Jeongyeons’ POV

Timing is everything when it comes to love. You may love someone but the other person doesn't love you back and vice versa; or the two persons love each other but they cannot be together; or in my case, my best friend and I love each other but we have a different kind of love for each – I love her more than a friend and she loves me just as a friend. Let's add the fact that she's already in love and in a relationship with someone else whom she met just six months ago. I had it all planned out as to when and how I will finally confess my feelings to my best friend Mina but I was the one who got the surprise. The moment I saw them kiss literally broke my heart. I never thought I'd ever have nor feel my first heartbreak by my own best friend. I guess it's also my fault that I assumed that we would be together; I mean she is the only person I want to be with for the rest of my life but I won't have the chance now unless they don't work out but I know I will be waiting even if it takes forever.

I've been back in Busan for the holidays for a week now and just three days ago, I confessed my feelings to Mina where it ended with an awkward hug between us then I watched her walk away to go back to Chaeyoung who was watching from a distance.

Flashback, three days ago…

It was the day after Christmas and Mina and I are on our way to the hospital to pick up Chaeyoung. Apparently today is the last day of her therapy and after that she can already go home. Her parents were supposed to pick her up but Mina volunteered and she asked me to go with her so I did. We arrived at the hospital around ten and headed to the PT Room. Mina entered right away but I stayed behind to make a call.

Me: Dude, I'm totally confessing to Mina today.
Jungkook: Are you sure you can finally do it? I mean, I don't want to sound pessimistic but what if she reacts differently from what you were expecting?
Me: I know that this could go to two different ways but I'm really hoping for the better on but if not, then I guess I'll just have to deal with it.
Jungkook: If this turns badly, I'll buy you a beer and we'll go to this gay bar I know.
Me: Haha! Thanks dude.

My brother and I talked some more until I realized that Mina must be looking for me so when we hung up, I went inside the room and immediately dropped my phone as I see Mina kissing Chaeyoung. It's like they're lost in their own world and I was the who came to ruin it. I wanted to leave but my feet were somehow glued to the floor. It's like I was meant to watch them or something or me to get the message, I didn't mean to ruin the moment, I didn't even realize I was crying until I sniffed and it caught their attention. When Mina looked at me, that's when I was able to move and ran out. I heard Mina running after me but I didn't stop. I didn't know where I was going I just kept running until my legs gave up. I sat on the floor, leaned my back against the wall and just cried. I don't know what part of the hospital this is but good thing is there are not much people on it. Not five minutes later, I hear some footsteps and when I looked up I saw Mina. She sat down beside me and I hid my face from her. I really don't want her to see me like this but knowing Mina, no matter how much I refuse, she'll find a way. She held my hand but didn't say anything; she just let me finish and when I did (I just don't know how long) she gave me her handkerchief.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

I couldn't respond to her question. All the strength and confidence I had earlier just left me. I open my mouth but no words came out. She waited for me to speak so I took a deep breath and looked at her.

"I had it all planned out Mina, I mean, I was supposed to ask you to go to BlinkOnceLuv and we would just spend the night together but all of those doesn't matter now." I started and I can see the confusion on her face.

"What? It's expensive there. Why would we go there?" she asked.

Here it goes. "Because today was supposed to be the day I tell you that I love you Mina"

She smiled at me. "But I already know that you love me Jeong and you know I love you too"

Not getting my hopes high on this one. I already know what she meant by that. She looked me in the eye and understood what I meant. There was a moment of silence between us and to be honest, I don't have enough strength to keep on explaining.

"I don't know what to say Jeong. I didn't mean to hurt you like this and I really am sorry that you have to find out about Chaeyoung and me that way" Mina said while I tried to fight back my tears. I couldn't take it anymore; I need to get away from this place.

I was going to tell you but -""

I cut her off, "No, you don't need to explain. I get it. I…I'll just go home for now. You should go back to Chaeyoung, she's probably wondering where you went" with that, we stood up and hugged each other. It was kind of awkward because I've officially been friend zoned by my best friend. When we pulled away, she started walking back only to find Chaeyoung on the other end of the corridor.

I was supposed to go back to Paris after New Year but because of what happened; I decided to go back earlier. Mina and I haven't talked since that day; when she left I called my brother to pick me up and we went to a bar I didn't know and I got drunk as hell. I told my brother what happened and he just watched me drown in my tears and beer. I mean, he was trying his best to comfort me; nothing works though, at least for now. He even tried to hook me up with every single girl in the bar, but for some reason, they all remind me of Mina in different ways. I must've passed out because I don't remember going home. I woke up with a massive headache but good thing that my brother left some water and aspirin so I took it. I felt the effect right away but I still feel so heavy. For just a few seconds I forgot why I drank so much last night and when I remembered my tears went streaming down my face. Maybe I should have just kept my feelings to myself; maybe I shouldn't have hoped that she would feel the same; maybe, just maybe, I would be able to be with her without any awkwardness. I really thought we would be perfect together but I was wrong. There are a lot of things I hoped for if we were going to be with each other that I would never have the chance to experience. I hope Chaeyoung makes her happy because that's all I would ever ask.