𝕬̀ 𝖑𝖆 π–‹π–”π–‘π–Žπ–Š

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I only know jealousy because of all the bad things you taught me. I only know bad things because of your hot, wet kisses. You make me the villain. You make me the psycho. I cut myself off the black glass of your steely gaze. You ask me why I’m bleeding then look down at your blood covered hands. You make me dreamy, you make me happy, you make me delirious. I ruin your pillowcases, you ruin me. Blooming wine stained madness, fuchsia teardrops, amethyst moonbeams, headless greek statues, flashing city lights, scorpion envy. You make me into you.

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(my love has made me selfish, i cannot exist without you)

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𝔬𝔰𝔱.

i. sunrise by minoΒ β€” but at dawn coming without fail, i awake in pain. in the dark waiting for the morning to come, she is sunrise, my rise (my everything, baby you’re my everything).

ii. +5 star+ by clΒ β€” what more should i say? boy i got you in my arms, all i need is you. this night without stars is shining, the ceiling above my head is spinning. don’t let me go tonight, don’t go home today. on the island of just us two, i’m your ocean, you ma star.

iii. some nights byΒ taeyeonΒ β€” laughing loudly doesn’t seem strange in this night. a night that doesn’t wake me up from the long dream. on the day when it’s not strange to forget, i can let you go. i won’t avoid it until that day. longing isn’t sadness.

iv. amnesia by kaiΒ β€” when i open my eyes, it’s different now. it becomes a different world. you trapped me, you took away everything. the inside of my head turns white, empty everything out as much as you change.

v. window by g-dragonΒ β€” baby slow down, my whole body is shaking. on a sunny day, it suddenly rains on this window. baby calm down, my voice is shaking. the window that knows about the secrets of this silent night. no one knows about my heart β€”that i look like i’m smiling but i’m really not smiling.

Foreword

You kill my ego but I don’t even care. When I’m with you I feel alive.

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π”Žπ”žπ”―π”¦π”«π”ž has always been known as the pristine perfect go-getter. From dominating chess, to stellar academics, to her personal life, there was nothing she felt lacking about herself. Some would say she could get any boy she wanted but that’s not quite true. Love had made her a prisoner, a defenseless hostage, unable to covet anything outside the rose-colored sunglasses.

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Love’s name is 𝔍𝔒𝔫𝔬 β€” the charismatic starlet ballerino of Jangmi University β€” and he’s sweet and devastatingly attractive but dangerous for her. He can’t be with her. Why? Because he’s already taken. And despite the wicked sensuality and cruel romance, she can’t help but fall into dreamy submission. Love-drunk in dazzling storytelling and the saccharine seduction of his ice-blanketed romanticism.

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𝕬/𝕹: hello >.< your most unreliable writer is back . . .Β Β i’m deeply sorry for my inconsistency, for some reason i keep coming back to this annoying site LOL. i haaaaate the ads that pop up throughout the chapters, it irks me so much like why would anyone think this would make an enjoyable reading experience? ANYWAYS, this might be my last fic here, and i don’t plan on posting back up my other ones, not until i become more comfortable with my writing at least. a lot of the work for this story has been pre-written so i might update everyday. i really wanted to try writing something dark, poetic, sensual & sensory details-oriented. i hope through my flowery descriptions, images can pop in your mind as you read each scene. this time i told myself i wouldn’t be hung up about silent readers or lack of comments as thats one of my biggest reasons for taking down my stories, but please do subscribe and up vote if the plot interests you! also please do comment and be patient with me, i appreciate each and every one of you for taking the time out of your day to read my work πŸΈπŸ–€πŸ₯€

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@π–‡π–šπ–“π–“π–žπ–•π–†π–—π–‹π–†π–Žπ–™
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𝕬𝖑𝖑 π–—π–Žπ–Œπ–π–™π–˜ π–—π–Šπ–˜π–Šπ–—π–›π–Šπ–‰.
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𝕹𝖔 π–•π–—π–Žπ–“π–™π–Žπ–“π–Œ 𝖔𝖗 π–—π–Šπ–‰π–Žπ–˜π–™π–—π–Žπ–‡π–šπ–™π–Žπ–”π–“ π–œπ–Žπ–™π–π–”π–šπ–™ π–•π–Šπ–—π–’π–Žπ–˜π–˜π–Žπ–”π–“.
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𝕯𝖔 𝖓𝖔𝖙 π–•π–‘π–†π–Œπ–Žπ–†π–—π–Žπ–Ÿπ–Š.
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𝕴 𝖉𝖔 𝖓𝖔𝖙 π–”π–œπ–“ π–™π–π–Šπ–˜π–Š π–ˆπ–π–†π–—π–†π–ˆπ–™π–Šπ–—π–˜ 𝖔𝖗 π–†π–“π–ž π–Žπ–’π–†π–Œπ–Šπ–˜.
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bunnyparfait
{🍸} & that's a wrap! tysm to everyone who read, subscribed, commented, and upvoted until now and to future readers! questions, feedback, and comments are welcome as well!! now idk what do with myself now that this is finished LOL. oh well, love you all!
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mizzinformation #1
Chapter 12: Love is pain. Love with reckless abandon. That’s Karina for you. Jeno is a walking disaster that should be avoided at all costs. I’m just happy that Karina had character development at the end. Thanks for sharing this fic!
ii_suri #2
Chapter 12: I am happy that she came to a self-realization , that's what I always wanted for her character. Thankyou .
allenssmiths #3
Chapter 11: okay i realise i might've come off as really biased to wendy but i swear its just because... . again, cheaters! haha the way youve written both jeno and karina (and everyone else actually) is so immersive i love it
allenssmiths #4
Chapter 11: <span class='smalltext text--lighter'>Comment on <a href='/story/view/1504548/11'>𝔒𝔩𝔒𝔳𝔒𝔫</a></span>
god this was amzing... and absolutely mind-boggling how jeno, after having been with karina, still grovels at wendy's feet. it was so gracious of her to still come all the way out to hear his side of the story, even if she got no closure. you can really see the difference their lives have had on their levels of maturity here. jeno and karina feel like reckless kids in love, where wendy is able to have a serious sit down talk about their painful past. it really was obvious that jeno wasn't ready to be in the kind of relationship he was begging wendy for right from their conversation at the bar. he kept skirting around the issue and expressed no regret. makes me wonder why he even bothered. he has to let go of one if he wants the other, but even now, he's still unwilling to.. .

i suppose its good that at least wendy is strong enough to see that getting back into it would only cause them both more pain. i absolutely loved the last thing jeno said to her, because i absolutely agree. she's been hurt, but she will recover from this. she's selflessly loved him, and now she's strong enough to let him go
ii_suri #5
Chapter 10: Always waiting for your updates, I would say I feel bad for Wendy and I don't want Karina and Jeno to be happy together either.
allenssmiths #6
Chapter 10: oh oops, and also i meant to add that i'm taking wendy's side because... well, jeno's a cheater, and karina is a relationship-wrecker. i came for your wonderful storytelling, i'm on the side of no one but wendy. haahha
allenssmiths #7
Chapter 10: hi author, i honestly have been reading with bated breath the entire time and it's beautifully insane how you build up this world and then just shatter it to pieces
from my reading, jeno has always been... split in halves, really. the contrast of what he would do if wendy or karina was the only one left in the world is... really intense. and there are scattered descriptions of how he behaves when he's with either woman. he feels a little more selfish with karina, but it's the complete opposite with wendy. marvellously written, of course. that being said, i feel the most bad for wendy. if there was some kind of plot twist, i definitely didn't catch it, because from what i've seen, wendy has been nothing but sweet, kind and genuine with her feelings. i think we all knew this outcome was inevitable, but feeling them going through it really drives the knife in

and with the last bit about marking things not meaning you own them is so poignant. i think karina is getting what comes to her, but it's something she needs to learn from. her mother is absolutely right, home-wrecking is uh... not the way to go. it was a little frustrating that karina is so stubborn, but if she wants to learn it the hard way then so be it. these kids all have their vices that they've ignored until it's too late to get out of. i probably sound like a parent, but i can assure you, its just because i (hope) i have my morals straight and can see when people are being needlessly hurtful

thank you for this chapter !
sarcastrophe #8
Chapter 9: Can I just emphasize once more how much I love your narrations?? I loved the last bit like I could picture Karina and Wendy side by side while exchanging those dialogues. It's intense, intimidating and purely *chef's kiss*. Thank you for another worth reading chapter that left us wanting for more. I'm happy that you still continued this! We'll be waiting so please take your time <3
ii_suri #9
Chapter 9: You know ms. Writer I have been checking the update for 9th chapter everyday. What you write is so beautiful , it feels my heart is breaking and healing at the same time. Thanks for the story .
ii_suri #10
Waiting for the update . I really like how this story has poetic narrations, it just adds up to the story . Hope to see a happy ending for Karina , either single or with Jeno . BTW , when would u be able to update next chapter?
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