I was pacing back and forth in my room waiting to hear the dorm door open. I had a slew of things to say and I was getting impatient from waiting for those two to get back.

What was going through their minds?

Who the knows at this point. I need to be able to speak with them calmly and not get angry or they just won’t talk to me.

*knock knock*

“Go away” I grumbled.

“Fine, but they are here” I heard Seulgi whisper just barely loud enough for me to hear.

Great

I opened the door and walked out into the living room only to find it empty.

They must be in the bedroom

I had to admit I was worried about walking into the bedroom. Last time I did not end well and I prefer not to have a redo of what happened. I need to remain calm and not get my in a bunch before they explain themselves. But they definitely have to explain themselves. There is no getting around what I saw. They should have no excuses. I just want the truth. I took a deep breath and knocked on Wendy’s door.

*knock knock*

There was no immediate answer.

*Knock knock*

This time I knocked louder so they knew I was not going away and that I really needed us to talk about the events that happened tonight.

I could hear faint whispering on the other side of the door and I knew Joy was arguing quietly about how they should open the door but Wendy doesn’t want to.

The door clicked open and Joy stood to the side waiting for me to walk in. I walked in and saw Wendy sitting on her bed facing the window avoiding eye contact with me. I took a seat on the computer desk chair and waited knowing one of them would start first.

“Ok, No Wendy and I are not dating. Yes we did all of that just to piss you off because YOU stepped out of line and crossed a boundary that had nothing to do with you. You might be the leader of Red Velvet but you are NOT the parent of 4 children. You have to respect the fact that we all have lives outside of the group and that you might not like everything we do. As long as we keep things private amongst ourselves I see no problem in anything that has occurred or will occur in the future. “ She finished with a large sign and then plopped on the bed right next to Wedny who was still looking out the window.

I nodded, processing her words, trying to figure out how to respond without causing an issue and further upsetting everyone. I thought long and hard about what I was going to say before I said it. I don’t want to hurt Wendy.

And joy.

Yes, and Joy.

“Ok, I understand that I over stepped when I should not have and I understand that I messed up and got angry without hearing your side of the story and I should have listened before I got upset and started yelling at you. For all of those things I apologize. However I would like you to see from my point of view. As the leader I am responsible for everything you do, on or off the job. If you mess up I get in trouble. If you step out of line I get the back hand from the company. I will continue to do so because I am the one who fails if you mess up and I do not fix it. I never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings but my personal opinion stands as I stated earlier. “ I finished and there was a long pause. Wedny was still silent and said nothing.

“And what is that?” Wendy suddenly asked with a sharp tone as she looked directly into my eyes.

I shuttered. I froze. I was scared for some reason. Because I knew my answer would decide on if she was still mad at me or not. If she would be able to be in the same room with me for more than 5 minutes at a time in the future.

I don’t want to upset her.

I didn’t break eye contact with her as I spoke.

“I don’t approve of relationships within the group. If you wish to date other girls and call yourself a lesbian that is fine. But I cannot allow you to risk the group's future for something that might not work out at all. I want you to be happy, both of you, but we both know that something within the group will not work out.” I said finally. I could see the hurt in Wendy’s eyes. I could see how upset she really was. It was like someone took all her clothes off and put her in the middle of the room for all to see.

“No, you don’t get to say that. Wendy and I are really not interested in each other. It's not me Wendy likes and it's not Wendy that I like. We simply are here for each other. I am here for Wendy because she is having a hard time with the accident and recovery is hard. Which by the way you would know if you asked her about it” She stated angrily.

To be honest I was taken aback by how bold joy had gotten over the past half a day with her words towards me. So I had to figure a way out of this mess I created for myself.

“Ok, I see from your point of view. Wendy, I am truly sorry I upset you. I never meant for it to happen. I would like to know what I can do to get you to forgive me. I would like to earn your forgiveness. And Joy, I also apologize for overstepping. I really was never intentionally trying to step on anyone's toes. I just wanted things to stay safe like they are now. “ I finally said something I was actually happy with my current answer. I glanced up at Wendy and could see that she was trying to process what I said.

“I am tired and I would like to go to bed” She stated as she got up, took clothes out of her dresser and left for the bathroom.

I was