''Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm falling apart'' What is happening to me. Why am 

I  writting such thing. Oh right! I know why. ''It's hard to forget someone  who gave you  so much to

remember.'' Yes he did that to me.'' I'll never let you go, because in the back of my mind,  I still believe

that someday we'll get our second chance.'' Should I believe....But...''I hate this feeling.It's one I know 

 all to well. It's a thing called heartbreak and it hurst like hell.'' I think I'm going crazy with this Mom.

Writting these silly quotes that I took from the internet. But perhaps, that is what I feel right now... 

''The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else.''  And it's still hurts.... Mom,

can I ask you something. Should I forget everything that happen that night and live with my life with

those painful memories in my head. Or should I just tell him the thruth and break up.I think I can't do that

Mom because I still love him and I can't let him go. I think I should try. Because if I don't, it'll hurt to much.

But on the other hand,if  I sent him free, It's gonna be painful too seeing with the girl he loves. ''When you're

in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut.It will heal with time, but the scars will never  fade....It hurst to let

go, but sometimes it hurts more to hold on.'' That's true. Anyway, today at school,I found what I need to

do and I did it. Even if is the right or wrong  choice,  I did it for myself. So here's what happened....

 

 

Tiffany went to school like usual. She put her uniform. She arranged her hair and she put her make-up.She

ate her breakfast and took the bus after that. When she was at school, she sat on her chair and waited for the

teacher to arrive. While waiting, she greeted her friends from her class. She also met up with Seohyun

who they talked about the lesson for today. When Yonghwa and Wooyoung came to class, Seohyun quickly 

went back to her desk because she was shy standing next to Yonghwa. 

Tiffany : Good morning ! (Eyes smiles)

Yonghwa : Yo ! How's going? (Sits at his chair)

Tiffany : Great! You?

Wooyoung : You look awfully enthusiastic today? (Sits at his chair)

Tiffany : I look like this everyday! Don't I?

Wooyoung : Never mind. ( Something strange about her.... )

Tiffany : (Eyes smile)

When the teacher enters the classroom, everybody sat at their sits and class has officially started. Someone

was staring at Tiffany all the time during class but Tiffany didn't notice him.

 

During breaktime, Tiffany went up to meet with Jessica and Yuri in the hallway.

Tiffany : By the way, where's Taeyeon?

Jessica : She's sick and had to stayed at home for today.

Yuri : She's so lucky because she's missing gym class!

Jessica : I know right!

Tiffany : I wished I was sick today...(Said it quietly)

Jessica : What did you say Fany?

Tiffany : Oh nothing! I said nothing! (Yelled)

Yuri : Why so loud?

Tiffany : Me loud?! I'm not loud. I'm completly ok today!

Jessica : What's with you today? 

Yuri : You're ok? Did something happen with your date with Taecyeon?

Jessica : Oh! By the way, what happened on the date you had with him? I hear form Taeyeon that...

Tiffany : Nothing at all....We didn't do it....

Jessica : Oh. Maybe next time .

Tiffany : I hopes so...

 

When class was about to start, Taecyeon met with Tiffany in the hallway. 

Taecyeon : Hey Fany! How's going?

Suddenly, Tiffany hugged Taecyeon as tight as she can to the point they were strangling him. Taecyeon was

suprised by her action but hugged her too. He didn't know why she hugged her but went along with it.

Tiffany : (I don't want to lose you. I want to stay by your side forever even if it hurts and even if the memories of that

event are still in my mind. I can't let you go...)

Taecyeon : What's wrong with you Fany? (Unhugged her)

Tiffany : Nothing! (Eyes smile) Lets walk to class together ok?

Taecyeon : Sure....

While they were walked hand in hand to class, that same person who was staring at Tiffany during class saw

her walking with Taecyeon. He was frustrated because Tiffany was out of her mind. After seeing that, he planned

to do something with her after lunch.

 

During lunchtime, Tiffany ate her food with Jessica and Yuri like usual. While they were eating, Yoona and

Seohyun came and sat next to them. When Tiffany notice Yoona, she got up and packed her lunch.

Jessica : Where're you going?

Tiffany : Oh. I'm going to the library. I got this homework to do.

Seohyun : What homework? I didn't write any homework? Is it that I forgot! Oh no! My image will be ruined! I 

won't get into a good college because of this!....

Tiffany : Don't worry Seohyun. It just an extra work for me from the math teacher. 

Seohyun : Ouf. That scared me. Did I overreact?

Yuri and Jessica : Yes you did.

Yoona : Why don't you stay here and do it? We can help you? I'm good in math?

Tiffany : Oh..It's not necessary. I need to to this alone. But thanks for willing to help.

Tiffany took her lunch box and handed to her locker.

Tiffany : (You didn't even help...You made things worse.)

 

After her trip from her locker, she wasn't really heading to the library. She lied because she was about to cry

when she saw her right before her eyes because her made Tiffany think about what happened that night.

Tiffany didn't had anywhere else to go so she went to the rooftop where no one where there usually

during lunchtime. She needed a place to be alone because she had a lot of thinking to do. At the roof,

she sat on the bench and looked at the sky.

Tiffany : I am stupid Mom? Staying with him?

Suddenly she heard a voice from behind. For a moment, she though it was really her mom's voice

but when she turned around, it was him. 

Nichkhun : Yah you're stupid! (Sits next to her)

Tiffany : What are you talking about....

Nichkhun : Why are you still keeping it in Tiffany?

Tiffany : What are you talki...

Nichkhun : Don't say that! I know you know what I'm talking about. So speak up or else I won't go away.

Tiffany : ....

Tiffany eyes started burst. Her tears started to fell on her knees. 

Tiffany : I...still love him. I can't let him go...

Nichkhun turned and face next to her. She held her shoulder and moved her head to face him. There

eyes met.

Nichkhun : I know you do but letting him go is the right thing. Right? If you stay by his side, don't you feel

betrayed by him or hurt because of him? Won't you feel pain while knowing he still loves someone else?

Can't you handle it Fany? Can you stay by his side while feeling and knowing this?

Tiffany : I don't know...what to do...(Still crying)

Nichkhun : But if you sent him free, will it feel better?

Tiffany : I think I can't Nichkhun...(Still crying)

Nichkhun : If you don't, your heart will break and you won't live life as usual. 

Tiffany : I know...but...(Used her hand to wipe her tears)

Nichkhun : Don't you want to make your Mom proud?

After that conversation, Tiffany decided what she had to do. She knew that this was the right choice even

if it will hurt but if she didn't did it, it will hurt more.

 

After school, Tiffany waited for Taecyeon outside of school near the school pool. She sent him a text

asking him to come here because it was urgent. When Taecyeon came rushing, there were no one

near them. At least, Tiffany can talk her heart out.

Taecyeon : What 's so urgent Fany? Did something happened? Are you hurt somewhere?

Tiffany : Yes Taecyeon. I'm hurt. I'm hurt here. (Pointing her heart)

Taecyeon : What? What are you talking about Fany?

Tiffany  : (I need to do this...) I need to breakup with you Taecyeon.

Silence appears.

Taecyeon : What? (Holding her) What are you....

Taecyeon was confused and hurt. He didn't know what to say because it was so sudden. On the other hand,

Tiffany felt like crying but held her tears. Taecyeon noticed Tiffany helding her tears so he started to worry

about her.

Tiffany : I can't be by your side anymore Taecyeon. 

Taecyeon : Why?

Tiffany : I can't while knowing you love someone else.

Taecyeon : (Shocked) What are you saying? I..don't love anyone else...I love you and only...you.

Tiffany : Don't say what it's not true. I saw you that sunday hugging Yoona! And I noticed what you said 

to her. 

Taecyeon : (Suprised) I don't...know what you're...talking about. 

Tiffany : Please don't lie to me.

Taecyeon : I'm sorry....I have a reason...

Tiffany : I don'r want to hear it because it will hurt more.Let's end this.

Before turning around, Tiffany gave back all Taecyeon gave her when they were dating. For example

the neckclabe he brought to her.

Taecyeon : Fany!

Tiffany : Goodbye.

Tiffany ran to the other side not facing him because she started crying.Tiffany was hurt but she knew

that this was the right choice. For Taecyeon, he was left standing there alone. He was also hurt but 

he knew that Tiffany was more because he caused all of this. 

Taecyeon : I'm sorry.....

 

Tiffany was now walking home. She didn't cry anymore. She's still hurt but her pain was less than what she

felt that day. While walking, a car honked at her. Tiffany turned aroung and notice who as it. Seeing that  

familiar car, she knew who it was.

Nichkhun : You need a ride?

Tiffany : Thanks. (Enters the car.)

Nichkhun : You'll alright?

Tiffany : Better than ever! (Eyes smiles) And thanks for your help.

Nichkhun : You're welcome.

Tiffany : Khun....You've changed...

Nichkhun : Don't call me that. And I didn't change ok.

Tiffany : You are much nicer I think. And also you care.

Nichkhun : Urgh ! What ever. ( Anyway, I'm happy you're alright. Seeing you like this, I'm happy and my feelings

for you are.....)

 

                                                                                                                                                   

I'm sad because of what I did. You know Mom, after what happened, I think I can move on with my life. I 

don't mind seeing him at school everyday even if it hurts. I still want to stay by his side. And you know 

Mom, there is someone else I want to talk about because what happened at school today, he saved me

and helped me through all of this. I think that me and him, something might change....But for now, I want a 

clean life without romance. For now!

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