This is a new chappie of my story. It’s all about “Break Ups”. You can also relate to this story just incase someone or some people are against your relationship.

It was 2 days before our first month together. We were enjoying talking to each other, saying sweet words etc.. He excused for awhile because he’s going to do something. When he logged off, his ex.. popped out.

I once had an argument with his ex. He tends me to stay away from him. It hurts me so much. I kept on insisting on leaving him but then, he threatened me that, he’ll hurt my love.

Actual Chat:

(Orange is for his ex and Green for me)

Stay away from him, .

No. I won’t. We love each other.

Aren’t you thinking? You are too far away from him. You just met him on chat

Like I care? Hey, . I love him. We both love each other.

Like I can cuddle, hug, hold his hand

That doesn’t make sense.

If you are far away from him, it’s not true love

It doesn’t mean that it’s not true love. Have your COMMON SENSE.

Leave him. Or I will hurt him.

You can’t..

Ohh yes I can. He’s just living next to me.

Please. Give us more time. Please. Let us be together for 2 months more. After that I’ll leave him.

I already gave you a month. He’s mine now

Please. I’m going to die in 2 months. Please…

No. never. And so what if you’ll die? Just because you’ll die, you can have everything you want? I don’t think so.

Okay.. I’ll leave him.. just please. Don’t hurt him. Take care of him. Tell him that…. I love him..

Yeah  yeah. Get to the point. Break up with him now.

It maybe hurt me. But, I think this is the best for both of us. I love him. I don’t want him to be hurt. I want him to live his life. I want him to.. find another girl. A girl better than me. And, let him realize what really true love is.

Actual chat

Sweetie,  ...... told me that you are going to tell me something?

Listen.. always remember that. I love you so much okay?

Is there something wrong sweetie?

I’m…. I’m breaking up with you..

What?! Are you serious? It’s just a joke right?

No.. sorry..

This is like a game right? Like the game we always play early in the morning! The fool game! Ye! You got me! You won!

I’m sorry..

Please.. don’t..

Mr. Kim. Please leave me now okay? I’m going to sleep now. I still have classes. Good night. God bless.

But wait..

*logs off*

Hot, warm tears were falling from my eyes. I cried silently in my room while waiting for the night to pass by. I then fell into a deep slumber and woke up being hurt. How can I be so stupid to give up my only love?! I should have fight for our love! Like he did several times! I’m so so stupid! I hate myself!

I looked into my mobile. There was a message.. from him. 12 in the midnight..

Actual and real message: (Sorry if it’s cheesy ^^)

November 25, 2010 at 11:50pm

Babe i love you, please take care of yourself. I can't sleep, because I’m crying all night. Please babe, come back to me. I can't live without you. I’m thinking about suicide. You are my life, if I can't have you I can't live too. I’m not trying to force you... but I’m begging you. Please come back to me

November 26, 2010 at 12:30am

It’s raining now. i went out and i kissed the rain. i hope that you will accept it.

November 26, 2010 at 4:05am

This will just be bull if he will still mess up with me.

November 26, 2010 at 4:07am

I screamed at him and I... I slapped him. He will never mess up in our relationship again.

November 26, 2010 at 4:12am

And you are sure about that?! You know what?! I even asked him to leave us alone for 2 more months because in 2 months, I'm going to die. You know what he told me? “So? What if you'll die? Do you think you can get what you want because you're going to die? You're not good for him!”

November 26, 2010 at 4:13am

I didn't sleep all night. I was crying. He will never write to you again. I swear

November 26, 2010 at 4:18am

If you didn't sleep, then sleep! Is that a problem? I have been hurt enough with words. It's the 1st time that I loved and it will be also the last time.

November 26, 2010 at 4:23am

Please don't do it. if you don't love me and don't want to be with me then don't but please, just don't cut yourself

November 26, 2010 at 4:25am

The thing I'm most afraid of came... We're not together anymore.

November 26, 2010 at 4:28am 

We can be. If you will only want to

 November 26, 2010 at 4:29am

I know that he'll never leave us alone and will continue to me off if we will be again together.

November 26, 2010 at 4:37am

Hey, our love is stronger than him. Together, we can beat him

 November 26, 2010 at 4:39am

Are you crying now?

November 26, 2010 at 4:41am

I’m. Like all night

November 26, 2010 at 5:31am

Why can't I get you off my mind?!

 November 26, 2010 at 5:32am

Do you want to forget about me?

November 26, 2010 at 5:34am

I'm trying but, I can't.

November 26, 2010 at 5:36am 

So... you don't love me, right? I'm forcing you to comeback to me, right?

November 26, 2010 at 5:37am

You don’t understand. Everything is just too complicated. I love you but, it hurts now

November 26, 2010 at 5:40am

ing ...... . Everything was so beautiful. Why he had to destroy it? I don't want to hurt you.. Maybe it's good idea. if leaving me will make you happy, then leave me.

November 26, 2010 at 5:42am

I told you, I will do everything for you. if this will make you happy. I want you to be happy, no matter how much this will hurt me

November 26, 2010 at 5:42am

This is how much I love you…

With his words, I felt my eyes wet. I maybe experiencing this really painful feeling but, maybe, he’s suffering more.. He’s ready to set me free. Just, for my happiness.. It.. made me love him more. What does this guy have in him?! Why do I love him so so much?! .. I’m crying now.. so so much. I hope, everything would be fine.

I have no choice but to say yes. I love him, he loves me. He promised me that he would take care of our relationship. It was a big promise.. forever..

Last December, I had in my mind to break up with him. I didn’t know why but, maybe, I’ll ruin his name. I’ll ruin his image. His everything. I never felt so happy in my life. These past three months, I felt that, my life is complete. We even pretend that we’re together. In one house, our hands together, our eyes open as our warm lips touch each others’. Even rain helps us! It sends our kisses to each other. I know. I know it’s kindda silly but, it’s the only thing we can do to send our kisses.

One morning, he was really really lonely. I asked him why and told me that he’s in an empty room. WTF? Early in the morning? Aissh… he has a problem again..

Actual Chat:

Hey.. how’s in going?

Ohh.. honey..

Where are you?

I’m in the practice room.

Is there a problem?

Nothing…

I know that there is. Come on. Feel free to tell me.

I’m just thinking.. how being like this, ruined my life.

Why?

Because, because of being me right now, I can’t be with you…

Aisshh.. because of what you are now, we met! Come on. Cheer up! We had a promise right? To see each other in the next 2 years.

Ye. But, I’m not free.

Honey.. please be happy. Do it for me.

Ye. I will. Ohh. It’s snowing right now

I hate the snow!

I love it. Especially when I’m alone like this morning. Only the street lights guides the path where I’m looking.. I love when the snow falls. Watching the snowflakes. It’s like love. A snowflake is like a person. When a snowflake meets another one, it collides. Love collides. Whatever other people do, they can’t break it apart. That’s how we are right now..

Tears started to pour out of my eyes. I started sobbing and thinking about our future. I love him.. I love him so so much.. I can’t even live a minute without him. He’s my oxygen that makes me breathe. He’s my brain which makes me realize what is wrong and what’s right. He’s my heart, that shouts everything that I feel about him. He’s.. my everything..

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Sorry for this cheesy chapter ^^. those messages are one of my most treasured ones. i really treasure them. I never ever delete it in my inbox. Whenever I'm sad, I always read it. Well, stay tuned for more~! Next chapter will be about sacrifices and life lessons, Hope you'll read it~ Thanks~ ♥

~Ming Zhu~