Days pass by and I cannot do anything properly. Her confrontation really makes an impact on me. I feel so remorseful. I have done so much to hurt her but she just wanted to be friends and I thought she was another fan girl. What is seriously wrong with me?

Now that I look back, something must have really gone wrong with me. I do not push away fan girls like that. She is not even a fan girl. Maybe I pick on her because she is… she is… irritating. Yeah, she is one agitating freak.

Ok no, I admit. She is just different. Maybe that is why I was being so mean. I don’t know. Here I am staring into blank space again as if it is so interesting instead of indulging in the conversation with my friends. My head snap up when I hear her name.

“I wonder how He Ran is…” Chunji whispers enough for us to hear.

“Yea, I hope sunbae is fine. She was hurt so badly the other day,” Ricky sympathises while others nod their heads.

“Talking about her, she hasn’t been in school, has she? I mean I never saw her after that day…” CAP hyung trails off.

I fake a cough and join in. “Urmm… can you tell me about her?”

All of them have their eyebrows raise and they give me a look as if I have gone crazy. Before they assume things about me I speak up again, “I mean I feel guilty and all and I need to at least know a little bit about her to apologise… you know