I am....

((Selene's Point of View))

Yes, I am a . You can call me that, I don't care. I do not care at all. Who are you anyway? Me? I am Selene, the one and only Selene Liyana. No one should judge me.

You want to know the truth? The real me? I am... I am a , a whose dreams does not exist. Yes, I am pragmatic. I stick to only what is real and there is no such thing as imagination and dreams.

I have dreamt. I have once dreamt.

What is reality? When things happen, that is when reality is true. Does that mean that all not happening at the present is not true? Does that mean that the night does not exist when it's day time?

I am a speck of dust in a galaxy, particle not worthy of a glance. A story is a realm of dreams, but my story is the realm of reality wherein dreams are non-existent.

I have not always been this practical. I have dreamed. I have once dreamt.

But dreams are now of distant experience. Dreams takes you so high, but when reality sets in, you... you'll fall hard. destroying the heart- the factory of your dreams.

And then, there will be nothing left to do.. nothing left to be...

And on this void, you'll dream again. You'll dream... dream of dreaming. You will wish that you could dream again.. buut you can't.. because your heart won't budge.

Then, there will be nothing left to be,

but to be real...

((Flashback))

I stare at the window, outside a cafe, in Korea. This is my dream. My simple dream. Simple dream of eating, what other people can eat. I don't wish to be rich. I only wish to be normal.. to be average.... but even that is a distant dream.

"You!!! yes, you dirty little thing! Move away from this shop!!! Aishhh... this kids, they are scaring my customers away.."

Even the sight of food is deprived. I am starving...

I was starving. Nobody cared. and that is reality I was set in.

Reality is harsh, but it is true...

((End of flashback))

Yes, I was poor! And heck you care? Nobody cared. Nobody... nobody cares...

If having an empty stomach is bad, what I've been through to get it filled was worse... I've become a . I became a paid -worker... until I was discovered by a photographer. I started modelling lingerie and later on real clothes.. and the rest was history...

I never get to have what I want before. What I want I'll have and what I have, I'm never letting go...

((Shizune's Point of View))

We were talking for a while now, Koo Miyen and I. We've been cool. She maybe too loud and straightforward but that is interesting. She never got me bored with all her stories of how she met Heo Youngsaeng and stuff. I'm thinking if ever being friends with her will be fine.

"You know what? Since we are friends now, I'm going to bring you to the studio, where youngsaengie will be performing, and you can have a boyfriend, as far as I know, Hyunjoong is single." She winked at me and I laughed. She really is creepy but weird.

"Well..." I haven't been able to continue what I'm going to say, thanks to our professor, popping out of nowhere. Wait! Taehyun is not here yet. Where is that guy?!

The classes ended without a glimpse of Taehyun, where in the world is that guy?

Then Mi Yen started pulling me. Omo! this girl is really fast paced.

"You know what?! You must be excited in meeting the ss501-oppas, especially, Hyunjoong, he is famous afterall. well, jungmin isn't available since she is dating somebody at the moment. But I really think you are far prettier than her. So if you want you can make him notice you."

whoa~! Mi Yen surely is too excited for me to meet SS501. But really, I'm not listening to her blabbering anymore. Where is Taehyun, Why is he not at school? Omo, don't tell me he died.. O.o LOL... I'm being too negative here. I was too immersed in my thoughts of how Taehyun died, when I noticed that we already arrived on the KBS studio.

"Come on~! Come on~! move fast.." mi yen's strides were too fast and I fell flat on my face. She laughed at me and continued on pulling my hand, pulling me as I sit on the floor "You know, SS501's manager is to strict. If we won't be able to catch them now, they won't allow us to meet them, aishhh...." She let me stand. But continued on nagging. Seriously?

"Come on... Youngsaeng is too tired and I don't want him to wait for us."

"B...But"

"No, buts!!!!!"

"Wait," I almost shouted and she stared at me. "I was say..ying..... that...."

"What now?!"

"It's just that, I don't like SS501, nor, Hyungjoon or whoever that is... All I want to meet is SHINee"

"Aish... I like her already!" a man muttered as he placed his hand on my shoulders.

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Rini6189 #1 Jan 27, 2014 10:50:37

Chapter 11: It has been a long time since I'd last read this fic and this was updated. My interest from SHINee had drifted, which is one reason why I didn't get to this. Life can get hectic when your priorities shift and you've got more responsibilities on your plate.

It sounds like you meant "in the studio." Using the preposition "on" doesn't make sense.

It doesn't seem like Taehyun was in the studio since his presence wasn't mentioned and the SHINee members didn't say anything about seeing him there. However, it's likely that they didn't notice him or realize that he's there when he didn't make his presence known (hiding in the shadows). Whatever purpose he has, he is paying close attention to Shizune. Because of the angle that he's in while observing her, it seemed to him that she was looking at Onew. Views can be obscured when looked at from a different angle that's not within range. Something more about Taehyun's character has yet to be revealed. Taemin's side of things need to be explored as well. It's a point of curiosity about what you'd be doing with Shizune's, Taehyun's, and Taemin's characters.

Hopefully, you'll get around to updating this fic whenever you could.

ImWeird #2 May 16, 2011 10:36:23

Heyoo i lM startibg to love ur stories hahah please update soon

k-love-biased #3 Apr 1, 2011 08:19:40

I hope you'll update really soon. :DD

Rini6189 #4 Feb 27, 2011 19:45:11

This is short, but we have a sweet Onew-Shizune thing going on here. Just as he is the leader of SHINee, he can prove himself to be a good fatherly figure. He is so responsible in checking in on the other SHINee members and making sure that Shizune gets home safely. It's obvious that Onew is already in love with her even though they just met ("love at first sight" indeed). It looks like one twisted family she grew up into. Her mother wasn't setting a good example or being a good parent for her by going out clubbing with her friends instead of spending time with her on her birthday. Her father is even worst. He shouldn't have been together with another woman while he's still married. That is so morally wrong and it's infidelity on his part. It's a good reason for her parents' divorce. xD Hell might've rained a thousand daggers by then after he was found out. Throughout the madness, it's good that Shizune is able to remain sane and keep a good head on her shoulders. Taehyun's absence has gotten me puzzled. 
 
Chapter 9 mistake: 
 
I was on my pajamas and I decided to drink milk downstairs. 
* It's "in my pajamas" since she is wearing them on her body.

Rini6189 #5 Feb 27, 2011 19:20:27

That's a nice poster that you'd put up. The way that Onew reacted to their misunderstandings is cute. xD Not Taemin too! It's something I would have expected coming fron Jonghyun since he seems to be such a ladies' man. Taemin looks up to Jonghyun, but he doesn't seem to be setting a great example for him--being a flirt. The way that Taemin looks at Shizune... Could it be that she's somehow familiar to him but it's something that he couldn't quite put his finger on? xD Unless, you're trying to surprise us readers into thinking that it's Taemin but he is actually Taehyun in disguise. They are identical twins, so it's not impossible for them to pull it off. I wonder if that Selene woman had already corrupted poor Taemin. Onew is so sweet here. xD After how Shizune thanked him, he might take it the wrong way and think that there's an extra special meaning behind her actions since he's flustered over it. 
 
As grammar reminders: 
 
The correct prepositional phrase is "on the stage." When you wrote "in the stage," it makes me think of them standing in a hole on the floor while the two are watching them below. xD That wouldn't make sense because Shizune wouldn't have seen them before her. 
 
It's "closer to us." Minho and Jonghyun are heading towards them where they're standing. 
 
In this phrase, "seems like the only thing I wanted to look to feel and to hear is Taemin," there should be commas to separate the list of actions so that the sentence flows smoothly--"to look, to feel, and to hear." 
 
Onew stuttered as scratched the back of his neck with his left hand. 
* The subject "he" should be inserted after "as."

NerdyJae #6 Feb 27, 2011 08:44:30

Hayy there! Your poster is ready to be picke up! Drop by whenever you can :) Thanks for requesting at NerdyJae's Photobook and thanks for being patient~ 
~~>NerdyJae:JaeJoongLove