship for the sake of being in one. And it seems like that was the kind of relationship he was in. How typical it is for the popular girl to snatch the popular, new guy away before anyone could lay eyes on him. I don’t like her and it’s not because I am envious of her being with him. I shan’t speak of her name. I just blatantly dislike her for no reason since day one. Is that so wrong? Apparently Luhan is her first boyfriend. And from what I’ve heard, she is his first girlfriend too. First times are precious. It is for that sole reason that I am oh so jealous.

 

 

–S.H.

 

 

 

 

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tokyogaijin #1
Chapter 10: I want to see this story continue on!!! it was amazingly written and had a mellow feel to it!!! I love it, and will support it!! ^_^
allison4 #2
Chapter 9: PLEASEEEE AUTHOR NIM UPDATE SOON ><
ambai90 #3
Chapter 9: can u update soon...kinda hoping there is interactions between them...
hoping u can write longer though ...
update soon
cutepotatoehead #4
Chapter 9: Awwwww :-( Your entries are so great. I can really really relate to Seohyun's entries because I also feel like that. I am also the type of girl who let's her insecurities take over her and that I easily lose confidence in myself as well. That most of the times I spend my time by envying every beautiful girl that I know or see, hoping that I am as pretty as them. But reality easily sinks into me and it . A lot of things in life actually .

Everytime I read Seohyun's entries I feel sad and also a bit teary.
Why? Because everything that she had said were true. Girls are mostly the ones who really get insecure about themselves and easily lose confidence, which is sad to realize but then it is a fact after all, for we were born with a vulnerable heart that will only get strong whenever we feel that someone also loves us. A girl's heart is very fragile that can easily be shattered if not taken care of.And most teenage girls these days can pretty much relate to her for sometimes we can't help ourselves but be jealous of one has which we don't have and just silently wishing that we also posses what they have.
OfSereneNights #5
Chapter 9: I really love the entries from Seo and Lulu which reminded me when I used to write regularly on a diary. Such memories of childhood were still clear <3

And EXACTLY! Sadly, as much as we would love to just admit what we truly felt, everything wouldn't be easy as counting 1 2 3. In a second, we have this urge to confess but next thing happened, we found ourselves eaten by our own fears.

It looked like Luhan was a coward for doing so. But I must say that maybe, he really did love her to an extent that he couldn't say it anymore. Probably, the act of holding back would just strengthen emotions.

If I'm not mistaken...the theme is an unrequited love? IDK, just feels like it.
babykero14 #6
Chapter 9: Aaww .. Why did he backed out ?
Anyways, thanks for the update ! I love it :D
babykero14 #7
Chapter 6: Great story .. Update please !
illuxians #8
Chapter 6: UPDATE PLEASE ))))):
LoVeKpOp2 #9
Chapter 6: wow good story :) Update soon :D and Seo,If you only Knew he Wanned to break up with his gf for you :D Luhan...Seo No need to cry...=< Hwating!!:3
green_teax #10
Chapter 6: Wow. Firstly, I'm 15 and I can relate to the chapter!
Your writing style is one I really like and this kind of Drabbles are very fun to read!
Can't wait for the future updates! :)
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