ding-dong!

I sigh. "I'm Coming."

I open the door with a fake smile. In front of me are a friend of my mother with her 2 daughters. The younger one is 7 1/2 years old the other 10. "Great to see you."

They say a lot of stuff but I don't listen to them, i don't know why.

'Because you don't want to.'

I smlie. "Yeah..."

I play a little with them. Then I help the older one with her school.

The younger one was drawing. I shoudn't see it.

"Dinner's ready!" my mother shout.

"We're coming." I shout back.

"Let's make this task quick." I say to the older one.

I eat a plate of ABC-soup.

After dinner the younger one give me a shied of paper.

She draw the picture for me. Only me.

It was the ocean & in the middle was a biiig sun which is going under, on the right side is a little rock and a mermaid is sitting on it. She have brown middle long hair and was covered in purple.

I want to make a calender only for such beautiful thinks. I'll buy an A4 issue, at least it must have 85 pages. Then I could write every Birthday and so on in it. I could put some lyrics in it & maybe some pictures. That would be great~

"Thanks!" I say it really happy.

"Can we go out now?~" She say.

"Of course." I smile.

We're going out and the other follow. Every of them.

At first I was just playing but then the younger one's getting hurt & I carry her to our home. Just for a while.

When we go out again and she run ahead.

I'm sitting on a picnic blanket & start to eat - without notice it.

After about 20 min. I realize it.

I stop immediately. What the heck am I doing?

'You didn't notice it, you forgot me.'

I'm still shocked. I can't answer.

"What's up?" My mother say without any worry in her eyes.

"Nothing. I... My tummy hurt."

"So suddenly?" She doesn't even look at me.

"Yeah..." I stand up go to the rubbish bin and wanted to clean my plate but my mother interrupt me.

"What are you doing?!" Wow, now she's looking at me.

"Nothing, I'm finished."

"You aren't. Eat it."

"I'm not hungry."

"I don't care, if you're throwing anything in the rubbish then I care."

"Why?!"

"Because I made the food and don't tell me that YOU won't eat when you're home."

I eat the plate & try not to cry.

'... What happend?'

"I'm not sure."

'You... YOU FORGOT ME!'

"..."

'Do I ever forgot you? No. Even when I'm useless and you-'

"It's okay."

'No.'

"..."

Back at home they serously gave me a bowl of peanuts.

"No, thanks." I say and try to smile.

"Pleeease!~" Th older one beg.

"No, really. Thanks." 'Smile!' I smile.

"PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE!!!!~~" Both of them are begging now.

"Okay, okay." I say.

'Shut. the. . up.'

 

'How many?'

"I don't know. Maybe 1800. More or less."

'I hope you can reach your targets.'

"Hm?"

'Because you're so ing useless.'