Jiyeon’s PoV

-Joon-ah are you okey?

-HAHAHAHAH I just thought you needed another hug

-Well, yeah… no wait! YAH! I said I’m fine

-You are not fine, a person who is “fine” don’t run away without saying anything

-I just had to go

-Sure- he said sarcastly

-I have to go now…

-Wait, let’s go back to the hospital, everyone is worried

-Worried? Why?

-Because someone ran away from them with a “no-friends” face

-YAH! I already told you I had to go

-Yeah yeah… Come one, you have some things to explain

Explain? I can’t go back, what am I going to say? “I talked to Jieun and I remembered something?”… well that’s not bad but NO! Jieun is going to ask me things that I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to answer... at least I know she would never believe those things about me… although those are real. I have to go to the apartment, I have to search SiYoon, and I have… to start erasing my friendship with everyone, It’s obvious I can’t have a normal life with friends, but what’s the problem? I ALREADY KNOW IT! It was me who wanted friends, and I knew I couldn’t have friends… but noo! Me the childish girl made friends and now I have to deal with the problems, now I have to disappear or deal with their death… Or I just can… find SiYoon and make something to send him away from me and my friends or just… away from my friends, without me

-Ani… I can’t go back

-What? Why?

-I have to go home… I have something to do- I said and walked away from Joon who stood there looking at me

-Mianhe Joon-ah- I said in a whisper and started walking...*sigh* then someone took my wrist and I lost control

-Jiyeon-ah, I don’t know why but I can’t let you go like this… Is there a problem? You can tell me, I’m here for you, you know? I’m your friend…

Joon-ah please, don’t do this, I’ll explain you someday but that day is not today.. Mianhe, I’m really sorry Joonnie~  I pushed my wrist from his hand…

-I have to go… I’ll talk to you later ne?

-When is that?

-God knows when…- I said and ran away

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AT THE APARTMENT

-SeoJoonnie?? SeoJoon-ah are you here? I have to talk with you! Where are you? Come here please…-

Nobody answer, where is he? Maybe he went out with is friends? *sigh* at least he can go out with his friends, Where in this freaking world is he?

-SEOJOON-AH?

I searched for him in every corner of the apartment and I couldn’t find him… Don’t worry Jiyeon-ah, he is with his friends in some bar looking for girls or taking some drinks, he’s having a good time… Go and take a relaxing bath and later eat some kimchii and saw series at the TV and in the night you’ll see SeoJoon walking in the living room smiling and he’s going to tell you something like “Jiyeonniee~~ I cheated on you” or something like that, and you are going to laugh… That’s all, tomorrow you’ll see your friends safe and nobody is going to mess up with them…

I was walking to my room when I noticed the blue light in the telephone, one message… I walked to the phone and pressed the button…

“Jiyeon-ah… Annyeong”I paralyzed “How was your day? You saw your cute friend? I’m sorry I swear you I told my boys to be good with her but they are too rebels, what I’m going to do? I’m sure you are really mad… mianhe~~ Btw you have such a beautiful apartment, where did you find all the money for those expensive things…………………. Don’t worry I didn’t touch anything, I was searching for you, but you wasn’t there so I just walked away, I saw some cute pictures in the wall, You and SeoJoon are still friends? Omo… I though you understood when I met your best friend in the past, don’t you remember? How was her name? Hannah? Boram? HyeSung?... Oh wait!  Yeah yeah! NICOLE! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH I remember when she cried when I told her I was your brother, she just cried! I don’t know why you were her friend, she was so stupid,  but don’t worry I already took charge of that right?… *sigh* Well, maybe I’ll do the same with SeoJoonnie~~ what do you think? I have to remember to you that… YOU ARE MINE AND ONLY MINE?..... Well I forgive you because I love you, my little sister… how is hyung? Is he doing well? Mianhe Jiyeonnie  I have to go now but See you in these days Bye bye” I stood there trembling... SiYoon-ah

-He… SiYoon… Nicole, she… WAE?!- I started crying and throwing things everywhere – I have to protect SeoJoon… I have to tell oppa about this.- I took my cellphone and searched in the contact list the name I writed for oppa for his protection…and then I pressed the dial button….

“Yeah?”

-Oppa…

“Jiyeon-ah?”

-Yeah

“What happen?”

-I… I just heard some message from…

“from who? Are you okey? Your voice sounds so bad… My poor sister, oppa is worried about you because you never call him”

-Mianhe oppa…  Yeah I’m fine, don’t worry but, we have some problems here

“Problems? Is SeoJoon being such a jerk again?”

-Ani… This problems is worst, SiYoon…

“SiYoon?” oppa’s voice turned so cold and angry “ What happened?

-He left me a voice message in the phone… He has been here, in my apartment

“He is back… Are you okey?”

-He came here for me, but I wasn’t in home so he left but…

“What?”

-I’m sorry oppa… I’ve been such a childish girl

“What are you talking about Jiyeon?"

-You remember I can’t have any interaction with the world, you know I only have you and SeoJoon, but I became a stupid girl, I made friends, I made more people in danger… I ignored the past and now I have to deal with the problems… My best friend, SiYoon’s guys punched her, and now she’s at the hospital… I have a few friends, and I don’t want the same end for them

“*sigh* Jiyeon-ah we talked about this… Now you can’t do anything, the best thing I can tell you is that you have to move from that apartment, and talk to SeoJoon. You have to keep living your life but now you have to cut all those friends… Mianhe Jiyeon-ah, but is better if you keep yourself apart from the world, you’re really lucky that your boss didn’t find out that you live with SeoJoon and the worst… he didn’t know SeoJoon knows about your work, the things you do, and did.”

Oppa is right, I wanted this, and now I have to cut all, I have to become a stupid and make them suffer… and is best if they feel pain from me and not from SiYoon…

“Yeah oppa, I know what I have to do… Thanks, I’ll call you when I know something about SiYoon-ah”

“I’m sorry Jiyeon-ah, is the best for them and you know it… please call my more often ne? I miss my sister”

“Annyeong HyunJoong-oppa” I ended the call and threw the cellphone in the sofa, then I lie in the sofa too… How I’m gonna do this? How I’m gonna erase all these years of friendship? *sigh* JiEun-ah I'm gonnamiss you, and Junhyung and Jinwoonnie and Yoseobbie, Hyomin and Eunjung unnies... I'm gonna miss you all. And SeoJoonnie he... I can't be away from him, I don't have anybody else, I need him, I... I can't leave him, I just can't. And this annyoying guy Lee Joon-shii, he is becoming more important that I thought, and that is... bad, I can't keep becoming his friend, he is going to feel pain if we keep with this relationship, with this friendship.

-Jiyeon-ah for now the only thing you need is a good bath and think- I said talking with me, then I got up and walked to the bathroom and took a shower, I let the water run for all my body, from my forehead to my nose my lips until they finally ended in my feets, I closed my eyes and images from the past appeared in my mind like fireworks, too fast, but too happy, I liked but when everything became getting strange, sad... and the last picture I saw in my mind was my mom and my dad... with me and my brohters then I opened my eyes scared, feeling uncomfortable. I got out from the bathroom and duudee I definetly needed that bath, but all my peace dissapeared when my phone vibrate and recived a message from the boss... another job, in a good momment...- I cleaned my self to become dirty now *sigh* I took my usual "job clothes" and put it on, my black boots, my black jacket and then took my cellphone and walked in the elevator. When I got out from the building I saw SeoJoon walking with his friends, I smiled, at least he is having some fun... mianhe SeoJoonnie for being the reason why you will be sad and mad. In that moment he saw me and I just walked away without looking back. My life is going to change but... is for go or for bad. I already made my desicion...

-Mianhe everyone, I'm so selfish...

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Hello Everyone... How are you all guys? I've been so full until the top but now I finished all my tests! SO YAAAY FOR MEE? LOL. So I have to say that I lost my inspiration again xD It's just that I don't know how to keep the story T_T [forever bad writer?]  But I have some ideas I just need to unite all and make it sound logical for you guys ._. Please comment and again sorry for my horrible mistakes in my bad English...