I barely slept.

 

First, because of the stress and worry that keeps on eating me up

 

Second is because I've tried to search any sports I can try na near lang sa Metro Manila

 

Buti na lang din I have a lot of saved allowance so time lang talaga ang problema ko

 

Also, my parents are still away from a business trip. They will be back pa after two days

 

So I don't really need to pretend na I'm okay kaharap sila.

 

Dapat yung malapit para hindi maubos ang oras ko sa byahe

 

I told Ning na I'm still not feeling well and 'wag munang dumaan sa bahay using my laptop

 

She told me to rest well and just let her know if I need anything

 

I'm really going to miss my bestie, she always thinks of my well being

 

I've also asked her to tell me ASAP if nahanap niya na ang phone ko

 

Nawawala kase ang phone ko and the last time I had it is noong kachat ko si Tita at natamaan naman ng bola ni Ryujin ang kamay ko

 

She told me na she will ask for help from the council na rin just to find my phone

 

Gustong gusto ko na sabihin sa kanya ang naging result ng checkup ko but I decided to lie

 

I don't want her to get worried sa akin. She can be very emotional pa naman

 

I'm planning to tell everything to her and my parents once na matapos ko na yung bucket list ko

 

Kaya dapat makumpleto ko na siya agad agad.

 

When I got into the hospital, naka prepare na yung mga favorite kong food and snacks

 

Tita always bribes me with food kapag nag lalambing siya o kaya naman ay napasobra ang pangungulit niya sa akin at nag so-sorry.

 

Minsan 'di pa rin ako makapaniwala na mawawala na ako sa mundo

 

But seeing this just reminds me of it again pero hindi, I should not cry

 

I don't want to focus on the negative stuff. Sa bucket list ko lang ako mag fo-focus from now on.

 

When Tita Irene saw me, sobrang halata yung pag kalungkot niya

 

She probably notice na wala pa talaga akong halos na tulog.

 

I've tried to use concealer para ma-cover yung mugto ng mata ko but Tita probably knows na umiyak ako so she can still notice it

 

Nag pa CT Scan ako ulit and we did another questions and answers portion

 

"Your head injury is getting better" 

 

Halata na pilit ang ngiti niya but we both know it's not really important when there's a clot in my brain na 'di na pwede i-surgery

 

"I'm planning to go to Batangas"

 

"Batangas? Para saan?"

 

"I wanna do some physical activities, I wanna try extreme sports"

 

Ngumiti naman sakin si Tita at marahan na hinagod ang buhok ko

 

"I'm glad you're following my advise, I thinks that's a good idea"

 

Before I went out, she hugged me tightly at bumulong

 

"I'm sorry about yesterday talaga baby girl"

 

Hindi na lang ako sumagot at niyakap na lang din siya ng mahigpit

 

I'm afraid pag nag salita ako baka tuluyan ng pumatak ang luha ko at umiyak ulit

 

 

 

 

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It took almost 3 hours bago ako nakapunta sa destination ko. Partida it's the nearest pa na nakita ko sa internet

 

Medyo nahilo at sumakit ang ulo ko sa byahe kaya naman I took a nap first

 

I booked for two days and two nights naman e.

 

Nagising ako ng bandang hapon, meron pang luha ang mata ko sa pag gising ko

 

I decided to unwind and enjoy the beach muna

 

I think going to this place is a nice decision because the sea makes me feel calm

 

Hindi ko na maalala when was the last time na I went on an outing

 

I am wearing a two piece red bikini na binili ni Tita for me last year

 

We we're planning na mag family outing but my parents backed out because of a sudden emergency at work

 

I notice some guys keeps on staring at me so it made me feel uncomfortable

 

Nag focus na lang ako na i-enjoy ang water at mag swim

 

I was floating with my eyes closed ng maramdaman kong may malapit sa akin

 

When I opened my eyes, I saw three guys surrounding me

 

"Hi, pwede ba'ng mag pakilala"

 

With the way, they're cornering me, I don't feel like I can say no to them

 

I subsconciously covered my body with my hands

 

"I'm sorry, I just really want to rest, I will truly appreaciate it if you'll leave me alone"

 

"Just wanna know your name lang naman Miss" sagot pa noong isang lalaki

 

Nagulat na lang ako ng may kumabig sa akin, pulling me closer ng may nakahawak sa waist ko

 

I almost shout and used my self defense skill when I realized that it's not a stranger

 

"Babe, kanina ka pa hinahanap sa camp" 

 

Si Winter na naman?

 

Kahit saan na lang ako mag punta, sumusulpot siya

 

Marahan niya akong hinila palayo sa mga lalaki, ignoring the guys na still trying to get my name

 

"Thank you pala sa help mo ha"

 

"You're welcome, if they try na kulitin ka ulit sumigaw ka lang, those kind of guys will not gonna stop unless you'll make a scene na mapapahiya sila"

 

She sounds annoyed na parang nag papangral sa nakababatang kapatid

 

Pero mas kita kong nanlilisik ang mga mata niya na nakatingin pa rin sa mga lalaki kanina

 

"Sige, I will"

 

Ngumiti siya ng sinabi ko yon at tinignan ako mula ulo hanggang paa ng dalawang beses

 

Is Winter checking me out?

 

"I didn't know you have curves, I know you're athletic but I didn't know you'll be this y" 

 

Nakita ko pa kung paano niya saglit na dilaan ang lip ring niya

 

What the hell? Nakakadiri siya! 

 

"Ang manyak mo!" sinuntok ko pa ang balikat niya

 

"Ay sorry! I didn't mean it like that! Karina naman! I was genuinely complimenting you, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable"

 

Hinimas himas niya pa ang balikat niya

 

"Ano ba'ng ginagawa mo dito?" Tanong ko sa kanya

 

Sa laki ng Pilipinas, nag ka tagpo pa rin kami? 

 

"Obviously, Holy Week Vacation, I assume ikaw din?"

 

"Yeah, same here"

 

Pag sisinungaling ko sa kanya

 

Sa sobrang dami kong iniisip, nakalimutan ko na Holy Week na nga pala

 

"Cool! See you around then"

 

Appreciated ko naman ang pag tulong niya sa akin pero I hope we don't see each other again

 

Gusto ko muna na ma-pag isa at mag enjoy

 

Syaka kahit mali na to blame her dahil old clot naman na daw yung nakita ni Tita

 

I can't help to blame her a little kase baka mas humaba pa siguro ng saglit yung buhay ko kung hindi na trigger ng head injury yung impact ng clot

 

When she was gone ay lumipat ako sa mas konti ang tao at doon nag swimming

 

Akala ko for being polite lang ang pa "See you around" ni Winter but after almost an hour ay nakita ko siya ulit

 

"Karina! Come here!" 

 

Napaka siga talaga, ginawa pa akong aso, 'di naman kami close

 

Ayaw ko sana siyang pansinin kaso