My life all started when I met him. The person who inspired me. The person whom I learned to love. The person who showed me what is love. How does it feel when you are hurt. The person who showed me the true-life meaning. The guy.. I’ll love forever.

It started with a boring chat. It was the day of my final exams for the 2^nd quarter. I was really bored and waiting for 6AM since I started using the computer at 5AM.  I saw him online. I wondered, “Who is this guy? Better check who.”. I typed in the words “hi”, and he replied with a “hello”. At first, it sounds boring. But then, I brought up the topic to my life. It was about the scholarship being offered to me. To study at Kyung Hee University in Korea.

“It would be an honor! Go! Transfer here! Let’s meet and be friends!” he said. At those point of his words, I felt that, he’s a very special friend. That’s he’s always there for me whenever I have problems. That… he would be a perfect boyfriend for every girl. Oh no! it’s already 6! I rushed but then, noticed that my LUCKIEST PEN is missing! What to do? What to do?!! Oh right! Tell him about it!

“Hey! My luckiest pen is missing!! TT” I said with worry. But to my surprise, he replied, “It’s with me kkkkkk~”. This guy likes to play jokes! “Give me back my pen!” I demanded. “In your dreams! I won’t! it’s mine now! Go! You have your exams! Bye!!! xP”… ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE HIM!!!! He’s so so rude! Aish! Calm down now.. Calm down..

Why do I keep on thinking of him? Get your mind off him. Focus.. Ace the test…. Ace the test. Woah~ English is now up! I will ace this… Question number 35, him.. God! Why am I thinking of him?! Focus! Aissh… It was kindda… easy..  Is he.. my inspiration now? Oh no. this can’t happen.. This is just stupid. I can’t wait to go home! I’ll open up my inbox and message him!

After 4 hours of taking the exams, I went home and messaged him.

Actual message:

Hello~!! How are you? I hope you are fine :) oh yeah. Give me back my pen! Haha. God bless.

Actual reply:

Hi!! I’m fine! How about you? It’s kind of getting cold here in Korea. How about there? I hope you’re fine!~ God bless~!

I was sitting.. Completely in front of my computer. Bored. Something just popped out.

(Red for Him, Green for me)

Actual Chat:

Hey. How are you?

I’m fine. How bout you?

Fine. I have to tell you something..

What is it?

I’m.. gay.

You are??

Yeah. Oh.. let’s talk later. I’ll just message you.

Okay. Bye. Take care.

You too.

Why did… It broke my heart? I can’t be in love with him now.. He doesn’t want me.. We’re far away from each other. He won’t.. Accept me.

After a few hours, his chat box popped out.

Actual chat:

My boyfriend. Cheated on me..

Ohh.. He’s bad. Try to forget about him. He’s not worth of your love.

How can I? Everyday I see him. It just makes my heart break even more.

I’m.. sorry about that. I’m sure you’ll find the perfect person for you. Well, listen. I have to tell you something..

Tell me what?

I.. I love you..

I’m.. sorry but, I still love him..

I understand. Don’t worry. Well, I have to go now. I still have practice tomorrow. Bye.

Bye. Take care.

It.. hurts.. so so much..

Time passed by.. well, 2 days. I keep on encouraging him to gain courage. Good thing, we’re on vacation. We can talk liken non-stop. Well, at October 27, 9:00 PM, he kept on talking about my pictures. He kept on telling me that I’m really really beautiful etc. etc. I kept on denying it because, it wasn’t true! He keeps on telling me that I’m special and amazing. I was really blushing at that time. Even my little cousin noticed me! Aissh.. him…

You really look beautiful.

Hey.. have you, moved on?

No but.. I think I love someone else..

Who? Tell me :)

I’m talking to her right now.

Who? Give me her email!

Haha she’s asking for her own email..

What?

It’s you..

Me? Wae?!

I don’t really know.. how could you be so weak when it comes to yourself?! Can’t you notice that I already kept on telling you that you are amazing, special, beautiful etc.?!

Don’t joke!

I’m not! Do you want to hear me?!

Do it..

Me, I. I’m falling in love with you, Ming Zhu.

WHAT?

It’s true! Come on! Believe me!

I.. I love you too.

So.. what now?

I don’t know.

I love you

Why do you keep on saying “I love you”?

It’s a duty of a boyfriend right?

BOYFRIEND?

Ohh.. got to go now! Bye! :)

Yah!! Get back!

I love you!! *logs out*

That boy!!!! I’m.. falling for him more… I slept at 3:00AM. I can’t get this feeling away. I can’t sleep. I only think of him. I already found my first.. true.. love..

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My first chapter out. everything in the conversation is real. I just want others to know what is the real feeling of love. I'll update this story tomorrow. I'm starting to cry already. haha *wipes tears*. well, sorry about that. hahaha anyways, thanls for those who'll subscribe! i love you all~! ♥

~Ming Zhu