Jessica's POV

Doing what I want to do without media following and people judging and bashing me is really great but with also great consequences. It has been 10 years since I haven't communicated with my former members, I only saw news about them whenever I opened my private social media accounts.

I know there will be people that will say that I shouldn't run away with my problem, but that is the only thing I know what to do during that time. The company that handled my group before really gives me a hard time making me choose between my group who I love and my business that is really my dream. I didn't choose one, both of them are important for me so that gives them a decision to kick me out of the group. They made me out of the group since they think my brand will bring problems to the other girls' endorsements. That was never my intention to do, what I just want is to start my new dream which involves fashion and not just singing and dancing since I know it will not be a long time that I can be on stage.

My previous company didn't stop there, they made sure to close my business. The time they noticed changes in me, that I gave more focus on my business, they do everything so my investors will pull out on my business. When that happened I didn't know what to do anymore, I lost my group and I lost my new business. In addition to that, I broke up with my boyfriend at that time a week before it all happened. 

So can anybody imagine my pain at that time? It feels like I want to end everything, it feels like I lose everything I have. Running away is my only option so I will not burden everyone, especially my family. I know they are there for me to help me with everything but it doesn't feel right for me. I don't want