12/09/19

I was in geography today (she wasn’t in my class) and I noticed another girl in front of me. I thought to myself, there’s so many people out there and yet I found myself still thinking about her. Whenever I answered a question, my classmates actually seemed interested in what I would say; she wouldn’t even glance back. I know this is something minute, so maybe this is reflecting how I’m feeling. I’m unimportant, unwanted; the slightest bit of attention is a precious gift

It was our lunch break and I was in the common room, talking to my friends. In the corner of my eye, I see her just chatting away to her friends. A few minutes later, I notice she isn’t there anymore. And of course, she is sitting next to all of them. I just wanted to be one of them, to have the confidence to speak to her.

This sense of desperation culminated into a burning anger in my stomach. I suddenly felt an urge to run out the room, throw paper balls at her, to destroy everything.