Envy

((Taemin's Point of View))

Have you ever envied? Have you ever felt like the whole world has desserted you for a better person? Have you ever wished that you are not yourself? I felt that way. Sometimes, I feel that way. I know, I am supposed to be happy and contented. I am a famous artist afterall. I am Lee Taemin, the SHINee's Maknae, who is dating the Korean top model. But I'm telling you. I envy.

There was a time that I even envied Jonghyun-hyung. Hyung is a thousand times a man as I am. He has a good voice, lots of singing lines, Sekyung and... and... He is happy and I am not.

Don't misunderstand, I love hyung as a brother. Its just that his life is far better than mine. He is happier and livelier.

When noona came into his life, he seemed complete. He seem content of what he has and despite all odds and hindrances, he seemed happy.

That's what I've been searching for- contentment and love.

((flashback))

I can't see anything, blood flowing from my forehead, blocking up my sight. Why does they hate me this much? What did I do?

"What did you do, Lee Taemin? Well, look at you. You look like a piece of nerdy stick!" My attackers laughed. I know, I am a sight too ugly to behold.

"You know what your problem is, math wizard," He prolonged the last syllable to emphasize the mockery.

"Leave my brother alone!" I and my attacker looked at where the voice was coming from. Tae..Taehyun?! My twin brother shouted out and puched my attacker on the face. He and his friends came in and scared my attacker away.

"You.. You are safe now, Taemin... don't cry." The last thing I saw was his face.

((End of flashback))

Taehyun has always been the cool one, and I envied him. He has lots of friends and is cheery. But things changed when I learned how to dance. The world has turned around upon us. I, the geeky math wizard as the people around me called me, became a SM trainee and later on a famous artist, and Taehyun, the cool jock in our school, turned to studying and became the geeky one. I knew he envied me too. I know how he hates it when my father praised my grades and studied hard to obtain that praise.

I have always put a lot of thought on how my twin brother felt when I became famous, I tried to step on his shoes, when he studied hard to be the rank 1 in our school. I wonder why his face was sour and emotionless, when he received that honor. I have always wondered.

((Shizune's Point of View))

I am wondering how Taehyun could be that fun to be with. He is geeky and all, but he sure knows how to make me laugh. A smile planted on my face, as I remembered how he joked around when there was only him and I left and nobody was around. Maybe he was hiding himself from other people. Maybe he was surpressing his true self and that it exploded when he found a friend in me.

"Uhmmm, Excuse me. Can I sit here?" I was about to answer no and that seat is the one I reserved for Taehyun when she sat down on it already. I felt that it would be rude if I ask her to leave. So I just smile when she shot a look at me.

"I am Mi Yen, Koo Mi yen. And you are?"

"Shizune." I answered briefly with a smile.

Then her phone rang, and I was shocked when I saw what flashed on the screen. Heo Youngsaeng?! What the? Is he the ss501 member? I shrugged.

"Yes, Saengie... Oh, good luck on your performance, you don't have to call me before you perform you know. Okay... Okay... See you soon." She smiled widely. And I was like... O.o

"Uhmm, Is that Heo Youngsaeng?" I answered and immediately shut my mouth for being so rude.

She smiled sweetly on me and answered, "Yes"

"Is he...Is he..." I was stuttering.

"He is my boyfriend but we have to keep this a secret, okay? You seemed trustworthy, and I don't think you will poison me for my youngsaeng. I can see you like the SHINee's maknae." I blushed when I realized she was looking at the wallpaper in my phone.

"Now, you're in my secret. You have to be friends with me." She grinned.

O.o

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Welcome to my story Mi Yen!! lol... sorry for not telling you that I'll use you.. and sorry for the weird and straightforward personality... LOL..

And to ate Sel, Hahaha.... I'm gonna explain your side soon...

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Rini6189 #1 Jan 27, 2014 10:50:37

Chapter 11: It has been a long time since I'd last read this fic and this was updated. My interest from SHINee had drifted, which is one reason why I didn't get to this. Life can get hectic when your priorities shift and you've got more responsibilities on your plate.

It sounds like you meant "in the studio." Using the preposition "on" doesn't make sense.

It doesn't seem like Taehyun was in the studio since his presence wasn't mentioned and the SHINee members didn't say anything about seeing him there. However, it's likely that they didn't notice him or realize that he's there when he didn't make his presence known (hiding in the shadows). Whatever purpose he has, he is paying close attention to Shizune. Because of the angle that he's in while observing her, it seemed to him that she was looking at Onew. Views can be obscured when looked at from a different angle that's not within range. Something more about Taehyun's character has yet to be revealed. Taemin's side of things need to be explored as well. It's a point of curiosity about what you'd be doing with Shizune's, Taehyun's, and Taemin's characters.

Hopefully, you'll get around to updating this fic whenever you could.

ImWeird #2 May 16, 2011 10:36:23

Heyoo i lM startibg to love ur stories hahah please update soon

k-love-biased #3 Apr 1, 2011 08:19:40

I hope you'll update really soon. :DD

Rini6189 #4 Feb 27, 2011 19:45:11

This is short, but we have a sweet Onew-Shizune thing going on here. Just as he is the leader of SHINee, he can prove himself to be a good fatherly figure. He is so responsible in checking in on the other SHINee members and making sure that Shizune gets home safely. It's obvious that Onew is already in love with her even though they just met ("love at first sight" indeed). It looks like one twisted family she grew up into. Her mother wasn't setting a good example or being a good parent for her by going out clubbing with her friends instead of spending time with her on her birthday. Her father is even worst. He shouldn't have been together with another woman while he's still married. That is so morally wrong and it's infidelity on his part. It's a good reason for her parents' divorce. xD Hell might've rained a thousand daggers by then after he was found out. Throughout the madness, it's good that Shizune is able to remain sane and keep a good head on her shoulders. Taehyun's absence has gotten me puzzled. 
 
Chapter 9 mistake: 
 
I was on my pajamas and I decided to drink milk downstairs. 
* It's "in my pajamas" since she is wearing them on her body.

Rini6189 #5 Feb 27, 2011 19:20:27

That's a nice poster that you'd put up. The way that Onew reacted to their misunderstandings is cute. xD Not Taemin too! It's something I would have expected coming fron Jonghyun since he seems to be such a ladies' man. Taemin looks up to Jonghyun, but he doesn't seem to be setting a great example for him--being a flirt. The way that Taemin looks at Shizune... Could it be that she's somehow familiar to him but it's something that he couldn't quite put his finger on? xD Unless, you're trying to surprise us readers into thinking that it's Taemin but he is actually Taehyun in disguise. They are identical twins, so it's not impossible for them to pull it off. I wonder if that Selene woman had already corrupted poor Taemin. Onew is so sweet here. xD After how Shizune thanked him, he might take it the wrong way and think that there's an extra special meaning behind her actions since he's flustered over it. 
 
As grammar reminders: 
 
The correct prepositional phrase is "on the stage." When you wrote "in the stage," it makes me think of them standing in a hole on the floor while the two are watching them below. xD That wouldn't make sense because Shizune wouldn't have seen them before her. 
 
It's "closer to us." Minho and Jonghyun are heading towards them where they're standing. 
 
In this phrase, "seems like the only thing I wanted to look to feel and to hear is Taemin," there should be commas to separate the list of actions so that the sentence flows smoothly--"to look, to feel, and to hear." 
 
Onew stuttered as scratched the back of his neck with his left hand. 
* The subject "he" should be inserted after "as."

NerdyJae #6 Feb 27, 2011 08:44:30

Hayy there! Your poster is ready to be picke up! Drop by whenever you can :) Thanks for requesting at NerdyJae's Photobook and thanks for being patient~ 
~~>NerdyJae:JaeJoongLove