The next day at 4:00 AM, I woke up. the first thing I did was read the message he sent me. When I opened it, tears fell down from my eyes. It says.... 

MESSAGE FOR 27TH OF DECEMBER, DON'T READ IT NOW
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Madel, well, it's our 2nd month together. Wow time's passing so fast. i really can't believe it. I just want to thank you. You gave me two best months in my whole life. gosh haha I wanted to write something really long and I’m already crying haha during those two months i cried a lot, i know that you too. we were crying together, living every moment together, even though we are so far away. our tears weren't only tears of pain. we cried a lot from happiness too. Every moment when i thought about you, how happy I’m to have you, how much my life's better now, tears were coming to my eyes. haha i remember first time we talked. hahaha it was so funny. can you believe that love as huge as ours begun with conversation about pen hahaha? I remember all those "break ups" we had. well, it could seem stupid, but i think it wasn't that unuseful.

All those break ups made me see how much i love you, that i can't live without you. haha even when we broke up we still were talking and writing to each other "i love you" haha do you remember it? i really can't imagine my life without you. haha really , I’m crying and laughing now haha i can't be mad at you. Even when i try really hard. i just can't. haha it's funny. Even when I’m trying to be mad i can't. I'll forgive you everything. Even when you will kill me haha. Honestly, i will forgive you even when you will cheat on me. i know that you won't, you are too good to do it. i just want you to know, i will forgive you everything. I'll do everything to don't ever loose you. I'm sorry for all my jealousy. You know that it's only because i love you so much. i promise, i won't do it anymore. to live together longer, to our death. Next thing, Hyun Beom, Jangmin and Ki Byul. haha it's amazing because I already love them so much, even if they live only in our minds. When I have you, everything changed. haha before I have never thought about having kids, now I want them so much. i'm thinking how much things we could do if I wasn't  in this position. But, I’m. Maybe it's better like that. It’s God's will. If I wasn't this, we will never meet. haha so it's better that I’m! haha this message is a one big mess haha. I just want to thank you so much for all those things you gave me. 

I know that i forgot about like 245423542998452349283 things to write about, but the most important thing i kept for end.
Min Byul, nae hana, saranghae, mahal kita, wo ai ni, I love you, JE T'AIME. forever.

I was crying for more than 3 hours! it's really funny! Why do I love him so so much? Why is he so special to me? I love him so so much. He's my one and only love. 

I printed out his letter. This letter is always in my wallet. Whenever we have fights, I always read it. It makes my day complete. Whenever I miss him, I'll just take my wallet, and read the letter. Amazing right? 

If you are reading this, I want you to know that I love you so so much. I hope, you are happy about this story that I made about us. I love you, forever.

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Another corny chapter isn't it? haha ^^ it was his first LONG letter to me. I always save it. I treasure it more than anything. At night, it's always beside my rosary and prayer book. So, tell me. Did your love ones already wrote a letter to you guys like this? haha Next chapter will be about Advises and Helping Each Other's Hand. Thank you all for reading this~! I love you all~!

~Ming Zhu~ ♥